Mommy Sugar

41. Pain, hurt and hurt

Juan, who was usually noisy when Nadira was not in the room that night, looked calm, even though Nadira had been in the room for more than an hour. In fact, Juan did not try to find Nadira and just remained silent in the room.

Juan was contemplating his mistake. He felt guilty for yelling at Nadira. All his life, it was the first time Juan yelled at someone else and that person was the woman Juan loved so much.

Ah, naw. Juan once yelled at his mom when he was a child and his mom said yelling at someone was bad. Since then Juan has never yelled at anyone, anyone.

Rosa educated her children very well. Although not all of her children can hear her advice, Rosa has carried out her duties as a good mother.

Juan the child who managed to be educated, different from his two brothers who failed to be educated. Rosa does not distinguish in terms of educating children, all that distinguishes is how her child accommodates every advice and upbringing.

"You can hurt other people's feelings if you yell like this, don't repeat again okay?"

Juan remembered his mother's words as a child, so Juan felt guilty at this time. Juan knows Nadira doesn't mind him, but he still can't stop feeling guilty.

Juan used to cry because he screamed and hurt his feelings. But Juan can't do that now. Juan couldn't possibly cry in front of his woman.

"Juan, let's eat." Juan turned to Nadira who seemed bothered to bring a lot of snacks. With sprightly Juan helped bring Nadira snacks and put them on the table.

Nadira likes snacks and never about to buy snacks, he said there is Juan who will spend it. And of course Juan just resigned. Juan would not refuse Nadira.

"Aren't you buying online?" juan asked because Juan did not hear the sound of the car coming out.

"So. Brother bought out." replied Nadira.

"When? daritadi I don't hear the car."

"Yes, I'm using a motorbike." Nadira opened all his snacks on the table and spoke without seeing his interlocutor. Though Juan continues to look at Nadira who is busy with snacks. "brother naek motor? can you?"

"I mean, I just found out you can't get a bike." Juan corrected his words. I didn't want his words to offend Nadira.

Nadira looked at Juan and chuckled, "you never see brother naek motor."

Nadira looked confused as Juan just kept silent while looking at her. Nadira has realized there is something different from Juan since they came home from the cafe. And now Juan is getting different. "why? you think of something again?"

Juan nodded briefly. "yes, I can't stop thinking about you" replied Juan soberly.

"Why do you think big brother, huh?" nadira's forehead wrinkled. "oh, you want a big brother gombalin?"

Juan stared at the older intensely, this woman instead thought Juan was intent on replacing her.

"Sorry ..."

"I'm sorry I yelled at my brother" Juan said, "I can't calm down before Mastiin if I don't hurt my sister."

The food that Nadira would put in his mouth was put back because he heard Juan say. "how many times have you apologized huh? brother told me not to think."

"But I can't stop thinking, brother. Brother maybe - no, I must have made my sister hurt. I can't squirm my wounds in my brother's heart, so I can't stop thinking about this, brother."

Nadira sighed. "the wound in the heart of my brother can not be seen, but my brother has said gapapa. Why do you have to keep thinking about that?"

"Thank you for thinking about your brother's feelings, but you also don't have to torture your own. Everyone will make mistakes and that's not a big deal, Juan."

Juan and Nadira stared at each other, without talking to each other for a while until one of them spoke softly again.

"The human lives between being sick, hurting and hurting, and you get into the person who hurts yourself. And hurting yourself is not good, so you have to stop."

"I just want Mastiin brother Dira not hurt because of me. Not to hurt yourself."

"People whose lives do not want to hurt others, usually will not realize anymore hurt themselves." Nadira rubbed the back of Juan's hand. "don't think so, you'll get hurt."

Juan was speechless, the young man hugged Nadira and drowned the face between the intersection of Nadira's nape and neck.

"I don't understand what you're talking about, why is it so hard to digest?"

Juan understood, understood. Juan just pretended not to understand so that they did not drag on in that serious chat.

And Juan is now thinking whether Nadira used to belong to that group of people? people who do not want to hurt others, but hurt themselves. Or is Nadira still like that to this day? Juan doesn't know the answer either.

Nadira chuckles and replies to Juan's embrace. "well, don't think about it. Come on, eat."

"Yes, just a minute." Juan smelled Nadira's body scent that he liked so much. "eoh? brother changing perfume? smell different brother now."

"Not really, not even wearing perfume now."

"Seriously, brother?" Juan sniffed the scent of Nadira's body to make sure the woman's scent was different than usual. "but brother scented loh."

"Hm, maybe the smell of big brother's bath soap."

"Sister change the bath soap?" Juan just kept sniffing Nadira's body scent. Others may feel a strange sensation, but Nadira was mediocre when Juan was like that.