Now, I'm Not the Woman You Used to Be.
16.Marrying
I came down to see American life through the big window in my room, more precisely the room that holds me.All of it looks beautiful, I don't know what height I was in the kilo meters from below,what is clear is that all the sights of the American city are clearly visible.It seems like I am in the middle of the city.
The beauty of the American city cannot turn me into a happy one, for I still think of my husband and my son.Entah today they have breakfast,because no one was cooking me.Or My son Keyla can sleep well without me reading stories to him.
I still stood and looked on unaware Max had entered, usually the sound of his feet always sounding brisik with some bodyguard.
"Time to eat."Max said, Take a plate of food prepared by the servant who followed him.
"I'm not hungry!"I looked at Max sharply.I don't like to see his face.Even I don't want to marry him.I'd rather die.
But he kept threatening me.
"Our wedding is accelerated tomorrow, the pastur will go here."So Max turned my life around.
With ease he said that I would marry him tomorrow.My status is still married, Max is not sane apparently.
"Max I'm still married."Max threw the Envelope.
Surprise what else he was planning.I don't understand.I opened it slowly.I was very surprised to see the contents of the letter which was my divorce with Rey.My hands were shaking, my heart was beating faster.What's wrong with my eyes?Is this really what I saw?
"No.this is impossible...Rey won't divorce me. It's fake.no.."My hands were very trembling.I was sitting limp with paper in my hands.And I tore the paper.I can't believe my husband who I know he loves me so much, will divorce me.Truly I can't believe.I cried sobbing.The tears of my eyes were flowing so hard.
"Do you still want to reject me."Max smiled broadly.
"I can't believe Max.It's a fake right!"I said pull Max's shirt collar, what are you doing Max, maybe Rey could ask me for a divorce.
"I still don't want to marry you, until whenever I'm never going to marry you..Even though Rey divorced me, I'd rather die than marry you!"Max took off my hand violently and grabbed my chin.
"What did you say?You refuse me.I will force you.Think about the safety of your son and your husband Alic.Or I will kill him like his office did I broke!"Obviously Max with a stronger grip so that my breath was cut off.
Whahuh?it turns out that behind my husband's bankruptcy, Max is apparently the mastermind!I didn't think he was the culprit.It's outrageous.I hate him so much.Fuck, you're Max!Fucking fiends...
"Kill me, kill Max.You don't want revenge, because I got you in jail!"My floor again with unsettled breath.
"It's not that easy, Alicia Keys..I still want to taste your body."Said Max and let go of his grip.I tried to regulate my breathing.
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I looked at myself in the mirror in a white dress.I approve of this marriage is not because of the divorce papers.I am helpless with Max's threat concerning the people closest to me.
I don't know how many times my makeup add to me, because it always wears off because of my tears.
Long story short, Max has said a sacred promise.I'm still crying.Pastur and some of his bodyguards have just left us in this room.
"Are you satisfied?"My floor.Are you satisfied Max, messing up my life?Why do you always shake my heart?Why are you always interrupting my life, just now I feel happiness, why are you always taking Max away.
How else, my way of making you aware?How else, for your crazy brain to be sane.
"Of course not dear.."He said as he opened my neatly arranged hairpin when married, so that my hair fell down and inhaled my hair close to my neck.
I turned my face away.And Max grabbed my face back.My face is still in my grasp and I still sob.I put my face away when Max tried to bring his face closer.
"Why don't you change Max.is the cold room not enough for you."I said while sobbing.
"Because that's where I came to my senses, you were too important to let Alic go."Saying.What?maybe something's wrong with your brain Max.
"Hmmm...The smell of the body I missed."Max said as he sniffed around the nape of my neck.
"No..Max.don't..."I pulled my shirt which Max took off.I was banging on his burly chest.But of course I did not succeed.His burly body managed to lock me, I was under Max's cage.
"Shut up..."His shout ambushed me.And finally he managed to enjoy my body back and forth.
I know I've officially become his wife, but I'm not willing if my body he touches because this marriage is just coercion.
Max continued to do the action very savagely because it was not a moment he did not meet me, he did not,six years we didn't see each other.I thought I wouldn't see him again.In fact I didn't just see him but I didn't expect I'd be his wife again.
"I miss you so much Alic.I Love you."Whisper, right in my ear.I keep crying.I don't think I want to hear it.I want to be deaf to his pretty sweet and threatening words.The old lion brengs!
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The light from the big window slipped through the thick curtain slit.I squinted my eyes.And Max was still embracing my body.I wanted to release his burly hands.I wanted to take a bath cleaning this body.I felt very disgusting.I managed to stand up, I was very happy to get up,but my wrist he managed to reach so I was thrown again in his stocky body.
"Max let me go" I said, begging.Enough Max, don't you anymore.You're so disgusting.
"I'm not satisfied yet."Her speech.
"Max.."
I was helpless as if I was his puppet who could at any time he toyed.My heart was very broken.Why God kept testing me.I miss Rey a lot my husband.His smile and tenderness are always on my mind.I don't want to stay with the brengs** man**I don't want to see him every day.
Which sin made me in the law like this.United with people I hate so much.I used to want to forgive him.But I am not wrong, but I am not wrong,he won't forgive me until any time.I hope Rey will find me and save me later.I still hope that even though the divorce papers are genuine, Rey must have done that because of coercion.
I still love him....
