PAMAL

I'll help you

Eva stood sweeping her tears tidying her clothes she looked back at the small figure who had accompanied her "I'll help you" said Eva steady

He clenched his hands in the air "Bismillah" Eva said before stepping out of her room

Slowly Eva went down the stairs from the top floor where her room was, the family still gathered in the middle room

All eyes were on Eva who went down the stairs her face looks as her eyes still look Red.

"Why Va ? "

"Well, what's wrong, you rest if you're still tired"

Eva ignored the chirping of her uncles and aunts "Eva wanted to talk "he said who was still standing under the stairs

"Speak what va? " ask the uncle

"Eva will return to Kalimantan so no longer fight because of Eva" said Eva steady

then he looked at the direction of the empty place "Well, Eva is fine so don't worry about rest in peace"Eva's timpal

He stepped back to the stairs leaving everyone who was silent, when Eva was no longer visible all eyes towards Eva's gaze that still looked empty there was no one there.

All those in the room wept bitterly spilling the guilt in their hearts.

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Eva pov's

I leaned against the wall many times I swept away the tears that managed to break out endlessly

There was a sense of guilt in my heart hearing their cries for lying to my uncle and aunt but I also felt disappointed by the treatment of those who looked down on me.

Night arrived tahlilan event has been going on with wisdom I still can not move from my room sadness still covers me now I am alone in this cruel world, he said,

I sobbed my grief alone in my beloved room.

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The day continued to run 7 days after the father left suddenly because of a heart attack now I was left alone in our house, just brother brother father and family returned home to their respective brands, each of them, I leaned against the door I just closed after my family left.

My intention to return to Burhan's kai house is still steady without being negotiable despite the slight worry given the last incident before I died the village that put me in a coma for a month longer.

"No, life has to go on I have to be able to fight the fear of them" I muttered alone

"At least there is Hanif who can help me, there is a sari ,nini siti and kai Burhan who can understand my current situation" he said

"you'll be back soon" said the figure of a child who always comes not picked up home not delivered it to me surprised me

I clenched my chest tightly so that my heart wouldn't jump out "When were you there ?" ask me on the delicate creature that sits casually on the living room sofa

I took a step closer to him "Since "he answered

"really ?"

He nodded "yes" he said

"Yes, I'll go back to Kalimantan again"

"Are you going to help me soon ?" his tanyanya is a typical carefree child

"Yes I will help you, but the promise never again appears arrived yes, now I live alone if until I have a heart attack no one helps me" I said

Ah if talking about the disease with the nickname silent killer it makes me think back to my father, what a heavy life he went through so far after the departure of his mother to make him no longer pay attention to his health.

I do not feel my tears falling back, indeed the hardest miss is longing for the dead because no matter how big our longing will not be cured.