Not my Husband

Longed Again

Rain fell on his outlet. The dewy glass covered the scene before him. People were seen running away from the rain.

What was really stupid, Fino tried to smile, fumbling at the ticket he had prepared. Submitting the management of outlets to employees of his trust.

Just because she misses Margaretha, can she be like this? Maybe that's what happened. Does Margaretha still miss him? Why did he get this crazy, just because the woman betrayed him?

"Because I love you.because it's the only place for you to go home like I promised.." he muttered, shedding tears that he immediately wiped away.

Not telling his son might be better.

Still vividly remembered in his mind when the most popular SMU teenager approached him. Not good at sports, often isolated from other students.

Why did Margaret approach him? He also does not know the reason. His weak physique from childhood, made Fino accustomed to taking several types of drugs.

His father and mother had long since died, only giving him a small inheritance for school and survival. Only alone, even had the intention to end his life in his teenage years. Until she finds Margaretha who cares about her.

He does not know when he will be able to live. Leukemia, it turned out that was his illness at the moment. It used to be just physically weak, with no symptoms whatsoever.

It is still early stage, but if his life ends now, he only wants to meet his loved ones at the end of his age. A father who did not tell his son his illness.

A man who was only silent by himself watched the rain from the dewy window glass.

Is Margaretha happy? If so, can he meet once, only once...

The woman who walks with the same umbrella as him. Passing through the insanity of adolescence, making her depressed self due to the death of both her parents and her sickly body, become possessed with the spirit to survive.

That is why he could only love Margaretha. The first woman to take him to the playground, asked him to win the doll. Riding on a Ferris wheel, made himself realize how precious life is.

Married to her, even applied formally in front of her parents. To take him to live in small hostels. The beautiful first months of their marriage are remembered.

Passing the first night in a dirty rental dress and suit. Running to move the basin due to a leaky roof. A pair of brides laughing together on a cheap bed, laughing at their chaotic first night.

Until at last the laughter stopped, the young couple who took off their clothes sought warmth. Amid the sound of water falling into the basin, from the roof where the narrow boarding house is leaking.

The memory that always makes her smile, does Margaretha remember it?

Physically weak, only SMU education, making himself unable to make his wife happy. The wife who at first always patiently takes care of him. However, the need for too much when Margaretha was pregnant made them only sometimes eat crackers and white rice.

Women who began to envy looked at their hostess neighbors who were also pregnant so spoiled her husband. Only an apology was then spoken from Fino's lips. Margaretha said nothing, but she knew everything.

A cheerful face with only a sweet martabak that he bought after returning from being a porters in the market. They can only smile together, amid all their limitations.

Until the day of delivery, the son is born in a normal state in a midwife near where they live. Rion, that's his name, but that's where it all started. They are too young to have a child.

Margaretha, who was treated like a young lady, had to change baby diapers, sometimes wet clothes because Fino ran out of money to buy diapers.

Selfish? Actually no, only less able to adapt to his life that instantly changed 180 degrees. The rich young lady who was shopping had to be followed by the waiter, now wearing a shabby negligee holding a baby. Having a sickly husband, this was not entirely Margaretha's fault.

Until, he who got odd jobs from morning to night, came home in a tired physical condition. Seeking the whereabouts of his wife and child.

Rion, who was entrusted to the neighbors by Margaretha, was left without bathing and eating. The crying child, released in front of the porch by his neighbor who went somewhere.

Fino shed her tears just then, immediately removing them. Then Rion fed and bathed the two-year-old.

Trying to calm his son in tears.

The night was getting late, so Margaretha went home. A woman who does not yet know the fate of her son entrusted to a neighbor. From there their quarrel began, for the first time Fino yelled at his wife who had not adapted and was too young.

The unstable woman who packed her things, pulled her suitcase. Tell me about how cheap love is. Something that will not fill you up.

The immature unstable woman, clasping at Fino's apologetic hands, tried to stop him. But too late, Margaretha left him and Rion, returned to her family.

Margaretha considered her marriage to Fino a fatal mistake in her life. It may be a turning point to find a better man, as his friends and mother say.

He thinks in this life only he is the main character. One day you will meet a more suitable man, his appearance, and his social status.

Like a cold CEO figure in a novel or soap opera, pseudo happiness is like a king's daughter, spoken like a suggestion by friends who pity him and mothers who care about him.

And sure enough, the CEO is cold and arrogant like the main character of a novel or movie that he gets. The Casanova man, whom many women approach, dreams of women pursuing a physical appearance and a thick pouch.

Will it be romantic in a novel or a movie? Where a handsome, rich, arrogant man who tortured his wife in bed, committing physical violence. Gradually become a slave of true love, creating unfettered love in the lunge of the tsunami, remain steadfast even though the mountain erupts, kicking the actor who is like a demon approaching.

Fino does not know exactly how his ex-wife married. But one thing is certain, she will be happy if Margaretha is happy.

Having no other purpose, spending his life in his homeland. Staring even from afar at the woman he loved, the woman he could not have. It is also her fault, if she does not yell at Margaretha, speak slowly full of jokes maybe Margaretha can change again, become rigid as the beginning of their marriage.

Fino has now stepped through the passenger inspection area, boarded the plane, sat in the passenger seat.

The old wedding photo that had been almost weathered was still in his wallet. The smiling man wanted Margaretha to visit his funeral later. When the disease gets worse, life may not be long.

"I still love you." he muttered with tears flowing, stroking a picture of his ex-wife.

"I too. love me brother Fino.." Suddenly a rancid stewardess was beside him, pushing a trolley, serving food to the passengers.

Fino nibbled his own temple, kicking the air in annoyance. Why did he have to be on a plane with this young lady.

"We are a mate. oppa (brother in Korean)," he smiled.

"Shut up!!" fino shouted, wanting to feel wrathful.

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