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"this road is mine"

"I've surrendered to the situation. I went through all this according to His will. I'm just asking for one of her, make me okay"

The feeling of resignation has been instilled from now on. Whatever will happen later, he will live with sincerity. Losing his family is a burden that cannot be weighed. But when he returned to surrender, there was a peace that could not be described with anything.

Two months on, the tragedy that took the two brothers was still dancing in Kiki's imagination. His stomach started to bulge, he stroked her with a meaningless smile. Between happiness and suffering, happy fetus is healthy. Sad when imagining her husband's burly hand stroking.

"Today's the control schedule?"

"Yes ma," Kiki pensively.

"Papa will prepare, have you prepared everything?"

"It's pa,"

"Ehmmm... Can I drop her off this time?" David offered to offer help.

The three people exchanged looks. And finally my father-in-law nodded.

"May I say something?"

Everyone exchanged looks. Ms. Hanny nodded.

"I want to replace my sister as her father" David looked straight at her belly.

All the breakfast participants stared at him.

"Sorry before ki, I just thought about the boy (pickling eyes) I wish he had a complete family. To believe that life without a father is so sad. Focusing only on your mom is exhausting. Mama is there to give affection, while papa is the sustainer of strength." David gives a detailed explanation so that everyone does not misunderstand.

FLASHBACKS

That afternoon David came to where Kiki was selling. He carries a plastic bag containing a pack of lunch along with his drink. But he stopped, not daring to approach her as Kiki walked towards the tavern inside the market.

Not because of shame, but rather to fear making others misunderstand and cause problems for Kiki.

David noticed Kiki's steps that began to tighten with a little holding his mouth that wanted to spit out food that shortly entered his stomach.

David held back his tears, how difficult the struggle of pregnant women was. The more thin the day, only the stomach is enlarged. Without her husband by her side, how she lived her nights. David often stole glances in his residence.

Several times David helped her up as she vomited in her house. Massaging his nape, even cleaning his face. Sure enough, Kiki was always limp after spitting out her food.

Although the spirit is passionate, but the situation does not help much. David did not understand why he cared so much about his sister-in-law. It was originally due to pity, but the more days he felt the sense of it deepened. Until finally there is a desire to have.

Many times he muffled his feelings, but the more he looked at his sister-in-law the more unreasonable he felt. The desire to hug and caress his distended stomach grew bigger.

It may be a crazy desire, but he does not want the unborn child to lack the affection of both parents as he experienced.

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Ms. Hanny was moved to hear her son's words, she was very happy with the son's expression. Not out of pity, but for the sake of the whole family. The sentence is simple, but not easy to say by anyone.

Kiki was still silent, her feelings were struggling with her wits. How much her love for her husband really closed her eyes. Of course, this hasn't even been three months. How could a wife so easily turn away. Even she was in pregnancy, it was not that easy to forget who the owner of the seed in her womb.

" Papa agrees, but we return it to the owner of the heart. Son, reassure her that you can be her husband's replacement. Reassure him that you can also protect and grant him affection. No less than Fahri gave. But all of that can be done after the baby is born."

"Mama's proud of you son. You really are an adult."

Kiki still couldn't believe everything. Yet he has promised to surrender to all His ways. He has truly made peace with his destiny.

That afternoon he was in control with David. Some people who knew him in the queue whispered.

"Tumben mbak, her husband's delivery?"

"That's dong mbak, cook in-laws continue right? occasionally let me know that her husband is tired of pregnant . Let's not just doang nanem."

And there were many more unqualified rants that he heard this time. Kiki asks to sit in the park after learning David got no. 30 queue. Feeling it is still a long time their turn, besides deliberately avoiding questions that might be asked by mothers around him.

David sat his brother-in-law in the garden chair, while he bought mineral water. Doctor Sam who accidentally passed by him when he saw he was sitting alone. There's actually an element of intentional intent as well, why doctor Sam saw it. Yes, actually, the doctor memorized his friend's control schedule. Classroom more precisely. He had met Kiki a few times before. Ask the situation and last time express his feelings. Funny, that's what Kiki felt. When you are pregnant, why other people are attracted to you. In his little heart said, perhaps pity. That's why he didn't heed the doctor's statement.

Although many reasons were given by people who admired him for a long time, Kiki did not necessarily accept it. Because Kiki knew it would not be easy for him to live in the family of the ocean. The ideals of her parents were so high, it was impossible to accept her that a widow, was pregnant anyway.

"Only?" the baritone voice shocked Kiki from her daydream. He was still thinking about his brother-in-law's statement this morning which was immediately approved by his parents.

"No, that's it coming."

"Candidate?" that voice sounded vibrating.

There is no answer, just a smile that was reviewed by the pregnant mother.

"This is Doctor Sam, and this is David."

The two shake hands.

"Drink first!" David opened the bottle and handed it to Kiki.

Witnessing the sight before him, the doctor immediately said goodbye.

"It's not wrong he's the doctor who handles Bayu right?" David was eager to ask the doctor's relationship with Kiki but did not dare.

"Yes, he's Fahri's little friend. Our village friends."

Silence, David was speechless. He wants to make small talk but he knows Kiki is not the type of person who is easy to accept.

"Regarding your statement this morning, I've thought about it."

David turned his head towards her, Kiki still straightened his gaze. A smile on his face.

His view is still full of question marks. His mind was glaring, he still seemed to be considering his options.

Sure enough, because this concerns the life that he will live in the future. He did not want this opportunity to only make him a burden on others. Although she currently has no one, has not her husband taught her to be independent? evidently by involving herself directly with one of the efforts her husband engaged in.

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Marry is fate, love is destiny. You can plan to marry whom, but you can't plan your love for whom.

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