My Pole Ketos
Is This Really Him? (Alex)
I took a sedative that I took every day in the UKS and I put it on the table watching Kayla who was lying fast in bed. I know that he didn't faint, but he fell asleep. It's really magical this one girl until I have to act so that everything goes my way.
*Some minutes ago
“Yeah, like seeing an idol just seeing you smile. I admit, your smile is sweet.” What is this why? What made him say such a thing? Unknowingly, a red tinge appeared on my cheek and I noticed that all the hordes of students/i there were shocked by my change. I stared at him flatly to cover my embarrassment in front of everyone.
“Don't you have any shame in saying that?! Follow me!” I said while pulling his arm and not caring about my surroundings. I feel de javu with this incident. Ah, when I saved Kayla from Anaya or perhaps more accurately, it was who saved me from Anaya. Anaya never told me how she felt about me. My hands shake when I hold them.
“Why is my phobias crunching again? In fact, it's better than ever. Maybe I rarely consulted my psychologist because I forced my situation to be fine." I muttered and I felt his arm feel limp and subconsciously, I caught him. Spontaneously, I panicked and carried a bridal style style and then ran to the UKS as if afraid he was why. I felt a lot of gazes towards me and I did not care about it and the sense of the recurrence of my phobias I ignored because of the girl I was carrying. Finally, I arrived at UKS with a breath of decapitation and the atmosphere was quiet because the officer and his guard teacher were doing teaching and learning activities. Forced, I put him to bed in a UKS bed and bought mineral water in the canteen for me and for him. I ran a little and reached the cafeteria, and then took the mineral water and paid for it. After that, I went back to the UKS and he was just like that. I sat down and waited for him until he woke up*.
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I looked at my phone screen and there was a chat from a number I didn't recognize.
+628789788567
Alex, how's Kayla doing? Am I the one who needs to replace you take care of Kayla?
Maybe this is his best friend named Laily.
Alexandros
You Laily?
+628789788567
Ja
Alexandros
No, you're just taking lessons. Make it clear that Kayla is sick and I'm taking care of her
+628789788567
Yes, thank you very much and forgive me and Kayla has troubled you🙏
Alexandros
Equally
I put the phone in my pants pocket and saw Kayla. He does not know a place even time just to sleep. Right now, for some reason she looked beautiful as she slept soundly. I smiled as if her face was giving off a calm stimulus when she was not fussy and when I wanted to leave, she woke up with a faint look like a drunk person. I don't know why, I have a bad feeling about Kayla's wake.
"You're that boy, huh?" tanyakanya. I was confused to answer and I nodded. I saw him smiling widely and doing something that even Mother had rarely done all this time.
“Where have you been all this time? I even forgot your name. I arrived from Japan 3 years ago and postponed my departure to Japan just to find you.” ribuya while crying. A boy? The japs? Is this why he's been here all along? And my current position was being hugged by him and the trembling and ache in my head started attacking me if his physical contact was already over the limit. I immediately took the medicine on my desk, but I gave it up because Kayla was holding me.
“Sorry, can you let me go? I will not leave you, I just take something on the table yes.” my door held the pain while pointing at the table that placed my medicine.
“Truly yes, you won't leave me?” the tan was spoiled and I nodded weakly because the pain in my head could not hold. Then, he let go of his embrace and I immediately ran towards the table and swallowed 2 tranquilizing pills and drained my mineral water that I had already bought. It felt relieved and I didn't think he was doing it, and then I saw him sleeping again as if nothing had happened. I just shook my head and left because I just remembered that the prospective members of OSIS will conduct the exam along with the new OSIS chairman candidate before being selected by the students/i. I came out of the UKS and found Andre waiting for me outside the UKS. I gulped down the saliva many times afraid that he would see what was happening and put on my distinctive face while walking towards the OSIS room. Andre sighed and began to open his voice.
“You're with Kayla what's the connection?” ask her and make me stop for a moment and look at her.
“There is no relationship between us.” I replied flatly.
“He was delirious and hugged me suddenly. He thought I was the boy he was looking for.”
“Boy? You've met him before, huh?” ask Andre.
“I don't know because he's wailing, maybe he's the wrong guy. You replace me take care of him and do not let anyone visit him or take him out, except exul Dandelion members!” I remember and when I wanted to move, Andre was holding my shoulder.
“New time, I saw you care about a girl, even though you had a trauma to them? Is Kayla special in your eyes?” tanyanya and I looked towards her. For a moment, silence was created because I was also at a loss to answer what and wonder with myself lately.
“No. I care as a fellow human.” I replied and went straight from the presence of Andre. Why is it wrong to care about Kayla? And I'm starting to think that's why I care about him. More I gave her distance because since her presence, my hatred towards girls slowly eroded little by little even though my body's reaction was still the same. I put that thought aside and ran a little fast towards the OSIS room as the allotted time was running out.
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I turned on my motorcycle in the school parking lot and drove it at a moderate speed to consult Dr. Hayati who became my psychologist when I was in 7th grade. He was a very kind, friendly, patient psychologist, and I considered him my mother and so did he who regarded me as his son. After a few minutes, I finally reached the hospital yard where Dr. Hayati doing the practice, namely Hospital Medika Rahayu. I parked my motorcycle in the parking lot and headed to the receptionist to make an appointment with Dr. Biochemic. After that, I walked from the hospital corridor to his room. I reached his room and knocked on his door.
“Sign in.” replied someone inside. I opened the door and found out he was writing someone's medical records. He looked at me with a smile and let me sit down. I sat right in front of him with the chair provided.
“It's been a long time that you haven't been here. How is your Mother?” ask him while putting the medical record documents that he just finished.
“Still the same.” answered me and he nodded in understanding.
“How's your school? Still have a problem with your phobias?” I fell silent and I couldn't possibly lie in front of him because I must have been caught. He smiled and confused me.
“Maybe at school you are having a conflict with your main problem at this time.” His answer made me nod lazily and he laughed a little.
“You must be having trouble with him? But take it easy, just think of him as an alternative solution other than doing therapy with me.” Dr. Biochemic.
“Dok, actually my phobia started relapsing this morning because I had been in physical contact that went beyond the limit.”
“Means?”
“Actually, I helped the girl I hated because of this phobia by holding her and when she woke up, she was delirious that she thought was the boy she was looking for and she hugged me. My head immediately dizzy and fortunately, I had time to take the medicine.” explained me. Dr. Hayati is taking notes and drawing conclusions from my past and present medical records. He took a breath and began to open his voice.
“If I see from your medical record then and now, it seems like a pretty good thing to be used as therapy as well as motivation so that you can improve your family relationship.”
“But doc, how can I accept my father after what he did to Mother and me?” my question is not to accept.
“I know you do not accept what your father did, in fact you just vent your Mother's anger to your father and it is not from yourself is not it?” Dr's Words. Hayati made me stunned and I don't know why the girl's words crossed my mind and I accidentally said.
“You are now only a mask to cover your true self and the world will never forgive you if you only carry that mask.” Dr. Hayati heard it and her gaze as if asking me to explain it.
“It was the first time I met a girl I hated, then out of nowhere she knew my weakness from the words I said earlier.”
“So yes, better ka........................” The sound of knocking on the door cut into our conversation and Dr. Hayati let in.
“Log.” The door opened and I was shocked not to play who opened it.
“HAH?! WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?” we shouted at the same time.
