My Last Kiss's

CHAPTRE 49

"This is serious, Nat. I actually know all about you."

"How do you mean try?" I turned my attention to Panca.

"Well.... About you who are not aunt kezia's biological children and the late om."

"Huh? How's how?" many wonder.

"Your mother told me...." Panca sighed deeply and then exhaled her.

I watched Panca closely with curiosity.

"At that time, om and aunt often quarrel because aunt wants to separate the same om. Not because aunty does not love the same anymore, but because of pity every time om discuss about children while aunt feels guilty can not give om child. That night, they had another fight. Aunt wants to separate. It rained that day. In their quarrel, the door was knocked, when they came out, they found no one there. Then all they found was a baby in a basket. They also took the baby. They are taking care of him to this day. That's you Nat." Panca stop.

I scrunched my forehead.

"Your presence brings om and aunt back together Nat. After getting you into their family, om and aunt never fight again. They're happy, every day because of you and for you."

"Keep, why haven't they ever told me the truth?" I try to understand.

"They love you like a real child. They just don't want to, if you know, then you'll leave them Nat."

"Trus why are you telling me all this?"

"I just want you to understand slowly Nat. The point is, they love you so much."

I looked down and pondered everything. I want to be angry, but what mom and dad have been doing all this time is not wrong.

"Don't stay with them Nat. Don't stay in aunt." Panca touched my shoulder with her gaze trying to convince me.

"Where do my birth parents go? Why am I sent to this family? Who are they really?" I looked at Panca.

Panca just a whimper.

~

~

~

(Night on the balcony)

"Ma..," I said to my mother who was sitting on the balcony.

Mama looked, though,

"Hey baby," she replied.

"Why are you here?" my many.

"Mama wants to. Enjoy the sky."

I looked up at the sky. Right, the sky is full of stars. Beautiful, and bright.

"Where's my father?" my many.

"Dad out bentar. He said there was business."

I nodded slowly.

"Ma, can I ask you something not the same mama?" I turned my attention to my mom.

"Well, can dong darling. Ask me."

"Actually..., my real parents who the hell is ma?" I started to get serious.

My mother was surprised by my question.

"Well, how do you do that, baby? Well your parents are the same mama as the late papa dong." Mama's brushing my hair.

"I know everything ma. I.., I'm just a kid that mom's foster. The baby that mom and dad found on the doorstep of mom's house. Disposed baby-" I started to shed tears.

"Snat?" Mama touched both of my cheeks trying to wipe away my tears that started to break.

"Hey, Nat. Dengerin mama..," Mama pulled me into her arms.

"You don't care, baby, you're my mom's son. Mama loves you like your own mother's son. Mama's happy to have you, son."

I was still crying in my mom's arms. Started stroking my shoulders to calm me down.

I took off my mom's hug, though,

"Who are my birth parents?"

"Mama and papa don't know baby. Justjust.... Along with the night that mom and dad found you, there was a case of suicide. From the story we heard, it happened after a woman gave birth and did not survive. While the woman's husband was so very frustrated to lose his wife and finally he committed suicide after throwing away the baby because he could not support his son alone."

I just closed my eyes holding the pain in my heart. I felt, as if my body was no longer alive for a moment.

Mama stroked my hair to make me cry again.

**