My Soul Started From Tahajud Prayers
Chapter 10 surrender
"Eventually it was my intention to approach the city now preferring to stay away
I learned to be sincere and let go.
"but to be honest my heart felt much calmer, no longer agitated
maybe because I tried to give all of it to the creator, "that is ALLAH SWT.
"day by day was increasingly positive activities that I did in addition to work focus
I am also more active in worship
prayer is more diligent even prayer 5 times that must always I run
yes, maybe this is one form of ALLAH SWT so that I am closer" to him.
"when the night was relaxed again I open the phone, try to open youtube inadvertently found a video entitled miracle prayer tahajud," I was interested to watch it.
"then I watched the video, and I listened seriously
the contents of the video explain the tahajud prayer to accelerate our desires or desires
starting from the door open
in addition, tahajud prayer is a very good moment for us to pray, because in one third of the night is a good time for us to pray with a quiet atmosphere
so that we can focus on venting and praying with the creator," namely ALLAH SWT.
after I watched the video of the miracle of tahajud prayer, suddenly my heart was touched and wanted to try to practice tahajud prayer.
"during this time my desire to find a companion always failed
maybe I judge the woman I like she is good for me just," ALLAH SWT omnisciently knows best for me, it could not be the best.
my mind and heart are open, I better try to improve myself and surrender to ALLAH SWT
at that time I woke up in one third of the night, and I was performing tahajud prayers two raka'at
" as soon as I finish praying for forgiveness for all my sins, I'm sorry "ALLAH,
"i was wrong to have hoped in man, and for the affairs of my soul mate I leave it to you yes "ALLAH, I am sure you will definitely give me a mate with the right time.
"After praying my heart felt calm and at peace.
"my activities are more positive the day, I pay more attention to myself, from appearance, to exercise routine."
"after work I am ready to shower and dress up, on Friday..
I decided to go ashore to perform friday prayers in the mosque."
"the access I go ashore, of course from the ship using a boat or sea transportation from ship to port, takes about 30 minutes and requires a boat transport cost of 50 thousand to go home."
"finished Friday prayers, the afternoon I went back to the ship and rest."
"in the afternoon I got up and got out of the boat room to see the beautiful sunrise, and I took a selfie while pointing towards the sunrise."
"i opened my instagram, selfie photo earlier, I uploaded on instagram to just entertain myself."
"at night again, I try to open the phone and I open youtube, I,
to watch a comedy video, after getting tired of watching, I looked for another video on the youtube homepage, I saw a video about the prayer istikharah, I was curious and opened the video, after I saw and listened to it, I saw it, the prayer of istikharah is to invoke guidance in our lives, for which man is often confused in choosing action and can be wrong ,"
"after the completion of the prayer isya, I immediately perform the prayer circumcision istikharah dua raka'at. then pray for instructions to be given the best way, from the start of a soul mate and rizki who are blessed."
"the day goes by, my prayers are getting more diligent from starting to pray 5 times.
it did not feel like it had been about 23 days, every night I performed the Istikharah circumcision and tahajud circumcision prayer, and always prayed really, really, to ask for guidance in life and bring the best soul mate according to ALLAH SWT, I give up completely and believe there will be a woman that GOD has prepared for me, he said, I don't care where the woman comes from and what she looks like, but I believe that if the woman comes I will fight for her because I believe it is the best soul mate of GOD."
"when the night was in my sleep, I dreamed there was a woman who I thought was foreign, he wanted to get acquainted with me and he was frankly looking for a serious man to be made his life companion,,
until I was in the dream confused and astonished because of that woman I did not know her."
"the next day when I woke up I still clearly remembered the dream, but I considered the dream as a sleeping flower."
"at noon I was relaxed and I opened social media on instagram, because there was a notification on instagram, many friends who commented on the photo I uploaded, then I replied to my friend's comment."
"i saw also a notification that sent a message on my instagram and once I opened the message, I was a little surprised because of a woman."
"as soon as I open it and fill in the message, don't know me?" kokom.
" i was silent for a while and saw her profile picture ,because actually the woman I know and happened to be a village with me only I have been for almost 7 years I have never seen her in person, last I saw her in Middle School, because we happen to be a school but she's my junior sister below two levels, I'm in 3rd grade Junior High and she's in 1st grade Junior High, but only to the extent of knowing, for never rebuking nor communication with him."
"then I replied to a message on Instagram from the woman, yes know this kokom right,"
"so the woman was named Kokom, the distance of her parents' house she and my parents in the village not far away, just by walking alone can be."
"kokom replied to a message from me, oh yes kirain do not know, brother work where?" kokom.
"work on the ship, this is in
jakarta," says.
"do you have a signal on the ship?" kokom.
"there's, about the ships around
aja port, near the land too, you
where now?" tell him and ask him.
"i'm in college, brother, but in a minute
I want to graduate, just the final stage again
thesis," said kokom.
"oh, what college did you study at?" ask him
" obstetrics department, sak" said kokom.
"oh great, too, yes" I said
"yes, my brother, my mind is from childhood
want to be a midwife, brother I may ask
whatsapp number is not," said kokom.
"maybe, I'll send you my whatsapp contact later," I said.
