My God Wants Him

Feel Shame

Without notice, the clear granules fell from Aini's eye patch and soaked her cheeks. It felt like he was so sorry to ever be so bad about Baim. All this time he was so foolish as to silence the innocent.

"Who sinned I silenced my fellow Muslims. Even though the word teacher, we can only not greet with someone we meet with a three-day deadline. But I haven't said hello to him for half a year" Aini muttered.

Aini pressed the letter to her chest. The feeling is so crowded, there is sadness, regret, and feel himself selfish everything so one. Then he remembered one thing.

"Necklace," inner. He unpacked the gift box and looked for the necklace that Baim said. It turns out that it is true that at the very bottom there is a pair of heart necklaces that say their names. But Aini still hesitates with her feelings, whether she will give one of the necklaces to Baim or will throw it away. Then he decided to keep the necklace in his wardrobe drawer.

Aini opened her bedroom door a little to see if her mother and father were still in the living room because she was embarrassed to be caught crying. But apparently no one was there. He immediately went out to the bathroom to wash his face that had been flushed because and his eyes were slightly swollen.

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The next day, Aini was helping mom clean up the house. Because this is a holiday, so the girl was assigned the mother to help the mother's work from sweeping, mopping, to wiping the dirty glass windows. His two siblings were busy washing their shoes in the bathroom.

"Sister, help me get these groceries inside. I want to see Grandma for a moment," pinta mother who saw Aini had been sitting casually on the front porch. Aini's grandmother was sick, so the mother and sisters took turns to take care of the grandmother.

"Yes ma'am" he said, then took over the mother's groceries and immediately took her to the kitchen.

"Where's my mom?" ask the youngest from the bathroom. The bathroom door was not closed, so his two sisters could freely see anyone who entered the kitchen.

"Mother to grandmother's house" he said, as he arranged the groceries into the refrigerator.

"What kind of gift did you get from Mr. Baim?" ask the Iva.

"Idihh, little boy kepo!" chirps Aini.

"Whoever does it, I'll just ask" Iva argued.

"Just like, that's the name!" Aini has closed the refrigerator and stored the used plastic packaging of groceries into the closet under the stove.

"What the hell is that brother? Isn't kepo a motorcycle brand?" ask the youngest. Apparently from earlier he was silent because he thought about the meaning of kepo.

"Since when did kepo become a brand of a motorcycle," thought Aini.

Iva who was next to Tia directly pushed her sister's forehead slowly. "That's Revo, not kepo!"

Aini shook her head. It turns out he's no smarter than Iva. The girl did not understand what her youngest sister was thinking. After Iva said it, he only realized, if there is a motorcycle brand similar to the word kepo.

"Kepo means to know the affairs of others," said Aini to cover up his shame because of his ignorance.

"Oh, that means yes sis," replied the youngest while continuing to brush her shoes.

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Baim just finished sweeping the courtyard of Umi's house. Although he was a man, but he was not ashamed in the slightest of doing the usual work of a woman. For him, helping Umi is a form of devotion to parents, even though Umi is not his biological parents.

Baim let out a rough breath. "Capek too" he said, then he put a broom in the corner of the yard and sat himself on the patio chair.

"Bang, uda is done?" asked Fahri who just came out of the door.

"Already," he answered. Baim glanced at Fahri. "Not bring a drink?" ask her because she wants to immediately quench her thirst.

"Good shit, forgot bang. Umi had put a drink on the table, but Fahri forgot to bring it because it had taken the phone first to the room," he explained. "Wait a moment, let Fahri get it," he continued again and had walked into the house back to the kitchen to bring their drinks.

"It's a drinking bang" said Fahmi who came with a few drinks on the tray.

"Well, where's Fahri? Wasn't he the one who wanted to grab a drink?" ask Baim in astonishment.

"Yes, when he went to the kitchen, his drink was Fahmi held, so he was told Umi to bring a snack" said Fahmi. Before long Fahri came out with a snack in his hand.

Baim who had sipped a drink in the glass immediately took a snack from Fahri's hand without permission.

"Where was last night bang? Aini want to take the card?" asked Fahmi while eating the snack.

"Corno?" timpal Fahri doesn't know. "Yes, bang Baim last night will come to Aini's house to give her a birthday gift," continued Fahmi.

"Oh, so not a bang?" asked Fahri who was also curious.

Baim shrugged both of his shoulders. "Yes my brother doesn't know, because last night he took his card to his mother."

"Well, suck it brother! no jentelmen!" ledek Fahri's.

"Don't want to give gifts directly, but you know for yourself, if Aini until now has not wanted to meet with brother. How many times has my brother come to his house, always because he is sleeping, or again doing schoolwork and does not want to be disturbed," explained Baim. "Can't be funny if later brother has not given a gift but has been told to go home because Aini does not want to meet brother!" continued again.

"Patience bang," said Fahri empathy as his hand patted Baim's back.

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"Well, here's a drink" Aini told her father, who was seen wiping the motor after washing.

"Yes, just put it on the table" said the father. The girl placed the tea she had made for her father on the table, then sat herself down in the chair next to the table.

Aini took a flat object from her skirt pocket and played it. He recalled the contents of Baim's letter saying that the hope of their relationship could return to the way it used to be.

"I won't block the number anymore" he murmured softly, then his finger seemed busy resetting it so that Baim's number wasn't blocked anymore.

Assalamu'alaikum, how are you doing bang?

Assalamu'alaikum, what else?

Assalamu'alaikum, sorry to bother. just want to say make up for the card

A few words had the girl typed and she would immediately send to Baim's number, but repeatedly she erased and replaced them with other words as she hesitated to begin from where. It felt like he was so embarrassed to first contact Baim, especially during this time he misunderstood the man.

"Already la, do not need to be sent," he said lirih.

"Again what kind of a tick, very serious." Dad had been sitting next to his eldest son for a few seconds while Aini was busy with her phone, but the girl had not noticed.

Aini looked over and was a little surprised. "Dad, since when did you sit there?"

"Since I've seen cell phones, just" led dad while sipping tea lying on the table.

Aini gulps. "Did you see the contents of the message I was going to send to bang Baim?" his inner.

"Mother said, last night Baim came with a gift. Are you guys familiar again?" ask dad.

Aini was silent because she was confused as to what to answer. If he said he was back familiar, in fact until now there are no words spoken from Aini's mouth to reply to the letter or call the man as proof they are familiar again. But if you say not yet Aini has now started to forget their past problems and has forgiven the woman who called him the other day and of course forgave Baim who is innocent.

"So what's the card?" asked Mother who suddenly sat in front of Aini. For the second time Aini was taken aback. "Astaghfirullah's.. Mommy."

"Think what the hell? Until I sit here, brother gets so surprised!"

"Nothing" argued Aini. "Emm. the contents of the card there is a mini quran, books and other writing equipment," continued Aini to divert her mother's questions earlier.

"Oh, I think a set of prayer tools," said the mother.

"In cash, legal!" timpal daddy.

Aini's face looked flushed holding in shame. This father and mother could have been compact to mute him. "This goes inside first yes ma'am, well," she said to avoid her parents.

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tbc

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you guys want a fast or slow groove, right?

I was confused what else to write.

Want to marry Baim and Aini is not possible, is Aini masi SMP ⁇ ️

let's comment on the fast groove, let Aini immediately finish SMA this😄😄