My First Love, Second to You

CHAPTER 40

Fatimah momentarily fell silent and she lowered her head she was unable to speak for a moment, only her mind spoke.

" To be Mr Davin's wife? But what about the young lady? Oh my God, is this not taking advantage of the situation? When the young mistress lay in a coma I occupied her position that she should be, O Lord, if this is Your plan in God I can live it, Forgive Me Young Mistress, because it's too bad to marry your husband." His words spoke inwardly, with thoughts raging between the word yes and the word reject.

" I want you to accept my application before I talk to your family, I really hope you become the Mom of Keyra, because I'm very sure that you love Keyra very much, and I want you to marry Davin, what about Fatimah?" Ask Bu Santi, while Fatimah is still silent.

" Oh my God...What do I have to answer for all this? Is this how I can repay all the kindness of the family, Miss Santi?" His murmured in a heart full of turbulent uncertain taste.

" Did Fatimah not want to marry me?" Davin muttered in his heart, he stared fixedly at Fatimah.

" I'm sorry Mom if I'm married to Mr. Davin what about the sick Young Madam Ma'am?"

Davin was surprised by Fatimah's words he immediately changed his sitting position by propping his hands on both his thighs while cupping his hands in his face, Miss Santi stared for a moment at Fatimah and then turned to Davin and he smiled.

" You don't have to worry, Sherly must be happy with you as his second wife Davin, don't misunderstand me first, son with what you want from you, not want to use you, do not want to use you, but because this is all for the sake of Keyra who is very and very fond of you, besides that also I already feel suitable with you." He said with a smile, Fatimah was silent again.

" This is what I fear to find a companion again, for it is not easy for a woman to accept a man whose wife is still there, even in her present state of illness, O Lord what should I do now, Is the woman before me now willing to accept me as her future husband, and how does her family react to knowing I have been married and have been sick all this time, I don't want to be said to be the guy who wants to please my loneliness all along." His Inner Speech while staring at Fatimah who was still silent.

" Bishim..." Fatimah said in her heart.

" Well, Miss Fatimah wants to marry Mr. Davin." He said, making Miss Santi smile and feel very happy.

" Thank you Fatimah, thank you.later if you come home after lunch and Davin will meet your family directly.". Said Miss Santi while hugging Fatimah because her dream was realized to want Fatimah to be her daughter-in-law, long before she knew the problem that befell Laura she had expected Fatimah to be Davin's wife.

" Thank God, Fatimah wants to marry me." His inner speech while smiling happily, as well as Laura, only this time he felt this happy, after he said an apology to Fatimah.

" I'm sorry Mom, excuse me, I want to see Keyra, I'm afraid she's awake." He said, without him looking at Davin.

" Yes Fatimah..." Said Ms. Santi while looking at Fatimah's step leaving the living room, then Davin following Fatimah's step, Miss Santi just smiled.

Before Fatimah entered her Son's room, Davin grabbed Fatimah's hand and closed Keyra's door.

" Fatimah's...I want to talk to you!" His words immediately invited Fatimah to talk about the sofa in front of Keyra's room.

" Yes Young Master,. What do you want to talk about?" Said Fatimah while staring for a moment at Davin.

Fatimah was surprised by Davin's words, she immediately said.

" No, no sir, I have no doubt in my heart, I say it all in front of Ms. Santi and Tuan himself based from my own heart." Her speech.

" But why do you look sad Fatimah?"

" No sir, I feel sad not because I want to marry you, but I am sad because my happy day my mother is still in the hospital." She lied to Davin, but she was sad to remember that Sherly was sick and she was going to marry her husband, which is what Fatimah had thought.

Davin looked at Fatimah.

" Fatimah, if later I am accepted in your family, I want our marriage later only the family knows." Davin said spontaneously to make Fatimah surprised and looked at Davin.

" You can't get me wrong, Fatimah, it's not my intention to play with our marriage, but because of Clara, I don't want this marriage to be known to her, because there's one thing I can't tell you." Prattling

" Okay sir, I'll follow what you want." He said, but he thought hard why until the wedding they later had to be hidden.

" What's the matter exactly? Does Mr Davin really not want to marry me? Is it just Keyra? Or actually he's ashamed to have a wife like me who is so different from the young mistress." He thought as he lowered his head.

Davin sees Fatimah's face full of questions about all this, but Davin can't yet say the cause and effect so he has to hide his marriage later.

" I'm sorry Fatimah, because I can't say everything yet, slowly and gradually I'll tell you everything about Laura and Clara's problem." He said as he took his breath slowly.

" I'm sorry, sir, I'm going in first..." He said as he walked into Keyra's room.

Davin's breath was heard and then he leaned his body against the sofa.

In Keyra's room...

Between happy and sad is raging in the heart and mind of Fatimah, happy because she can be together with Keyra, and, and could be with the guy who always makes the thump in his heart and he also felt the reflex movement that Davin gave him when he held his hand several times, sad that she felt so hurtful to her coma-bound Young Mistress Sherly, it was this thought that always haunted her after hearing the employer's desire to make her his daughter-in-law.

He stared at the innocent face of Keyra who was still asleep, Fatimah stroked the tiny cheek, and kissed Keyra on the forehead with affection.

" Mama dear to you Son, since the first time you said Mamah at that time, this affection is full to you and will never run out of time." He spoke quietly, and he did not realize that Davin was standing in front of the door of the Child's room while holding his hand and leaning his body to the side and continued to look at Fatimah who was sitting on the child's bedside.