My army my Hero

Episode 4

Do you know what that feeling really is? Feeling possess? A wish? Guilt, pain, confusion, restlessness, longing, hatred?.

Isn't it just like an empty glass that is dusty if it has passed the time, so-so, nothing special, even funny and anxious when remembered.

But in this journey of life, all of that you will feel, not even one is missed. Just waiting for time.

Today, some of that feeling has enveloped my heart, the confusion of my mother's circumstances, my mother's greatness, she can cover all the problems of others, but I know now, I know, my mother's been alive in my father's waiting for years. And I know you miss him.

"Come ma'am, Arsyad's there on a mission assignment"

I persuaded my mother to let me go to Singapore, the reason for the state's duty, this was the only right one for her to melt her heart.

"Can't you go to another country?"

Mother still insisted on prohibiting me from leaving, the busyness of mother care for the laundry of neighbors made the conversation could not be more calm, from the mother's book notes, I know why mother still chose the job of washing clothes neighbors, I know why she still chose the job of washing clothes neighbors, that's because grandma, if you want to know what my grandmother is like, you can read for yourself in my mother's notes that I copied.

"Where can Arsyad determine the place of duty ma'am, rank Arsyad not sergeant, not major, let alone general"

"Then you ask to be moved" said mother lightly, still busy preparing the iron clothes.

"Mother, there is no TNI soldier who can oppose the will of the superior even if our lives are at stake, said the mother also?" I said keep begging.

An hour passed, my conversation was interrupted erratically, no response, no answer, mother was silent. Busy putting clothes that have been ironed mother to be packed into plastic, I decided to help.

At 16:30 mom finished with her work, sitting on the couch in front of the tv for a break, I went straight to the kitchen, made warm tea for mom.

"Drink ma'am" Mother received the tea I made, sipped a little and put it on the table.

"Is this the father's watch I've been telling you about in his notes?" Ask me in my heart. I accept it with pleasure.

"Mom let you go, son, if you need anything urgent you can use that watch to help you, I don't have the wealth to accompany your journey"

"No ma'am, Arsyad doesn't need anything, my permission is more than enough, thank you ma'am"

I got a little hug from mom, a hug that was so warm in my life. Even though I am an adult, even though I have become a soldier, but I am still like a child in front of my mother.

Two days before my departure, I stopped by Aunt Diana's house to say goodbye to her and my dear sister Intan Permata.

"The promise was only one month" Intan kept charging the promise, she really didn't want me to leave her back for the second time.

"Just do it" I said.

"I want to get to know you more" Question Intan as if like a lover who just met and did not know each other.

"What you don't know about Tan's brother, we've been together since you were first born, haven't we?"

"Yes, but 4 years ago Abang left, that's what makes Tatan not fully know Abang"

There is a look of seriousness there, Intan really like to demand the time that was lost.

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