
Satisfied joking cheerfully with his grandfather, My son slept very well at night. I saw a cell phone in the hand there was not a single incoming message from Mas Heru to just ask the children and our whereabouts.
Ah... I expect too much from him, or maybe it is not able to signal considering my phone does not have a 3G network.
I fell asleep with my two children in the room I used to occupy as a girl, and was still awake tidiness and cleanliness, even though no one occupied. Because Mom always cleans it periodically, 'fear if the child suddenly comes to stay overnight and the room is dirty' that is the reason mother who makes me more haunted by guilt.
Azan dawn reverberated melodious from the Toa mosque village, the cold this morning made me reluctant to get up from the bed and pull the blanket back.
Tok.
"Ren.. wake up, pray first dawn" Mother's voice woke up. I opened the door and walked to the bathroom.
Brrr... cold water here, I used to be normal if I had to take a shower in the morning, but now, just now this water hit my hands, my hair immediately stood up. hmmmm..... do I have to cook the water first so it doesn't get too cold. You can laugh at Mom and Dad later!
I forced myself to wudhu even though the cold pierced into the pores of this skin. After finishing taking ablution back to the room turned out my eldest Arya had gone to the mosque with the Father, the leganya finally there is a figure that will be a role model. Mas heru almost never invited my eldest son to pray in the mosque except Friday prayers only.
Kutunaikan prayer 2 rakaat following the sunnya prayer, heard the ringing of the sound of a mobile phone that I put on the nightstand, the sound of the ringing is quite disturbing my concentration yanh is doing the sunnah prayer.
After praying and praying for a while, I grabbed the phone immediately, but the connection was cut off. It's over there "Papa". Finally he began to search for my existence, Happy me.
drt....
There is another call from Mas Heru, Immediately I lift up with a happy heart.
("Walaikum greetings, where you until morning gini has not come home also heh...!!!) She snapped at me in a loud voice that made me keep the phone a few inches away from my skin.
("I'm in the village") I answered briefly and densely, for some reason I became lazy to talk to him.
("Don't lie to you huh, where'd you make your way home?! spit it home if not..") he began again issuing his threat, thinking I would submit as I have been. Nope..! I'm not the stupid Rena I used to be. Not yet he finished his words immediately I snapped by challenging him back.
("If not why?! heh.. You want to threaten me?!) I replied in a raised voice, I am fed up with his extremely selfish attitude again stingy
("You've started to be insolent, you're the same husband who dared to snap!") Do not accept him if now I have dared to rebel.
("You make me like this, I msih able to meet the needs of me and also the children even I have money to go back to the village, I'm a beard to face selfish humans like you Mas.") My brother with fire.
("Oh so you have the courage to go without saying goodbye to your husband,") ha...... What did he say?! it was not he who told me to leave. I was just doing what he told me to keep my self-esteem that he never appreciated.
("are you not the one who told me to leave?! have you forgotten!? now gini yes Mas, I need time alone to think about the continuation of our household!. You better be self-introspective too, if you want to change your selfishness invite me and our children to fix everything from zero!, if not, sorry I'm not able to face your thoughts!") Threatening me to him, I was no longer able to accompany a man who was very selfish just thinking about his own pleasure, without caring about his wife and child.
When he was busy mabar and gather with his friends, he never thought about whether his son had eaten or not, what can happen. I don't care if he doesn't think of me, but at least he thinks of his flesh and blood as our children.
The man is selfish and I will teach him his selfishness, I will prove if I can survive even without a penny.
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