Persist
The Part 33 S 2
Everyone's still looking at me and Zefan. My heart just got fucked up. Vidi tried to signal me to accept Zefan. But, my heart was still silent even wanting it to run away from there.
"She's my woman." I looked at the source of the voice. Aqils. He came closer and immediately hugged my waist.
I kept quiet because I was confused by all this. After coming to my senses, I pushed Aqil very hard.
"What did you say?" I asked Aqil.
"Alisha, you are my woman" Aqil said with a piercing look.
Zefan stood up and looked towards Aqil. Zefan's eyes turned red, he held back a fury.
"Listen. I've chosen Zefan," I said loudly. All eyes were back on me.
Did I say it wrong? I walked over to Zefan and took the ring. I put it right in front of Aqil.
"Have you seen? I chose Zefan over a man like you" I said.
"Do you really accept me?" ask Zefan. He was still fixated on the unexpected, the arrival of Aqil.
"Why am I lying, I told you that I'm going to open a new leaf." I smiled at Zefan.
Sorry Zefan, I was wrong for playing with your heart. I accepted you because I wanted Aqil to get away from me.
Aqil pulled myself out of the crowd "Well what are you?" I asked Aqil when we were in a quiet place.
"Tell me if you really love her!" aqil shouted at me.
I looked at him. My heart cried out the name Aqil, I even refrained from hugging her.
"Say Alisha!" Aqil was shouting.
"I ... "i was silent for a moment and tried to say what Aqil wanted "i love Zefan, more than I love you," I said.
Aqil laughed but the laughter sounded forced. He cornered me to the wall.
"I've been looking for you until now and you've chosen another man." Aqil's eyes said everything he wanted. I looked into those eyes, eyes that I used to admire.
"You're getting married too. What's wrong with me loving another man" I said.
"You have me Al." Aqil just left, leaving me with the pain in my heart.
I sat down, helpless. This heart even hates me because I have to let go of Aqil.
The sound of footsteps made me wake up from my seat. I tidied up my clothes and my hood.
"You even tricked me Al," said Yesi. This time he looked disappointed.
"I'm sorry, I'm doing this because I don't want anyone to get hurt" I replied.
"You're getting hurt for everybody. You are selfish Al," said Yesi. Yesi immediately caught up with Aqil, maybe he would calm Aqil down.
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Zefab took me to the apartment. He asked me several times how I was doing. I just kept quiet, I thought about what I did. I gave Zefan false hope. Aqil even had to get hurt because of my lies.
"Alisha, don't think of anything unimportant. Now you're just focusing on me, not the other guy, okay?" zefan said to me.
I looked into her eyes gently "Thank you for coming with me, I won't let you down." It's not a promise, but I'll try.
"Want me to take you upstairs?" ask Zefan.
"No need, I can still be alone." I got off Zefan's car. Zefan even got out of his car.
"I will always wait for you until you are ready to be my wife" Zefan said slowly.
"Thank you, Zefan." I smiled, this time I am very grateful to Zefan.
We were silent for a moment. Just look at each other and a smile.
"Can I go home now" asked Zefan later.
I nodded, "Of course I can." I laughed at Zefan's question.
Zefan got into the car and waved his hand at me.
"Be careful on the road" I told Zefan.
I stayed there until Zefan and his car were lost at a turn. This heart is a little happy.
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Photos of Mama and Papa still faithfully accompany me. How long have I not been to their graves because of my marriage to Aqil. I looked at the photo, the feeling of longing came back.
I almost cried until I got a message from Vidi. He and Mila are downstairs. I rushed to get down and pick them up.
"Tok coming here malem-malem anyway?" ask them.
"If you're afraid of anything" replied Vidi.
"I'm okay. Have you eaten yet?" I asked Mila and Vidi.
"Not yet, the intention is also to bring you to eat." Mila took Vidi's hand.
"It just so happens, Come on." Without ba bi bu I went straight into Vidi's car rather than having to see their affection.
"What did Aqil do to you?" ask Vidi when we're all in the car.
"Nothing." I shook my head.
"We know you're lying" Mila said.
I shook my head and refocused myself on looking out of the car.
"Whatever happens you have to suffer the consequences." Vidi said that with a gaze that was still focused on the streets.
"I know that." I resigned to whatever would happen later.
"The marriage of Aqil and Yesi, I will handle it myself" Mila said.
"I'm down here" I said a little loudly.
"Why?" ask Vidi.
"I have a sudden business." Now I have to lie to Vidi.
Vidi stopped the car, I got off without responding to all their questions. I guess Vidi and Mila will be on my side as it turns out, they just want to revile my decision.
"There's no taxis for now." I took a deep breath.
I've gone too far, how am I going to get back. I sat on the side of the road. I got a message from Zefan several times. There is no intention to reply to him.
"I'm sorry, Zefan," I said softly.
"You're sorry you chose him, right?" said someone beside me.
I looked and how surprised I was. Aqil, why did he know I was here. I looked left and right but there was no Jesi there.
"You, why are you in Sjni?" ask her.
"Every Aqil there must be Alisha" Aqil said with a smile.
"No" I refute Aqil's words.
Aqil laughed and stood in front of me, "Alisha, don't binge your heart. You love me and will always love me." Aqil rubbed my cheek but I brushed her hand away.
"I belong to someone else. Don't do anything disgusting." I'm ready to go. Today I feel a growing heartache.
"You'll still be mine, Alisha!" aqil shouted behind me.
I ran small, I was afraid Aqil would come back to get me. I'm afraid this heart is again shouting its name. I don't want my dark past back.
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to be continued
