Officer Wing
98. The secrets that hurt.
Dinda's breathing began to be irregular while Bang Wira was lulled in his dream after completing his desire. The sound of snoring is quite noisy tickling the ears.
"It's safe to sleep, brother. relieved already?" muttered Dinda while caressing the nozzle of Bang Wira.
Dinda wanted to get out of bed but her chest started to hurt. He took a deep breath so as not to feel more tight.
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"What do you want to eat tonight, ma'am?" ask Aunty.
"Same sop gurame cooking saute kale aja bi. Asya and Nando will love it too" Dinda replied as she dried her hair.
"Okay, Mom, Auntie cook first"
Dinda walked slowly into the room. His body felt shivering and his breath seemed to falter.
In a state of wet hair, Dinda immediately relaxes herself.
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Bang Wira wriggled from her sleep, her body already felt lighter. He looked at Dinda who was deep in her sleep.
"Lho.your hair is wet, baby. Shower already??" ask Bang Wira.
Dinda responded a little with a smile. Bang Wira kissed Dinda's forehead and lips.
"Why don't you want to see my brother? You're not sleeping khan?" Bang Wira stroking Dinda's hair.
Looking at Dinda, Bang Wira's feelings became unpleasant. He seems to be a little aware of what happened to his wife.
"Why is this? Be honest with you..!! Is anyone sick?"
Slowly Dinda opened her eyes and steeled herself to look at Bang Wira's eyes.
"Sick a little, it's okay Bang. You have to get used to this situation" replied Dinda.
"This is not true deck. If indeed you can't 'accept from Abang'.. Nothing is resolved there. You also do not be too demanding about children anymore. There's Asya, Tian, now there's Nando. Less especially??" bang Wira said, I did not think.
"What is really going on in your heart? Say to Brother, Nothing is covered"
"So you really want to hear?"
"Yes"
Dinda slightly shifted and Bang Wira leaned back and helped Dinda to lean on her as well.
"How much does Dinda mean to you?"
"What do you mean? You obviously mean a lot"
"How much do you miss Brother Adinda?" ask Dinda.
"Honey, it's not good to talk about what's gone. Now your life is only you. Missing Adinda also means nothing more, there are already you who fulfill all" replied Bang Wira.
Dinda smiled bitterly, an answer that did not match her reality.
"What's wrong?" Bang Wira started to feel uncomfortable. He continued to think what mistakes he had made until Dinda asked something beyond her expectations.
"Dinda wants to be loved without shadows and wants to be considered healthy, not to be a burden. Dinda wants to be the mother of Dinda who is firmly attached to the heart of Brother until the end of his life" replied Dinda.
"There is no Bang. Nothing" Dinda's eyes began to glaze over and Bang Wira was increasingly convinced that something was wrong behind Dinda's increasingly strange attitude.
"What's wrong? Tell your brother not to repeat his mistake. We build this household to love each other, not for a storm" said Bang Wira.
"Why Brother secretly likes to look at the photos of Mbak Adinda in other folders. Why do you keep praising her and keep saying love to your sister?"
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"When? Never deck" replied Bang Wira while holding Dinda tighter, his heart began to be out of control again.
"We've talked about this a lot. Love is only for you. There is no more Adinda. Poor him"
Dinda kept quiet about her own pain.
Inner Bang Wira began to fear.
Does Dinda know every night I leave time for Adinda?
flashback..
Dinda is asleep, Bang Wira comes out of the room and settles down on the sofa, he opens the folder that he always locks the meeting using Dinda's birth date password. He began to look at Adinda's face in the folder, sometimes also saw a video where when he was nosy disturbing the wife who was active in the house.
"Good night baby, how are you the same hero we were there? Brother misses, every day always misses" he said with a bitter smile.
Every night Bang Wira left time to look at the photo and sometimes rambled himself like crazy.
"Unfortunately Brother, it's cold?? Brother always sends do'a to you as our son. Wait there brother is beautiful, sholehah his brother. I want to be with you in heaven. Thank you for giving your son a cute daughter to Brother. Brother loves you very much, very much and always"
Bang Wira sobbed in tears considering the death of Adinda that so traumatized and painful that she felt afraid to live this life because of her guilt.
"Astagfirullah hah..!!" he said beristighfar when he remembered Dinda. The wife who is now with him.
Soon Dinda will give birth, my anxiety for Dinda is growing. I'm afraid of losing Dinda, I love Dinda more than anything. Adinda is gone, leaving pain and regret immeasurable. Now I only have Dinda, the only filler in my heart, her life and my life. My beautiful little girl.. Dinda.
flashback off's..
Dinda fell silent to remember Bang Wira who loved Adinda's late house so much.
"Have you ever come to Dinda when you missed Adinda so much?" tanya Dinda made Bang Wira choked.
"What the hell are you?" really at this time the heart of Bang Wira almost missed hearing his wife's question.
"No, no"
"Dinda tau Bang"
Astagfirullah hal adzim..why can it be like this? Did I save my heart less until Dinda was sensitive to my situation? Is this what makes him want to continue like Adinda. O God, how wicked I have tormented my own wife. Maybe he wants another child to be like Adinda because I'm afraid I don't love him.
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