Om Satisfied I'm Squeezed

Thank You Prisa

"If I don't think Brother is stupid. Brother is just in a situation where doing the wrong thing is the best way out. There are so words, if I were like this, if I were, if I were rich, if I had a lot of money, if I had parents who could support me, if I hadn't done that thing that you now regret. Believe me, it only makes you regret the past that has happened. Try to realize, without a bad past, Brother and Sister Robbie may never be able to meet like now,"

"The two of you can meet, all because of fate. Like, Brother must step on the mud first and then can meet Kak Robbie who will later clean the mud at the feet of Brother. This is all fate, brother. Although painful but there is wisdom behind everything." Prisa's speech is so mature, very inappropriate for his age. Ariel seemed to be confiding in people who were the same age as her, not with teenagers who were never afraid to speak to anyone.

Ariel rubbed her face with both hands. His eyes were swollen and he felt very tired today. It feels to make a lot of chips not worth the fatigue when compared to facing insults that only last not up to half an hour. Exhausted mind, tired of hot and overflowing feelings and emotions.

"Somewhat should I do next. Maybe you're right, I'll lock myself in the house for a while, but when do I want to be? Until everyone forgets what happened in the bazaar today? It doesn't feel like it's possible. Aib someone if it has been opened, then forever others will look at us as a person who bears disgrace and makes us look so dirty, so dirty, no matter how many times we shower and clean up all the mistakes of the past, forever will not be able to clean everything." Ariel rested her head on the soft sofa that no longer looked comfortable. His eyes looked at the ceiling with a blank look.

There was a lot of thinking about Ariel right now. How are his neighbors treating them now? How do I tell Bobby what happened? How to clear his name? How can Om Bobby not get dragged into his problem? What about Galang, will the child be as lucky as Ariel who must continue to be in the house even though the child is very fond of the streets in the park? How do we live among neighbors who look down on us?

Ariel felt unable to deal with all this alone. Prisa is still too small but has defended him a lot today. Om Bobby is a noble hearted man, it seems inappropriate if Om Bobby continues to get insulted because he has married a woman like him. Who can defend him? There ain't! His parents were not able to defend, they were in a busy village dealing with rice fields and gardens for their daily living expenses.

Ariel had to rely on herself. Maybe some days he will remain inside the house, then he will learn to dare to go out and face them all. "Thank you, Prisa. I'm calmer now. What Auntie Dena said is true. Don't stay near me too long. I don't want your good name to be ugly because you helped me. I'm the only one who has suffered this bad luck. I can do it myself."

"But, Brother-"

Ariel stood up and rubbed Prisa's hair while forcing a smile on her face. "I'm fine. A woman like me should have gotten used to receiving insults because of my despicable past. It's okay, calm down. Rest, it's night. Brother wants a break too." Ariel leaves Prisa and enters her room.

In the room, Galang seems to have fallen asleep. The boy was exhausted and fell asleep immediately when he was taken home by Ariel's domestic assistant. After cleaning his body, Ariel then lay down his tired body beside Galang. He hugged his child with a sad feeling.

Ariel thought about how her fate would be. Of course he also thought about how the fate of Galang in the future. Just now they were about to start a new life, a happy and clean life, there was already a severe ordeal they had to face. Ariel's tears came back, as hard as he could to hold his voice so as not to wake Galang who was fast asleep.

"Even I can't cry freely. What can I do in this life? Can a despicable woman like me not have the chance to change? Do I not deserve to be happy?" inner Ariel.

Too tired with all the problems and work today makes Ariel sleep soundly. Ariel doesn't know Bobby's gone home. Om Bobby saw his house in the dark, meaning all the residents of the house had fallen asleep. "Tumben, are you asleep? Have they not come home yet? But how was it that in the bazaar there was no tent belonging to Ariel?" Bobby opened the door to his room, of course there was no Ariel there. He decided to open the door to Galang's room. Sure enough, Ariel fell asleep while hugging Galang tightly. Om Bobby wanted to wake Ariel, but could not bear to see Ariel who was so exhausted. He shut the door and let Ariel rest tonight.

Just stepping, Prisa came to block the Brother. "Sister, I want to talk!"

The next morning Ariel had carried out her activities as usual. He prepared breakfast, changed clothes for Om Bobby and also bathed Galang. Ariel covered her grief with a smile on her face. Prisa who knows what has happened chooses to be quiet and not comment much. He did what he could to help Ariel. Next let Ariel have to face it alone.

Prisa is going home today. Prisa feels guilty for what happened to Ariel, indirectly all because of him. If only he had not sent a picture of Ariel and her brother who was happy, maybe his mother would not be angry and told Aunt Dina to come.

Prisa looked at Ariel with a sad look. I don't know why he felt the deep sadness that Ariel was feeling right now. The smile on Ariel's face was a trick to cover up the actual heartache.

"Sister, I want to go home!" prisa said to everyone.

Ariel said nothing, honestly he agreed Prisa came home quickly. Ariel does not want Prisa insulted by the neighbors for defending him. It's enough problems that happened yesterday, Ariel does not want the problem to widen everywhere.

"Now? Yaudah, I have also filmed in Bandung. Let Brother drop you off!" Om Bobby is indeed a busy schedule, yesterday to Tangerang, now to Bandung. Om Bobby plans to meet with an online fresh vegetable entrepreneur named Ibu Wulandari.

"Well, what a coincidence. You can be with your brother. Be careful on the road, baby! Between Prisa to the house" said Ariel with a smile.

When Ariel smiled, Prisa's heart ached again. He knew Ariel's smile was so pretend. Unfortunately, the brother seemed insensitive, maybe because Om Bobby was busy feeding Galang to not notice that Ariel's eyes swollen up crying all night.

"You wanna come too, honey? I mean, you don't need to go to Mama's house, we just go for a walk in Bandung, would you?" haggar Om Bobby.

"No need, Beb. I'm just at home. I don't want to bother you with work."

"OKAY. Be careful at home. I'll just be a minute" said Om Bobby.

Prisa looked at her sister with a sharp look. "Kok Robbie's sister is like that anyway? Persuade dong! You insensitive men!"

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