My army my Hero

Episode 30's

"Since when are you home?, I don't think you're coming home" I'm a little nervous.

"You haven't answered my question"

"Questions? Oh that one, well maybe" I'm getting nervous. Intan really looked at me like a tiger wanting to pounce on its prey.

He was still standing behind his mother, silent for a second, then crying suddenly. This is the time I saw Intan crying since two weeks ago. And I am the cause.

"Look mom, Bang Arsyad is so annoying, he doesn't know how hurt Intan is, he just keeps lying. Please tell kedia ma'am, stop this lie. Is it hard to admit to being yourself? Why should he continue to bear the pain that could be treated if he was telling the truth? What trouble? What harm? How much does Brother Arshad let me be owned by someone else, while Brother knows there is no one I have wanted more since childhood than Brother Arsyad, why is he so heartless mom?"

"Calm down" Aunt Diana stood up. Walk near Intan. Sniffing shoulders. I just looked at him confused as to what to answer.

"Please tell Bang Arsyad ma'am. Intan misses him. Intan just wants to live with her, please ma'am" Intan cried in Aunt Diana's arms.

I just sat there, confused. My heart really hurts seeing Intan helpless, she really knows who I am. She was the only one who knew me deeper, even deeper than my mother. Should I confess the truth now, should I admit that I am Arshad. But I was confused where to start. I also thought about what would happen if I admitted now. About Arsyaf's feelings, mother's feelings.

"Hemm aunt, Arsyaf is confused why Intan keeps thinking like that? We all know that Bang Arsyad is still missing his memory, which is why he can't be what he was. But why was it that I thought that Arsyad, I just came here a month ago with my dad, came here to see you guys, with my mom, with my brother"

"You're right son, auntie also had time to think like that, you just came, you also came with your father, it can be used as evidence that you are not Arsyad. But there's one question from aunt. You know what Arsyad did before he lost his memory?"

"A military soldier, TNI AD" I replied.

I looked down, wanting to refute Aunt Diana's words, but for free, it would only pile up the lies I had made.

"Tante I'm ready to go home" I said, after being completely dead-end having to answer what.

"Look mom, Bang Arsyad changed, he's evil" Intan kept crying in his mother's arms. And keep calling me by my own name.

"I'll explain everything, but not now, I promise, wait until I bring my father and mother together, but whatever the truth is, you're still a wife, nothing will change, and a good wife should not expect anyone else. And one more thing, please keep all of this a secret from my mother, at least until I reach my goal of uniting them, I promise only until then"

After I said that, I immediately went home, walked quickly, left the house of Aunt Diana, leaving behind Intan who was getting louder. I even forgot to kiss Aunt Diana's hand before coming out. My heart hurts, my body shakes, the road to the house that only a few minutes feels like hours are not up. My brain keeps thinking, what should I do? What am I supposed to do? What am I supposed to do?. Keep it that way until you get home.

"Arsyaf, what's wrong? Are you sick?"

I looked at my mother, then ran small towards her, hugged her body tightly, crying like a child on her shoulders. I didn't answer, nor did I say anything.

That night, I slept on my lap, mother refused, let me sleep, stroked my hair like a baby, no longer asking why I was like this. That day was the scariest day for me.

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