My Choice of Match

epe. 15

Mely's room was so dark he deliberately did not open the curtains even though the morning had come, in front of him was plastered posters of the name of ALLAH SWT and ROSULULLAH. From night to morning he kept staring at the name with nothingness, in his heart he screamed and cried as he could.

I stand in Your aisle, full of my power. Is not your love greater than the ocean? then why don't you set aside even a drop for me? what was my mistake until you punished me this cruel. The love that I was proud to give in return for a humiliation, now I stand before You as a poor servant.If I do not deserve that love then I do not deserve any suffering, I do not deserve any suffering, now I ask for your justice. Your generosity as you have said, is the opposite of all that I have given him, and life if you do not give them Your karma and if you will allow me to become that karma.

Mely had never felt this kind of life, a life full of killing intent, but she knew she was sane enough to resist that desire, therefore he chose a more complicated path a more creative path.

After telling Nadin about what happened to him while in Bali, Mely chose to stop working and was unemployed for a while, Dewi and Siska but Mely chose silence and only answered he wanted to go home to Bandung.

Of course, not everyone should know what has happened to his love, only his trusted people should know.Nadin who knows now Mely back to his routine that dabbled with film, and horror books certainly look at him more often and invite him to talk.

There was something different from Mely at the moment than what Nadin knew Mely was quite tough facing this ordeal, he was again busy with his horror book but he was not upset like before.Mely occasionally came out just for a walk or watch and even he came out with a perfect makeup that makes it look more radiant.

Although he does not open his heart to men at this time, but he is quite open to make new friends.Even Nadin feels Mely being a different person may be naughty is the right word to describe Mely at this time.

Unbeknownst to anyone Mely did start smoking either start when but he did often do it in the room when alone and daydreaming, even he also became wasteful by spending his money for fun. Indeed Mely did not go to the nightclub and sip the illicit goods, but she went wherever she liked even though it was late at night.

Nadin who is worried about Mely's condition is even more restless to see the current state of Mely that is not careless. Until finally he found Mely in his dark room on his back under the bed with an incision wound in his pulse.

Fresh blood flowed from the still-new wound, Nadin shook Mely violently and shouted her name but Mely did not budge in the slightest, his face was pale and weak he did not expect Mely to be able to do something stupid like this.

Fortunately, Mely's breathing was still there even though it was slow, he immediately called an ambulance and took her to the ER.Doctors acted quickly once Nadin arrived, it took a few hours before the doctor came out of the room and told Nadin.

"He's fine, he's stable. For now what he needs most is the support of the people around him because of his mental illness, of course, I hope you can give him the passion to live and keep him from doing these things again"

Nadin entered the room and saw Mely sleeping soundly,the circumstances of Mely really torment his heart how not he played a big role in the romance story of Mely.Ia who was proud to make Mely happy by meeting her with Jordan it turned out to have made Mely try to end her life.

Now in his heart Nadin also holds a grudge for Jordan, he did not think his cousin could do something like this.Nadin wiped his tears and promised to do anything as long as Mely can be his friend who used to be, Mely was cheerful and patient.

"Oh, how are you doing now? feel well? "

Mely just nodded slowly as a sign of answer, as long as he was in care of Nadin there was not the slightest mention of his intention to end his life. Lucky Mely only need to be treated one day a night and allowed to go home the next day.

according to the advice of doctors Nadin accompanied Mely for as long as he had time although Mely refused when Nadin wanted to stay but finally Mely could not dwell again after Nadin insisted.

Day after day they passed with questions in each other's hearts, although Nadin really wanted to advise that Mely could appreciate life better but he always menggantungkan intention to see the condition of Mely more bleak.

No meaningful change happened to Mely, with all the problems she got Mely finally decided to go home to Bandung. Of course Nadin agreed there were his parents who could twenty-four hours faithfully accompany him.

And about this incident of course they are kept secret from anyone.

* * *

Life is unfair when problems continue to hit you, there is no place to complain to be the reason why you have to stay in the world. Mely wanted to try to end her life once again, but both her parents were so indulgent.

Maybe because they knew his daughter was in the midst of such deep sorrow, every day that Mely did just daydream and contemplate thinking what she should do. There is no passion for life but not able to revenge well, alive but not alive.

The longer the time that kept going to uncover another veil of suffering, Mely's parents suddenly found Mely's body stiff, she was still alive but hard to breathe. his ice-cold hands and feet twisted like a person with a stroke.

Mely was immediately taken to the hospital and the doctor stated that Mely had chronic magh disease, being stiff in the body doctor diagnoses is a reaction of stomach acid that rises and then there is a constriction of the breathing so that no oxygen enters, the body that does not get oxygen properly eventually makes the blood rate does not run properly so that the legs and hands become stiff and cold.

Only a sad sobbing could Mely's mother do seeing her beloved daughter lying weakly with an oxygen hose on her nose so she could breathe. Nadin who was told the current state of Mely quickly looked to Bandung.

His heart aches to see Mely's condition getting worse, the doctor states his illness can be cured and he can live normally again, but if Mely herself had no intention of living how the Doctor's attempt to cure her might have worked.