My Choice of Match

special eps: Thorn

This heart belongs to God, but I feel.If there is a happy kenpa must suffer, if there is a meeting why should be separated.I belong to me eat I control over my will.

For the first time in my life, I saw my mother crying and why it was a disease I was suffering from. For the first time I saw my father angry and why it was my illness.

For the first time in my adult life, my mother bathed me, too weak to get up, but I was not comfortable with the stickiness of my skin, my mother helped me take a shower and she also put me in clothes.

For the first time in my life I saw Nadin crying because of my illness or my bad luck. For the first time I realized I still had parents and friends, for the first time I realized how stupid I was.

"Nadin, I want to get out of the room, all day I'm lying here very bored... I want to go out for a while. do you want to help me?"

"Of course I'll help you"

Nadin quickly brought a wheelchair, helped me sit in that chair and took me out of the room and walked to see the hospital garden a good place for me who wanted to breathe fresh air.

"Do my parents know what happened to me?" ask me of course about my actions trying to kill myself.

"I don't know, but of course I didn't say anything.Maybe they only know about your magh disease"

"Nadin.... since when do you talk softly like gini? usually you say nyolot mulu"

ask me in a joking tone.

"Lu who spoke first use the word I'm not me, usually you who talk rough now wake up from the coma so soft"

We laughed at Nadin's words, I could see from his eyes he was relieved to see I could laugh.

"After waking up I just realized, it turns out I have a lot of things that I should be grateful for rather than I'm sorry.Perhaps the wrong one emang me. too much hope in the wrong people, too much, maybe I shouldn't have expected more"

"It's not wrong, it's God's destiny. Lu don't constantly beat yourself up" Nadin gently rubbed my hand and smiled giving me a new spirit that I sincerely returned the smile to.

"Maybe I'm too influenced by people's talk, I am only 22 years old and this is a young age but because many of my friends who are married and have children I even get overheated and want to see my soul mate, living a household that I think will be happy even though everyone has their own time and this time is not mine for marriage"

"Lu's not alone Mel, there's still me right? I also have not merit ko so do not make a decision quickly, you must think first mateng-mateng"

"Lu know myself I do not like waiting, if you can now why should later? well but with everything that's happened to me now I'm not as rash as before, I know what I have to do"

"Gue trusts you"

Well, the journey of my life is still long.What has happened let it be a whip reminder for every step I will go through later, now all I have to do is obey the doctor's orders in order to go home quickly.

Nadin could not keep me company continuously, he had a job and a personal life and he also told me that in another week Jordan would marry of course with his affair Dina, Dina, there was a slight angry vibe in my heart when I heard the name, but I managed to overcome it because the marriage was also Nadin had to follow his parents to Bali.

I accompanied Nadin's departure with a smile and did not forget I left a small gift as a wedding gift Jordan and Dina.I asked Nadin not to hand over the gift directly because the contents of the gift was my heart disintegrated.

I also did not give the name to the gift because when Jordan opened the contents of the gift he must know where it came from. Two straw dolls wrapped in shrouds with fresh blood stains and nails that stick right in the heart of each doll, that's the contents of the gift I gave horrible enough to open a new couple.

There's not much I can do in Bandung, other than rest and and read some old books.I'm getting tired of my meaningless routine, I want to go looking for work again but mom and dad haven't allowed of course I've only been home a month with my thin body and pale-faced panda eyes who would accept a sick employee like these.

Lucky some neighbors have girls who are still as good as me so I am not so lonely, everyday I play with them just chatting and eating snacks typical of the city of Bandung.

New friends, new places, new atmosphere this is what I need to start a new life, maybe it was only two months that I stayed with my parents but with my health improving I was finally able to take away their trust.

I decided to go to town again and find a job but because my mother wouldn't let me stay alone, I left my mother to Aunt Isma in Bogor, it just so happens that she's a widow who doesn't have children so it's appropriate that I stay with her.

Aunt Isma picked me up at the bus stop, and I recognized her with her purple clothes, to me he was a kind-hearted auntie as a child he often took me for a walk and bought me toys.I even have a nickname for him that is MANGU stands for Isma Ungu.

When I was a kid I used to call him Mangu if I wanted to spoil him.

"Where is your Sundanese Mel?" asked my aunt on the way home

"No tan, I only know a few words"

"When your parents have lived in Bandung for quite a long time"

"Well aunt who lives in Bandung is the same mother father, I'm still in Jakarta"

Aunt Isma laughed at my answer, we arrived at the aunt's house which of course was all purple as well. My aunt took me into the house and had prepared a room for me.

"Auntie has been told your mother, he said you came here to work and aunt also warned about your illness so your aunt advises you to leave work at a aunt's shop, well a small shop anyway but than you work in someone else's auntie so can't supervise you, anyway if you work in a aunt's shop you're free of his work"

"Mely do not mind ko tan, work where it is not an important problem Mely work because Mely is not at home in the tan"

"Yes already if you agree tomorrow aunty take you to the store today you take a break just sure you cape it abis a long trip"

Aunt Isma left me in the room, at the end of my life I will start a new life.I will not ask much of God I did not expect my dream will be achieved I just want from today onwards I became who I am new happy in my way even though it's simple.