MENTALLY

MINDSET AND HEART

"Tomorrow papa, Radit, and Bima will go there, Ma'am!" mak Muhtar said when video calling his daughter after dinner with a client, even he was still in the car. Communication with Bu Puguh and Doctor Ibram was still intertwined.

"By, Pa. But only three, mama?"

"Would you like to see Mama?" asked Mr. Muhtar, he did not want to discuss the wife if Almira did not fish first. Worry hysterically or come back sad. According to doctors Ibram and Bu Puguh, Almira could not control his emotions when he remembered the chronology of his depression.

Almira paused for a moment and shook her head, "Still not ready, Pa!"

"Well, if you're not ready to meet. What do you want to bring? the pudding is Mbok mango?"

Almira just nodded, in her heart desperately wanting to meet her mother, she missed. "Mbak, dengerin papa huh. Ma'am Al, dear dear boy papa. Don't ever be afraid to say something, come on...Mama wants to heal. Be honest with papa!" persuade Mr. Muhtar so that the child is more free to express his feelings.

"Almira misses the house," still covers the longing for mom.

"Aren't you at home living in a cottage?"

"At home, Pa. It's comfortable here."

"Oh, huh? what if Almira did today?" always Mr. Muhtar asked Almira daily according to the advice of doctor Ibram. The most appropriate method to restore the mental state of Almira is to invite communication about anything, so that Almira is more open and willing to share her grievances and happiness.

"Almira today plays volleyball, washing clothes continues writing."

"Oh now penetrating the world of authorship, nulis what?"

"Write mathematical formulas."

Mr. Muhtar laughed, the shadow of Mr. Muhtar Almira writing short stories or poetry, in fact he did write mathematical formulas.

"Almira likes math, Pa. Almira helps Hilda, the son of the class XII cabin," said Almira. For schools, cottage children are indeed public schools near the cottage, there are elementary schools such as Lila, Junior High School such as Denok, Arga, and Mei, while High School there is Hilda and from the son's cottage.

"Then?"

"Almira's a tutor, Pa," he's proud. But the next second he bowed lethargic, "May their answer be right, Pa. The tutor is crazy."

Mr. Muhtar sighed heavily, "Let's not think like that, you healthy baby."

"Pa....Almira's scared, Pa. If Al's crazy, who's with Almira?" almira's tears fell down. Even as he pleased, until this moment no one knows the psychiatric condition of Almira except Bu Puguh.

"Want to heal? what do you say to Ms Puguh to let Almira heal?" asked Mr. Muhtar, as much as possible he should be tough to face Almira, not to be weak or sad. He must be strong and patient to support Almira's recovery.

Isk...isk. Indeed, the condition of Almira is still not stable, whatever the moment will be associated with mental disorders. This is what makes the development of Almira still stagnant.

"Beautiful papa's son, the strong one, don't cry dong."

"Yes.iya, Al didn't cry."

"Tomorrow papa look at you, yes. We go for a walk, refreshing let's not stay in the cottage."

Shortly after the video call connection was cut off, Almira was back to crying herself, discouraged by her mental state. His subconscious has always emphasized that he can be healed. Many people loved. It is bad to think that they were thrown away.

You can, Al. The good side of his subconscious is encouraging.

But people will say I'm a crazy ex. This time the evil side of his subconscious is on. Often Almira experienced an inner war in her mind. On the one hand he wants to heal, but he also thinks about the response of others if he knows he has been admitted to a mental hospital and is depressed.

"Al," called someone outside Almira's room while knocking on the door. Only then did Almira raise her head and immediately wipe away her tears. He realized it was the voice of Bu Puguh who must have received a report from papa.

"Yes, Budhe?" almira asked with a smile looking at the middle-aged woman in front of her.

Almira nodded, letting Doctor Ibram's mother into her room. Minimalist room consisting of only a bed, closet, and a mini dresser. Bu Puguh sat on the edge of the bed, he told Almira to sit next to him then.

"Budhe must have been told to check on Almira?" guess Almira who was immediately taken by the owner of this cottage.

"You want a story?" todong Bu Puguh to the point. From the beginning Almira came and slept with him, already suggesting that it be open. Whatever it is, living in this cottage is expected every student gets comfort, not even hesitating to tell a story of personal problems.

"There's really nothing to tell, Budhe. It was just that Almira was tired of suddenly feeling inferior. Almira was too afraid to get scorn from the people alin that Al was crazy."

Bu Puguh patiently stroked Almira's hair, staring at the delirious students who had this mental disorder. "Have you done what Budhe suggested?" tanya Bu Puguh who a few days ago gave the option to Almira to calm down, such as writing her complaint on the diary.

Almira nodded, "Already, Budhe."

"What do you feel after writing?"

"Plong anyway, just that when dealing with other people or after doing something, Almira was worried about the response of others maybe even insulting Almira."

"Who is that guy?"

Almira fell silent and soon raised her shoulders. "Your family is very dear to you, mom and dad you keep your condition secret from anyone. Even your extended family might not know."

Almira nodded, "She's just Widya's aunt who knows my condition."

"Your college friends also no one knows your current condition," said Bu Puguh kalem and Almira nodded back.

"Almira did not have close friends in the past, naturally they did not know Budhe."

"Well, then no one will know you're going through this. From the beginning Budhe disagreed with Ibram, you didn't get sick just need people and a comfortable environment."

"Almira is not comfortable with Almira budhe's life, because Almira lives according to the direction of her mother. Almira was very afraid of my mother."

Bu Puguh had indeed heard the history of Almira's depression from doctor Ibram, that the mother was the cause of his depression Almira.

"Why don't you express what you want?"

"Because Al's afraid mama's mad."

"Your mom is angry?"

"Either."

"Anged at you directly?"

Almira shook her head, "To teacher BK Al during High School. Mama actually never gets angry or yells just that mama always forbids and this and that."

Bu Puguh nodded, "You mean you haven't been in contact with your mama?"

Almira.

"Contact with polite sentences, so that what is in your heart and desires are conveyed, business is accepted or not that later is important you have tried to take off the burden on your heart."

Almira fell silent. Indeed, all this time he only accepted without daring to fight or protest like his two younger siblings.

"Because actually any disease starts from a narrow heart and mindset," said Bu Puguh sage.