My Startling Destiny's

Part 75 [Endless Regrets]

Riana, her world is completely destroyed when she finds out that her affair with Rival has been known by Andra. He who had taken the initiative to make the drama as a victim so that Andra would come back to him, unexpectedly even boomerang for him because immediately got a call from Mama and Papa who asked him to immediately clarify if all things about Andra were not true. At first Riana had rejected the wishes of Mama and Papa and remained cool in what she did. But finally Papa managed to force him when he confirmed a word that made his body like doused in lava melts.

“Don't be stubborn, Ri! Don't make our family more embarrassed.” At first he only sniffed papa's speech from the video call that took place.

“Papa said what the hell?" So proud of it, of course! At that time he did not know at all if it turns out all the family already knew the depraved thing he did.

“I'm fighting for my love, ma! I can't if Andra does this, you should support me!" He said that he still felt his actions were a struggle to maintain the love of the person he had betrayed.

“Papa just don't want to know Riana Anggita! You should clarify, clear Andra's name before Aunt Inka uncovers evidence of your affair with Rival!" And he was only able to gawk at Papa's statement with the most disintegrating look on his face, while Mama, the beautiful face of the woman who had given birth to him was unceasingly melting tears as Papa reiterated it.

“Andra knows your affair, Ri! You caused your love to go away, and now you're acting like the most hurt person! You tarnish the good name of the family, want to put where Papa's face, Riana? Papa is ashamed to meet Om Ervan, Aunt Inka is also Alandra!!" During his life in the world, for the first time he saw Papa shed tears. So helpless because of his behavior, and he was only able to bend down to cultivate regret from behind the scenes.

The thought of how Andra could know that depraved thing was simply not able to digest it well. Shame, sadness and feelings of annoyance dominate the inner. His world was completely collapsed, he was ashamed of all and circumstances. Riana had to really muster up some courage before doing any clarification that afternoon.

Until his last night meeting with Andra had to end because of the presence of an unknown woman. He had no idea who he was and what their relationship was until Andra was so concerned and seemed so panicked. What family, friends and colleagues he doesn't know. Half of his life he spent with Andra, then who was the foreign woman? However, the thought of the woman must be buried when guilt and regret come back to control. He had to pay for his behavior with tears all night. He single-handedly waded through all, shame and guilt made him unable to go home and meet the family who had called him.

The son of a conglomerate, a famous model, and a young businessman was hit by an accident due to his actions. Treasure and fame were deeply attached to his life. He who is used to being admired and adored seems to be devastated and suffering for the first time. The woman who used to look perfectly beautiful like the royal princess of old seemed devastated and sad in her apartment. In fact, he had repeatedly contacted Rival to say this and complain all, but his affair was not even contacted. He was alone, had no place to share.

This afternoon he had the courage to set foot in the house. Riana wanted to apologize to Mama and Papa. Before entering, his steps stopped, he looked at a building that was no less large than the yard of his parents' house. Staring at the building there makes the memory of the good times with Andra as if spinning randomly in his memory, becoming the most beautiful flashback during his life.

“I'm sorry, By!" He looked over before the foot of the level carried his steps running into the luxurious mansion in front of him.

The move stopped right in the family room, there were not only Papa and Mama, but also Kak Rika and Mas Indra, her sister and the husband. Highlight Riri's eyes slowly looked down as his netting stared with the owner's sharp but empty eyes staring at him expressionlessly. He seemed unable to look at the disappointed face of all that existed. Riana is sure if Kak Rika and her husband must have known all.

“Papa disappointed with you, son!" Her tears could no longer be contained as the voice of the papa baritone sounded lethargic, along with Mama who was down, stripping off with her head leaning against Papa's sturdy arm.

“Papa never taught you to be traitors! What kind of affection is lacking, Ri, until you think about doing this?!" The words seemed to force his head to lower, as if Papa's words contained a tremendous weight. Sick and stifling. “Did Papa fail to be a good father to you, son? Papa failed to educate you, son?!"

“Maafin Riri, Ma, Pa! Riri... Riri is useless. Riri's wrong, Riri's stupid.." Sluggishly.

Regretted? Sure was! In this way, he had deliberately made himself into an ungodly child. Riana regretted, her behavior did not only hurt one person. But everything he loves is hurt by it. It all started because he felt less attentive, he regretted having acted stupid just because Andra sometimes behaved indifferently and insensitively, He who has an obsession should be given affection and full attention to feel bored with Andra's attitude and instead move the direction and choose the wrong path. His heart could not turn away from his first love.

“Mama and Papa didn't fail to be parents, it's just that I failed to grow up to be a good child!"

“Riri apologize ma, Pa, sis, mas!" With a wave he looked at all the families in turn.

It's very real embarrassing, also painful. But as parents, Mr. Santoso and Bu Rita can not hate Riana. As bad as children are still their flesh and blood that cannot be discarded and ignored. Where Riana would go home and take refuge if not for them.

Papa and Mama tell how early Andra can know. It is clear according to the explanation of Mami Inka at that time.

“Andra was depressed because of you! She also left and lost the news because of you, Ri! All the changes that happened to Andra were because of you!”

“Kata aunt Inka, actually she does not want Mama and Papa know. But because of your actions, as a mother, Aunt Inka obviously did not accept her son being blamed while she knew the truth." Mama's heart chimed in.

Riana who heard that felt very slashed, even so the pain was no more crying sounds coming out, her chest was so tight. Her memory was fixed at the moment where she first felt a change in attitude towards Andra, one month before going on vacation. Riri's heart again throbbed pain imagining how Andra hid this thing alone.

It was his evil self that could hurt Andra, Her loved first love. He knew very well, Andra not only made him a lover. But, from childhood Andra loved, protected and kept him as a brother, friend, friend and bodyguard. That's how special Andra treats him. But he destroyed everything, Riana was ashamed. Even after what he did, Andra did not hate him at all or even uttered harsh words. The man still treated her well. Riana realized, regretting now was meaningless. Maybe even his regrets won't fix what's been torn. Now he was only able to sink into endless regret. The momentary pleasures he made with Rival made him feel the most despicable human being. Wasting his love just because he has flaws. All his faults that always demand all must be perfect as he wants.

His mind kept shouting calling out the name Andra. He was caught in the abyss of regret. Until his head slowly looked up.

“I want to see Ervan and Aunt Inka. I'd like to apologize." He made a decision.

“You must indeed apologize, Ri.”