Painting Images With Light

Part 62's

Bagio woke up again, when it was morning, and he hurried to go to the bath, to prepare for work again today.

While rubbing his body with soap, Bagio recalled the incident last night, which felt as if he was just dreaming.

Bagio was really close to crossing the safe line, if only Sucitra still insisted, to help Bagio in an unusual way.

Either Bagio must regret, or feel relieved, because he did not betray Citra's trust.

But Bagio remained grateful, for the intention and treatment of Sucitra, who wanted to help him. 

Sucitra even gives massage on the shoulders, and the temple of Bagio, so that it can make Bagio sleep soundly afterwards.

"Later! Ask Citra to 'do' with you! He's gonna want to. Moreover, he knows your condition....

... If you do 'that', you can take your mind off everything that can make you depressed."

That's about it, some of the words from Sucitra, from the many tips and messages last night, while he massaged Bagio's shoulders. 

Bagio shook his head, while grunting rudely.

Without the need to obey Sucitra's words, just listen to it, already can distract Bagio from the problem.

But because of Sucitra's words as well, it eventually became a new thought material for Bagio.

Ckck! 

Bagio hurriedly came out of the bathroom, when he was done with all his activities there, and continued to dress in his room. 

After Bagio was ready to go to work, Bagio immediately walked out of the room, leaving Sucitra, who seemed to still be asleep soundly on his bed.

Sucitra ... That lady....

Actually according to Bagio, Sucitra who had lived abroad, may feel ordinary to have sex, although still not married.

More or less the same as Citra who once told Bagio, about his relationship with Leon, which according to Bagio, most likely, Citra and Leon had done 'that', when they were still dating.

But ... Because Bagio who thinks about Citra and Leon, over time only makes Bagio feel upset. 

How not? 

The shadow that appeared on Bagio's head, was Leon who seemed to be riding on top of Citra. 

Approximately, who is a man who will not feel jealous and angry, if such a shadow appears about the lover, with other men.

Uh! Nevermind! 

Bagio had to stop thinking strangely, if he did not want Hana to wait for him any longer, to get into the car, whose door was now wide open.

"Do you think you can work today?" ask Hana.

"It must be possible" answered Bagio, convincing himself. 

***

For his work on the first schedule today, Bagio seemed to have a lot to be grateful for.

In addition to the rhythm of a relaxing shooting session, the photographer in charge of taking pictures of Bagio, also looks patient.

Even according to Bagio, the photographer this time, observant in observing the model, so he can find out, if something is wrong with Bagio.

And even so, the photographer did not immediately scold Bagio, but rather approached Bagio, and spoke well with him.

"What makes you uncomfortable?" ask the photographer, to Bagio.

"There's a scar on my stomach. So if someone comes close suddenly, while pointing his hand at it, then I will definitely feel panic," replied Bagio.

The photographer then clapped his hands over his head, as if he was drawing attention from the people who were there.

"Please listen to me!" the photographer said, with his voice half-screaming.

"One of these models, should not be approached suddenly!" The photographer then pointed towards Bagio. 

"Don't make him feel uncomfortable! That will slow down our work! Okay?!" continue the photographer again.

"Why indeed?"

"Just being a model has a lot of behavior." 

"The more you come here, the various requests from those who become models."

Some of the people there were whispering, talking to each other about Bagio. 

Maybe their intention was only whispering, but because the closed room was silent for a while, until their words, could still be heard.

"If you're injured in a big way, aren't you afraid that your wounds are touched by someone else?" 

The question from the Photographer, sounded as if he was trying to defend Bagio, from everyone who thought ill of Bagio.

The atmosphere there became quiet again. 

After hearing the words of the photographer, the people there, then each of them looked bearded, as if they had all understood, what was the reason.

"Now! ... We continue!" the photographer said, and then began to redirect, the models standing on the set.

***

Because of the patience and understanding of the photographer, which is contagious to others who are in that place, Bagio can work with a comfortable feeling.

The photos also look good, just like in the past, when Bagio has not been injured.

"Thank you, sir!" the word Bagio to photographers, while they see the results of the photo on the laptop screen.

"Sama-sama," said the male photographer, who appears to be aged over the head of four.

"Models are also human, and are not mannequin statues, which cannot feel anything. So I think what you're worried about is still within reasonable limits" the photographer continued.

There are still a few more shooting sessions, until the models still have to change clothes, up to approximately three times.

However, until the photo shoot at the place, Bagio did not feel tired at all, like when he worked yesterday. 

Inside, Bagio really hopes that in the next shooting place, he can get a comfortable working environment like in this first shooting location.

***

And in accordance with his expectations, the work of Bagio did run smoothly, at the second shooting location. 

Shooting is only limited to the neck down, and Bagio does not need to think about the expression of his face when posing, making his work so easy. 

Utilizing the time lag between the second and third shooting schedules, Bagio was taken by Hana, to go to the hospital, before Bagio continued to work again.

"Tell me everything you feel and complain about! Don't let anything be hidden!" hana said, while walking with Bagio, in the hospital corridor.

"Yes" said Bagio. 

There is no need to wait for long queues.

For those who already have an appointment with the doctor, made by Hana yesterday, upon their arrival there, Bagio can immediately see the doctor. 

With a nurse present, Bagio entered a room, where a doctor was waiting for him. 

While Hana, waiting for Bagio on the bench provided on the outside, in front of the doctor's room.

The first thing to do, is a re-examination of the scars of Bagio, by a doctor in the room, while Bagio lay on his back on the bed.

According to the doctor, the process of healing the wound in the stomach is quite good, and there is nothing to worry about.

After the wound was examined, then Bagio could sit face to face, with the doctor who treated the wound.

The doctor who asked, then became an opportunity for Bagio, to express all the disturbing emotions that disturbed him, to the point that he had difficulty working.

Bagio even told the doctor that he was having nightmares.

Which although not remembered by Bagio, what would be his dream, but it was felt quite disturbing.

Because when he experienced it, Bagio made his roommate, so disturbed, and hassles to take care of it.

With the pen in his hand, the doctor who was met by Bagio, was seen writing something, which seemed to be a note, while Bagio kept saying everything, to the doctor.

After Bagio finished talking, for a while later, the doctor then said, if he encouraged Bagio, to have a meeting with a psychiatrist.

According to the doctor, only a psychiatrist can help Bagio, to overcome the problem of excessive anxiety disorder, experienced by him.

Before Bagio finally came out of the room of the doctor who examined him, Bagio was given a piece of envelope, which the doctor said earlier, it was a referral letter.

When Bagio later met a psychiatrist, who also worked at the hospital, then Bagio was required to bring the referral letter with him.

"How's it?" ask Hana. 

"My injuries are fine. But I was directed, to meet (a person's name). A psychiatrist, who is in this hospital," replied Bagio.

Hana looked mangosteen as if she did understand, what was being talked about by Bagio.

After taking a quick look at her phone screen, Hana then said, 

"We still have a little time. Let's go see a psychiatrist first. While we're here, maybe we can set an appointment. So that every meeting later, your work schedule will not be interrupted."

By asking the nurses they met nearby, Bagio and Hana who got the information, where the psychiatric treatment is located, then rushed to go there.

Upon their arrival there, Bagio could not just go to the psychiatrist.

By a guard nurse who was at the place, Bagio was required to make an appointment first.

But after Hana explained the situation, and handed in a referral letter from the doctor earlier, Bagio finally got a chance to meet with a psychiatrist, at that time.

Thus, Bagio can consult for the first time, with medical personnel who specifically work, to deal with mental illness.