Mommy Sugar

46. Last hug

Somehow Nadira felt the atmosphere turned strange when he was with Juan and there was Jefri in the middle of them. Juan who is usually spoiled and noisy becomes quiet and will only talk when Nadira invites him to talk.

Nadira felt like she was between a lover and an affair because of these two men.

"You forgot my bales chat huh?" Nadira looked at Jefri as the man asked her. Ah, yes last night Nadira did not reply to a message from Jefri. "or, you do not want to meet me?"

Nadira glanced at Juan, looking at the man who was busy eating pancakes before answering.

"I overslept." Nadira looked back at Jefri. "why do you want to see me?" nadira is not his name if he cannot handle a situation like this. Especially about Jefri.

"I just want to squirm you." Juan grieved in silence hearing Jefri's confession. Juan doesn't understand why Jefri can talk to Nadira like that when Jefri gets engaged.

Juan would understand, if Jefri would not be engaged to another woman. Juan knew Jefri was forced, but a real man would firmly refuse.

Jefri can speak well to his parents if indeed Jefri loves Nadira, Juan thought. Because if it's like this, Jefri will hurt the feelings of two women in his life.

Jefri will hurt the woman who will be his wife if he can not release Nadira, and Nadira can be viewed badly because of it.

"Just want to squirm me? there-there's!" Nadira laughed and silently stared at Juan.

"Yes, I want to squirm at you." Jefri. Jefri did not laugh at all seeing Nadira laughing because he realized Nadira just kept glancing at Juan. "because last we met you hurt, I want you to be okay now."

"I'm fine anyway, it's just a small wound."

"I miss you too, Ra." said Jefri slowly. Make Juan stomp the fork over the plate. "I'm going to the bathroom for a minute."

Nadira shuddered at Juan's voice that turned heavy. Obviously the young man was upset.

"You guys dating?" jefri asked realizing Juan disliked his presence which seemed to be a bully. "So you don't like me coming here, I'm bothering you two?"

"Juan, it's not like that." Nadira defended Juan. "maybe he's just dizzy thinking about duty."

"Do you like Juan?" tanya Jefri felt Nadira always defended Juan, even Nadira to the point of being injured also for protecting Juan.

"Hm. Juan's funny, right? juan's attitude is sweet too."

"It seems like not just like it, you've fallen in love with her huh?!" not a question, but a statement. Nadira to praise Juan, it means Nadira does love him.

Nadira almost never praised anyone other than Bryan before. Everyone close to Nadira knows that getting compliments from him is difficult because Nadira is very rigid.

"I lost to the same person who has not been in your life for long." Jefri looked at Nadira with his own eyes. And made Nadira feel guilty already praising the other man in front of Jefri.

"Sorry..."

Jefri shook his head. "you're not wrong, Ra. You deserve love from everyone, including Juan."

"I'm not saying love is Juan." Elak Nadira.

"You didn't say it but your eyes showed it, Ra. You can't lie about how you feel."

"Jef-j"

"Before I came to see Naren, he said maybe Juan could heal your trauma."

"What are you talking about?" Nadira tries not to cry as Jefri offends her trauma. Nadira was not traumatized or anything. Jefri misunderstood him.

"At first I thought they were all stupid, but now I realize the person who harbors their feelings is the most sincere person."

"I swear, I don't know what you're talking about."

"And Naren is one of those sincere people, Naren is sincere about you." Jefri continued his sentence in his heart. "i'm not happy to have revealed my feelings, I feel sorry because I can't be as sincere as Naren and even selfish."

"He needs someone who can heal his trauma." Jefri shed tears as she recalled what Naren told her.

"If you can't let go of Dira, Dira also won't be able to fully like people because Dira will think of your feelings Jef."

During this time, Jefri always thought Nadira could not repay his feelings but was afraid to admit his feelings because of his trauma.

Jefri tells Nadira about the matchmaking in hopes that Nadira will begin to realize her feelings. But it turns out Jefri's guess was wrong.

"May I ask you something?" Jefri looked into the watery eyes of Nadira, "I want you to hug me one last time, before I'm engaged to Rose."

Nadira did not answer. But Nadira moved from her seat and approached Jefri. Tears spilled as Nadira hugged Jefri from behind. Nadira loves Jefri, but the feeling is nothing more than a friend.

"Dira, what's wrong with you? why can I believe it?"

"Father me, Jef. He made me like this."

"It hurts, but it hurts more here. My heart hurts, Jef."

Jefri closed his eyes, recalling the moment Nadira cried with a face covered in wounds. His heart ached to see Nadira hurt, and it hurt even more to hear Nadira say that.

"I used to always boast about my papah in front of my schoolmates, because I thought only papah loved me while mamah only loved Raihan. But I was wrong, no one loved me."

"I'm the same Naren love you Ra."

"Mother dear to you. I am ordinary. But if you want, I can love you too. But as a friend."

Jefri wiped away her tears. Naren was a prestige from the past, when in fact Naren really cares and loves Nadira. In fact, Naren can be a doctor too because of Nadira.

Actually, making Nadira feel loved is enough. Jefri shouldn't expect to get a reply. Because a woman like Nadira will find it hard to love someone else.

Never mind loving others, loving yourself is hard for Nadira. Nadira may look normal, eat well, wear good clothes, but others do not know that Nadira often tries to hurt him.

"I've been helping people on the road, I thought I'd die after that, but I'm alive."

Jefri sobbing. Given how desperate Nadira was to expect herself to die. And it made Jefri's heart feel sick.

"I'm sorry if my feelings are weighing on you."

"I'm sorry, I haven't been able to bales your feelings."

After that, there was no more conversation between them. Jefri just quietly enjoyed Nadira's last hug. "i'll let you go, but you have to promise not to get hurt."

"May you be happy with the woman of your choice. I love you, Jefri."

Not everyone who loves each other is destined to live together, as well as Jefri and Nadira. Because the creator knows better what should happen.