PASUTRI.

CHAPTER 61: THE PAST.

Proverbs: The love of the child along the pole, the love of the mother along the way.

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I am still enjoying my day off which is only 3 days away.And now I am in a Supermarket for shopping.

I was alone.Mark had already left early in the morning for an advertising office.

I don't know if there's anything about Mark there, which I heard this morning his manager Yuri called to meet.

With the capital blackcard no limit loaned Mark to me, I started shopping.

I want to not want to shop at Director Byun's supermarket, not because I want to be free again but this Supermarket is the most complete.

I pushed the trolly again near the shelves of detergent and soap.When I took a bottle of fragrance clothes and put it into the trolly I saw a mother having difficulty taking the detergent box above.His hand reached to reach but did not kunjung.

After I got the detergent and gave it to Mom, she smiled in gratitude and I replied.

When I saw the mother I remembered my Mother-in-law instead.His stern face with sharp eyes was so creepy.I was suddenly horrified to imagine my Mother-in-law who was sharing her scary smile.

After meeting my Mother-in-Law for a few days I pondered more.At any rate, all Mother-in-Law, I must respect her......

I pulled trolly back after a few minutes of daydreaming.

"Gwen"

There seemed to be a voice calling me.But where yes.The voice of the woman I just heard yesterday.

I looked back.

Die me !!!!

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The later familiar and familiar horror voice called me when at the supermarket was Mrs Lee Hye Jin.Yang was none other than my own mother-in-law.

My mother-in-law suddenly appeared when I thought about it.

When I thought about his son, his son also suddenly appeared in front of me.

We're in the food court opposite Director Byun's current supermarket.

My heart can't condition at all.I'm afraid, I'm awkward, I'm embarrassed.

My God, is this my reward after I help a mother who has trouble taking detergent???

"Mom alone?" I asked to ventured so that the atmosphere was not like the court hearing with the accused son-in-law of disobedience.

"Yes, I'm enjoying my day off with shopping"

Ah, yes this weekend.Simply the secretary Mother with a graceful face is not visible.

The phone that I put on the table vibrated.I was actually reluctant to open a chat that was out of nowhere.

"Look, who knows it's important" Mom smiled a little and invited me to open the chat app on my phone.

Iopenit.

We reply to a message and I share where my current location is.

I looked back at Mother's face that suddenly turned sad.

Loh, what's with Mom??

"Can I tell you?"

I smile nodding.

The food at our table both of us have not touched at all.I am more interested in listening to the story that I will tell.I have to put my ears wide. And I can't go wrong translating word for word that I'm about to say.

"Mark my only son.Two of my other daughters are now married and they choose to live Outside the Country.My eldest son is married to a Canadian Citizen, and my second son is married to a Chinese Citizen.I don't mind if Mark marries a foreigner."

Opening story that feels like an oasis in the desert.Mother does not matter with my status of Immigrant.Ok, so far I am relieved to hear this.

"My husband, Mark's father died when Mark was in high school.My husband left a garment company and inevitably I had to take care of it alone.At first I was an Ordinary Housewife, my other daughters did not help much because it was the focus of the lecture to Outside the Negri.I was so busy that I could not always pay attention to Mark.But Mark was a submissive child.He never demanded anythingwhat from me. I want him to study business so that he will inherit the business that I started with my husband."

Mom took a deep breath in between her stories.

"But suddenly he decided to become an Idol.I vehemently opposed his decision.And to the peak, I kicked him out of the house."

Mother's face grew sad, her eyes were teary.I would like to approach her and stroke the shoulder of the mother who began to shake.But I was just silently fixated.

Is that the past of my husband KW??So he doesn't like it if I offend you in front of him??

"Mark got out of the house with nothing. I didn't budge with Mark's decision because I'm sure he'd be back home.But I was wrong, he never came back until this second." My mother-in-law did not want to show her tears in front of me.

I do not care about other people who pass by and eat in that place.What I know I have to immediately hug Mother who is feeling upset.

Mother who looks creepy, firm, elegant like Mother Tao Ming Shi in the drama Meteor Garden suddenly shed her tears in my arms.

I hugged Mom tightly.

"Crying Mom, it's okay." I rubbed Mom's back slowly using my palm.I want to calm her down.

"I miss my son, I want to hug him. I want to apologize to him."

This is my Mother-in-law????

"Gwen" The familiar voice I knew called out to me.

I took off my arms with Mom and found Mark standing next to our seat.

"What are you doing??Why don't you eat here instead of going straight home.." He immediately protested why I didn't go home.

I stood in front of my husband with teary eyes.

Mark still doesn't understand who I met.

"Mark" called me softly and turned to look at Mother who was behind me.

Mark's eyes widened when he knew his mother was there with her eyes puffy and glazed.

"Mom------"

I didn't expect Mark to call Mom that woman.

"Mark she's your mother"

I'm affirming.

Mom moved out of her chair with her bag and out of the fast food Food Court.

Mom walked over quickly feeling devastated seeing Mark yell at Mom violently.

I forcibly removed Mark's grip from my arm and I ran after Mom.

When Mom crossed the zebra cross I immediately chased her.I passed the zebra cross.I don't care about the horn that warns me until Mark pulls me and we roll over on the sidewalk.

"Basic fool!!! You're almost fucked!!"

I saw the anger on Mark's face holding me.

I almost got hit by a car if Mark didn't save me thenaaa???

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I bottled a wet gauze with antiseptic on the back of Mark's hand.When he saved me earlier, the back of his hand was scratched with asphalt.

I looked down because I was scared Mark would scold me again like in the car when we got home.

"I'm sorry.." That's the only word I said over and over again.

"Eat him on the road be careful." Reply Mark occasionally complained because the antiseptic liquid made Mark feel sore.

"Thank you, you saved me"

I attached the plaster to the scratch wound.

"I'm tired of hearing sorry and thank you.We're husband and wife.I should've taken care of you"

I was surprised to hear his words. I who had just looked down directly at his face.

Mark who was also looking at me even furrowed his brows.

"I promised your brother to take care of you, didn't I??What if you get hurt??Who's cooking, who's cleaning the house??"

Is he giving up or what??I'm happy when she says we're a couple.Then when she makes me sick no one cooks it that pisses me off.

I stood up from where I was sitting because I was lazy with Mark's attitude that made my mood go up and down.I also don't want to talk about mother anymore because it will make Mark angry.

"Gwen" Mark called me.

"What??" I looked at her who was sitting on the sofa.

"I'm lapaaaarrr"

I always lose if Mark says hungry with a face.

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Two bowls of ramen served on the table this afternoon.I do not want to cook vegetables because I do not want any leftovers.

Since I love watching Masterchef Australia on streaming television, I have learned about zero waste.

It was a cooking challenge with ingredients as efficiently as possible and left no scraps and rubbish.

Me and Mark enjoyed this ramen together.I wanted to talk about Mom but Mark's mood must have deteriorated instantly.

I never thought Mark would be kicked out of the house and get out of there with nothing.

How did she feel at that time??

Where does she live??

What did she eat???

I suddenly felt sorry for my husband's past, but I couldn't forgive Mom.

"Mark" Call me slowly.

"Hmmm" he answered by sipping ramen sauce.

"You know Mark, I miss my mom a lot" I opened the conversation.

Mark just glanced at me and focused on his ramen bowl and ate again

Ok, so far he has not reacted. He's not offended.

"My mother and father died in a plane crash while we were still living in Indonesia.I was devastated when I found out that they were gone.The day before my father and mother died, I incised a wound in their hearts.My mother was angry when I was involved in a fight with my neighbor named Toni.Toni caught me stealing mangoes behind his house.I am not a bad person to apologize even hit Toni until nosebleed angry with shame with my very naughty attitude.On the second day my parents say goodbye to me to go to Turkey.I am still angry with Mom, I am still angry with you, no matter what they left, so there's news that my parents had an accident and that all the passengers didn't survive."

I tell my husband KW slowly.

"I regret never being devoted to my mother, now she is no more .There's nowhere for me to lean."

My eyes were already watery as I recalled those bitter memories.

"I beg you, last time.Please, forgive me Mom, I just want the best for you, there's no Mom who doesn't love her son" I leaned back in the chair

"I know I have no right to say this to you because our marriage is fake, but Mark, I was also very angry with my mother.I got nothing out of the anger I made other than deep regret."

I rubbed my tears that would fall on my cheeks hard.

"I'm doing this because I care about you"

I took my ramen bowl which stayed a little and took it to the sink.After washing it, I went upstairs to the room.

Behind the door of the room I had closed tightly, I cried sobbing from my deep regret to my late parents.

I remember this fake marriage I was having and I inflicted another wound on them.

May God forgive all my sins.

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