Peer Idealism
FRIEND II
The number of thoughts, often sleeping late at night, and irregular eating patterns lately, make Rara feel unwell. That morning, Rara woke up at 10 o'clock. At the same time, on campus, Bu Diah's macroeconomic lectures Rara classes were taking place.
'Dead' Inner Rara.
Rara panicked not a bitch. Without a shower, Rara washed her face and then. she grabbed a book, used yesterday's jeans, T-shirts, and took her flannel shirt. He pushed his feet into his shoes, then left immediately for campus.
Arriving at the campus, he continued running from the parking lot to the third floor. His head was getting dizzy, on the way he really felt his body was not healthy.
At 10:25 Rara pegged at the front door of the classroom. He forgot his complaints about his health. His head was full of questions and panic. 25 Minutes late is a red ink in the history of the course. Damn again, this is Miss Diah's class.
His mind fought about the option of going forward grabbing the doorknob and entering, or retreating. Rara did not move even a bit until finally her HP rang. A message came in from Willy.
"Where are you?" willy said in Hp Rara.
"You guys?" reply Rara who did not understand what 'you guys' meant in Willy's question.
"Where are you and Edy?" reply Willy again.
'Perfectly. Die me.' Inner Rara. His eyes were blank. His body squeezed for a moment. Apparently Edy didn't get into class either.
Rara could not imagine what her friends had in mind about the circumstances beyond her plan. Especially Ms. Diah. After the 'fight pair' there will be an expression of what else he gave to Rara and Edy who skipped college together.
The choice to make all that not happen, sbnernya there. Rara has to go to class. Only, it was the same as Rara being the first dumbest student who dared to enter the class Bu Diah after now he was almost half an hour late.
The dizziness in his head was getting worse. Rara retreated her footsteps away from the door. Hp who just delivered a message from Willy was not yet down from the hands of Rara. His mind was still full and confused when he finally delivered his body to melunglai sitting in a long chair near the locker on the side of the class.
"Look at what you're doing to me, Edy," she said softly, I don't know who.
...***...
Because he feels unwell, Rara intends to go home. Trying to avoid friends and HMJ's room, Rara went back around the door near the park. Rara met with a pee on the road to the park. 'Out of comfort, pity can be calamity, ' said peeing while pointing to a man who from a distance Rara saw him sitting alone in the park near the library building. 'Edy' Rara said in her heart.
Not reading books, not listening to music, Edy sat alone in a park near the pylouse. His eyes dimmed, his body trembled occasionally, his head facing the sky as he sucked deeply into the cigarette in his hand. Without playing the puff, it breathes out the smoke for a moment and without rhythm.
"why not cry?" rara's loving feminine instincts came out instantly. He greeted Edy who clearly looked very messy and messy.
From the looks of it, anyone who knew Edy would know, something heavy was happening to Edy.
"Everybody cries when they are sad, and it has nothing to do with someone's strength. Not necessarily lose your maleness when crying," said Rara again.
"Everybody cries when they're sad?" ask Edy. He looked towards Rara. Edy smiled, her eyes were welled up and looked at Rara from hair to shoes.
Rara nodded as she sat down on the bench next to Edy.
"When are you sad and crying?" ask Edy.
"much. I cried when I was scolded by my father, when I was hurt by my boyfriend crying, and in the case of Miss Diah I cried, too" Rara smiled familiarizing herself to Edy.
"I'm a woman, I cry a lot. When I am sad I cry." Rara explained while shaking her legs so as not to be groggy.
Both were silent for a moment.
"Fake up" Edy said, returning the conversation.
"Fake?" Rara repeated.
"On the road there are houses evicted, at the station there are traders expelled, on the bridge there are children starving, on the mountain there is garbage scattered, you are not sad to see all that?" ask Edy. Rara stopped the swaying of her legs.
"what do you mean?" Rara turned to look at Edy.
"i mean, that's it, aren't you sad about all that?" edy repeated the question.
"Sad, then?" rara replied while asking inwardly what edy meant to ask that.
"Then, are you really?" said Edy.
Rara was silent to hear it.
"Most likely you may be the same as most people, that you admit to feeling sad but not crying seeing it all. You and most people only cry when self-harmed, betrayed, betrayed, or anything bad befalls you" Edy said.
what do you want to tell me exactly?" Rara began to be uncomfortable even though she had changed her seat position many times.
"People are not fair. I don't really feel sad about a lot of things. Unless something happens to him then they really feel sad, then cry. What's more selfish than those people. People pretend. Including when sad, they don't really feel it." continued Edy.
Rara is offended and spontaneously leaves Edy.
"I must be ashamed of life, if I feel sad and can cry when I am hurt but fine to see all the sad mistakes in the world" continued Edy.
"Maybe it's true." said Rara while holding back her steps, "You're sick, Ed." Rara left Edy.
"Maybe true." said Edy alone. "Soe Hok Gie's. Can love, can be compassionate, can feel sorrow. Without it all, then we are nothing more than things."
'good bye, abah. Say hello to my mom there, said, Edy will keep Edy's promise. Edy's about to graduate.' The sad Edy was sad because his grandfather had died.
...***...
Days pass. News about Rara's 'inappropriate' behavior with Edy spread more widely and became a fun topic to gossip in the cafeteria and student arena. In addition to the phrase 'fighting pairs' that headline, who picks it up, who picks it up, The photo of Rara and Edy sitting side by side in the porous garden became a drawing that captured a lot of attention in the mading and weekly bulletin of SME journalism campus.
The opportunity was used by several enemies, both Edy's enemies on campus, and Rara's enemies at HMJ to coup and voice the issue to force Rara to resign from the position of HMJ chairman.
While Willy and Sarah, who he hoped would provide him with moral support, also cornered through words and behavior, both implicit and express.
Rara fell unconscious in the hospital as she only intended to check and ask for a prescription. Tipes, said the doctor.
For her good, Rara was forced to stay and be cared for for for a few days. During those days, none of Rara's friends knew about it.
Before Rara finally decides to turn off her HP, Rara is not really alone. He is often given attention, greetings, and enthusiasm by some colleagues at HMJ and other friends. Merely, Rara felt that all was just pleasantries. All are not really concerned, especially most of them are men, which Rara knows all have their own interests with him, whether it is romance, study, or related positions in HMJ.
In addition to a high GPA, Rara realized that the potential in her is in her position and beauty. Rara felt that any man would definitely do that, paying attention, stealing opportunities in the narrowness to get close and hoping to be considered a hero. Only, as grim as she was and as soon as Rara was, her little heart could still say no to hypocrisy. And now, there was no other choice he could hear but his own conscience. Rara is ready if the decision is the same as meaning Rara must be lonely.
...***...
Afternoon at the Hospital, Rara's sixth day was treated
"Rara?" a familiar voice called out to Rara from the front of the door that had just opened.
"Piss...!" rara said with a happy face.
"Hallo Rara," Pejuh said hello after closing the door.
"Steacher...!" Rara says hello.
Receiving the body of Piss who rushed up to him with a hug. Rara is very happy to meet Piss and Pejuh.
"Where am I from here?" ask Rara.
"We're out of donors, don't intentionally squirm your name on the patient list on the information board up ahead" Piss explained.
"Rara Novitri, it says there. Yasudah we are a prankster, it turns out you are right,"he continued.
"Oh.. What donor is here? Blood?"
"Donor heart," said Pejuh.
"Huh seriously?" Rara astonishment.
"Wo yes, my heart Kaleuhihan. Rara wants? I give you one," Joked. Rara laughs at the witty of the Strugglers.
"woo yes, the whole body of the foot, ***********, kettle, until your hair kudonorin later on," Piss responded with a pinch as a warning. "You?"
"Duhh, no, pissing my kanya'ah. Forgive me," replied Pejuh while crossing his hands and meeting him in the zipper of his torn jeans.
"Yes Rara, Blood donor," urinated to Rara.
Inwardly, Rara really felt very happy to meet those two people nearby. The presence of Piss and Pejuh, in addition to washing his longing for interaction with people, also opened Rara's mind about what he had heard from his friends and lecturers about the children of Mapala.
As is known that the condition of blood donation is a healthy and clean body in it. What Kecing and Pejuh have done besides explaining about the high humanity of mapala friends, also rejects all stigma. The two of them seemed to clarify without words, that they were free from alcohol and drugs.
'Yes, the perception of people today is much more capable of killing someone than bullets or anything, ' Rara said in her heart.
"It's not like yesterday in budgeting class" said pee.
"You are sought after by the people" said Pejuh.
"What pain, Rara? How long has it been?" tanya pee.
"yes, Tipes relapsed," Rara tried to get up and sit down. Pissing helping. "Yesterday budgeting ngerjain what worksheet?" ask Rara.
"Eh buset dah Rara yes, sick gini still thinking about the budgeting course worksheets," Pejuh shook his head, "relax, tomorrow I teach," he continued.
"Here, Pissing, you cheat on me" said Pissing to Pejuh.
"Don't think about it, Rara. Tomorrow I'll help you catch up" said Pissing to Rara with a friendly smile.
"Edy is also a budgeting whiz," Pejuh said.
Piss glared and stomped on Pejuh instantly. Pejuh catches the intention of Pissing so that he is more careful when joking about Edy and Rara.
Rara was silent in silence hearing the joking Pejuh who knew nothing about him and Edy.
"Sorry Rara. Flippancy," said Pejuh.
Rara pretended to smile to melt things down.
"Thank you, you guys are so good" said Rara.
"Where have I been all this time, how did I just know you guys" Rara said again.
The three of them had a warm conversation. Pay attention to each other and talk about nothing. When viewed from her Physique, there was actually nothing special about Pejuh and Piss in Rara's eyes, except for one, they were not Fake.
Until the night, pee told Pejuh to go home and let Keeking stay in the hospital to nemenin Rara. With Peeing, for the first time in the hospital, Rara really just felt that she was getting recovery and treatment
