Persist
The Part 26
This morning I woke up in the front room. I slept on the couch last night waiting for Aqil and Mei to come home. No messages and phone calls from Aqil.
"You slept here?". Aqil asked me when she was just in.
I nodded slowly and was still very sleepy. Badankuntun all hurt.
"We go to the room". Aqil said slowly. He tried to get me.
"I'm tired too, sling". Mei pushed. While Aqil he pulled until he hugged her. Even Aqil did not refuse a single bit.
I guess after knowing everything she'll change but still her love is only for Mei. I tried to get up and go back to my room.
After the shower I took my bag to go to the flower shop. I haven't been there in a long time. Giel may be overwhelmed because of me.
"Where are you?. Don't want to be with me today?". Aqil faced me at the door.
"Your life is already beautiful with Mei. I'm asking, divorce me".
It's hard to say this but what a power I don't want my son to be born and see his father love others more than his own mother.
"You're kidding, right?". Aqil went into my room and tried to hug me.
"No. I'm serious about what I say".
"I've told you that you're mine".Aqil this time said loudly to me.
"I'm not your puppet, I have feelings. Have you ever thought about it".
"You've started to be brave, it's only been a few days that I've been kind to you". Aqil came closer to me. Now I locked his strapping body. "Right what Mei said, you and Gama have a special relationship".
It's true what I thought. Mei, back to successfully instigate Aqil.
"Don't be this Gama's son too". Aqil pressed my stomach hard.
I screamed and said please. But what I got. Mei laughed happily behind Aqil.
"I beg you to let me go. For the sake of our son Aqil".This time I really beg. My stomach is already very sick.
I'm even so tired of struggling. I can only stand by what happened. I'm just apologizing to my son for not being able to take care of him.
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I woke up in a hospital dress. My mother was crying beside me. Papa looks confused there.
"Ma, how's my son".
Not the answer I received but a cry that grew stronger. I looked towards Papa. Papa just shook his head.
"I know the answer". I slowly said it. Without my tears falling down my cheeks. I held my stomach trembling.
What I dreamed of is gone. Destroyed is all hope, and all this is because of the man I love.
"You're patient, baby, Mama knows you're tired. Mama forced you, until finally this happened". Mama hugged me. I just kept quiet.
I can't even feel like saying anything. Hollowly. That's how I feel right now.
Not long Aqil entered. My mom and dad left us. I still don't believe everything. He is the man I love very much. Him, my son's killer.
"Sorry Al. I beg you to forgive me". Aqil rests before me.
"Sorry." I closed my eyes and endured the pain. "You took everything from me. And just sorry?. You also took my son".this time I shouted with a body that was still very tired.
"I know I was wrong. I've been instigated by Mei". Aqil came closer to me. "I'm a fool for not trusting you".
"You should know. Why can't you trust me". I stared at Aqil. "The color you never loved me".
"You can do anything to me. But, I'm only asking you one chance". Aqil clasped my hand tightly. "I'll make Mei feel what you feel". Aqil looked sincerely at me. "Even more than this".
I saw seriousness in Aqil's eyes. I don't know what to do. My son is gone and now I have no one. My heart must now be adrift with what is called love.
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to be continued
