Not the Ex-Friend

Chapter 85 Give Me Time

Bianca and Sella were still spending time chatting in the gazebo. Until lunch time came, they went back inside after Bi Isa called.

Devano and Dimas also look fresh out of the room.

Arya and Desta did not come home for lunch because they were still continuing their work in the field.

“Bi, tomorrow afternoon I have to go back to Jakarta, there are business matters that can not be represented,” Devano open a conversation at the dinner table.

“Bome with Arya again ?” Ask Bianca.

“Possibly so, do not know his business here is done or not.”

“Why Bi, don't want Arya quickly back ?”fashion Dimas.

“Gasoline started to run,” Bianca immediately glared and replied with annoyance.

“Biarinin aja Bi, late singles effect,” sahut Devano with a relaxed face.

Bianca and Sella immediately laughed, even Bianca immediately stuck out her tongue to Dimas.

“Dih start compact nih,” oceh Dimas.

“Ten years of love, it is certain that his inner contact is also strong,” Devano again replied casually.

“Lebay,” Dimas thaws. “The title is not love each other but I hang your love for ten years.”

Sella and Bianca laugh again while Devano is just plain ordinary.

After lunch, the four gathered on the back porch to enjoy the view and cool even though the sun is quite hot.

“Kak, want to visit the project location is not ?” Sella looked at Dimas.

“Indeed you know the place, Cells ?” Bianca asked before Dimas replied

“Rather than join in the villa, we better take the streets of Samperin Kak Desta and Kak Arya. Ask them to share loc.”

“It's good, anyway. How about Van, elo want ?” Ask Dimas.

Devano looked at Bianca and answered with a gesture of his body answering is up to Devano only.

“Ya already, let you all know the location that will be a resort,” said Devano.

The four of them got up to prepare. Devano restrains Bianca's arm before going back inside.

“You didn't change clothes ?” Devano stared at Bianca from top to bottom.

“It means. Why ?”

“Do not wear shorts so, change trousers,” pinta Devano.

“But this is also not too short Devan, above the knee a little and still polite.”

Devano just stared intently with an expression that could not be denied. Bianca was upset but eventually returned to her room and changed her clothes.

10 Minutes later, the car was out of the villa with Devano and Bianca in the back seat, Sella in front with Dimas driving.

Devano clasped Bianca's hand along the way while Bianca herself was more silent and looked to the side. He occasionally chimed in the jokes of Sella and Dimas. Devano himself is more of a listener and occasionally stares at Bianca. She knew that her lover was still upset about clothes.

It turns out that the project location is quite reached in just 20 minutes. It can actually be faster, but because the road conditions are a little bumpy and a little narrow, the car driven Dimas must be carried slowly.

Desta and Arya are still discussing in a simple house that is used as a development project office. They discussed several issues of permits and buying and selling of land that was still not completed.

Sella and Dimas headed straight to the project office while Devano took Bianca's hand to look around the location.

“You're still upset because I told you to change your clothes ?” Devano asked as he glanced at Bianca who was walking beside him.

“No,” replied Bianca while shaking her head.

“Keep why since leaving until now more silent ? Usually you are chatty.”

Bianca threw a sideways glance avoiding the eyes of Devano who was still staring at her.

“Devan,” Bianca stopped her steps making Devano also stop.

“Can I ask you something ?”

Devano frowned at the sight of the unease on Bianca's face but he nodded as well confirming Bianca's question.

“Do you really want to marry me for loving me ?”

Devan was a little taken aback by Bianca's question and her face turned into dislike.

“Do you think my request to get married is due to parental coercion ? Or because you see I don't want to lose to compete with Arya and Desta?” Devano's face began to turn red from holding back an upset.

Bianca approached and touched Devano's arm with her free right hand while her left hand was still in Devano's grasp.

“I asked nicely, why are you so emotional ?”

Devano took a deep breath and threw it away violently. His face shriveled in annoyance.

“Bianca Aprilia, I explained at length last night the reason I held back my feelings for you. Is it still unclear to you ?” Devano stared at Bianca sharply.

“And I myself feel tormented by that condition. I suck because maybe in your eyes I'm a coward who usually just succumbs to the happiness of others. But my love, my love for you is not kidding.”

Devano frowned and looked at Bianca with a questionable look.

“What do you mean just know me ? We have been together in one school for 6 years, even though the real friendship only runs 2 years.”

“That's what I mean,” replied Bianca quickly. He only glanced at Devano's face and then looked down.

“Now try to explain what you mean like just getting to know me ?”

Bianca took a breath to ease her nervousness. After feeling her heart more restrained, Bianca finally let herself raise her face, returning Devano's gaze.

“We've only been in less than 72 hours. And all that time I've seen how possessive, jealous and protective you are. My work in the future demands meeting and interacting with many people in person. I can't always decide who is going to be my patient. With your newfound nature in these 48 hours, can you accept with a big heart ? Can you give me complete trust ?”

Devano took a deep breath back and threw his face in another direction. He let go of his grasp.

“Are you afraid your freedom of life will be taken away after marrying me?” Devano asked without looking at Bianca. His tone of voice was not as good as it was.

“Maybe. Me...”

“Maybe ?” Devano immediately cut off Bianca's words and turned to look at the girl with his sinister smile.

“So you are absolutely sure that I will keep you imprisoned after marrying me ?” Sarcas Devano while laughing sarcastically.

“Can you only see and try to understand the problems that exist in others, but do not understand my attitude in these 48 hours when my status as your girlfriend ?”

Devano threw out Bianca's hand which was still holding her arm.

“I am spoiled for you because after almost 10 years I can finally pour out my feelings for you without the anxiety of the burden on my shoulders. I became jealous because the men near you openly admitted to me that they liked you. Even without hesitation they told me that they were ready to accept you if you decided to get away from me.”

Fires of rage emanated from Devano's gaze and his high-pitched speech. She turned her back on Bianca and squeezed her own hair.

Bianca stared at Devano's back with a guilty look. He approached and carefully tried to touch Devano's shoulder.

“Did anyone else give you feedback until you hesitated to accept my request to get married soon ?” Devano asked in a cold voice still in a position to turn his back on Bianca.

“No !” Bianca's call is fast. “I'm just scared,” Bianca again.

“Fear ?” Ejek Devano with cynicism. His position had already turned to look at Bianca with an angry look.

“As I thought it would. Just seen my behavior in the last 48 hours, you've thought that all my attitude will keep you imprisoned for the rest of your life if you marry me.”

“Not so Devano !” Tukas Bianca returned Devano's gaze.

Bianca was unable to stare at each other for long because not only was anger emanating from Devano's eyes but was also hurt due to her self-doubt.

“You should have asked yourself that question too. Did you really love me like 10 years ago. Or maybe..”

Devano threw his face away and did not continue his words.

“Can you give me time, Devano ?” Bianca Lirih.

“What time is 10 years still lacking for you ?” Devano's cynical tone was again heard in his speech.

“If indeed you are not sure of me because there is another option in your heart, I will release you.”

Devano was about to pass through Bianca, but the fingers held him back.

“I just asked for Devano time. I was really scared and still convinced myself that this was all reality. Twice I tried to convince myself that you love me too. First time was the night we sang together at the Rainbow Cafe. You didn't reject my request to sing together and that night you didn't refuse me a hand even you returned my grasp. The look in your eyes that night seemed to give an answer to my heart's question about your feelings. That night I was suddenly convinced that my love did not clap one hand. But it turns out that my hope was just a dream because after that there was no news from you.”

“I've explained the reason to you !” Devano protested in an annoyed tone.

“I don't know that you didn't tell me.” Reply Bianca with a little emotion.

Bianca took a few breaths before continuing her words. Glanced at Devano, the man just kept silent without looking at him.

“I learned to forget you, but back your friends and parents convinced me that our feelings were the same. Even your parents tried to get me to work with you even if it had nothing to do with my college. Armed with their support, I ventured again to open my heart and feelings for you. Even though you still rejected me with your indifference even deliberately continued to scold me and annoy me. I still think it's all just to cover up your feelings and you're too proud to admit it. With that confidence I stay up to 3 months by your side.”

Bianca paused for a moment, staring at Devano who was still throwing her face the other way. His face was still flushed with anger but his eyes were not all that before.

“Your rejection that night on the beach even until you could have left me, made me convince myself that you really didn't love me. If indeed you love me, with so many parties supporting you, surely you will be more sure to prove it to me. Just because your principles want to hold fast to your promises, you ignore those around you and make them disappointed. Even make us equally hurt.”

“Then now what do you want from me.” Devano asked in a flat and cold tone.

“I just asked for time to convince myself that my decision would not make me fall into a dream for the third time. And make sure also you, that in marriage will not go well just because of the expression of love, not limited to hugs and kisses or attention. But above all, both husband and wife need trust by giving their partner a chance, especially the opportunity to be themselves. And if trust and opportunity can go hand in hand, then the power of husband and wife love will be stronger and will not be swayed in the face of the household storm.”

Bianca grabbed Devano's arm and squeezed it slowly. He was grateful that Devano did not dismiss him despite not responding back. His beloved man was also unwilling to return Bianca's gaze.

“Take as much time as you need.” Devano lowered Bianca's fingers on his arm. “And like you said, that time will answer all your doubts. So that all your hopes can be realized..” Devano paused and pulled the phone out of his pants pocket.

“I will close all access that can connect us.” Devano pressed the buttons on his phone and showed the flat screen in front of Bianca's face.

“I've blocked your number and all your media social accounts from my phone. We will not know each other's situation so as not to interfere with any decision you take.”

Without waiting for a response from Bianca, Devano passed away leaving Bianca still upset with her heart.

Bianca turned around and did not want to see Devano go. He hoped that what he did would not create regrets. Bianca took a breath and let the tear spout out from both corners of her eyes.

It is better to talk bitter before entering a marriage than to regret and eventually have to separate in the future.

Bianca has established herself to continue her education to get a professional degree as a psychologist. Bianca desperately needs Devano's support if she marries him so that he can calmly run his profession.

“May God make Devano my soul mate. I'm sorry Devano. I want to make you the first and last and the only man who is my husband.” Inner Bianca.