Meeting Point

it's okay to not be okay

Bella arrives exactly an hour after Aretha informs her of her whereabouts. With his car, he came alone with a face full of worry. "You're okay, right?" Ask after getting out of the car.

"I'm fine" replied Aretha.

Compared to bombarding Aretha with various questions, Bella actually hugged Aretha's body tightly "it's okay Tha. It's okay to not be okay. Acting okay doesn't mean you're okay. No papa, Tha. No papa if you want to be selfish, the important thing is that you can be happy" said Bella while rubbing Aretha's back slowly.

In Bella's close embrace, Aretha again shed her tears and returned to sobbing. No comment came out of Bella's mouth, in her silence, Bella rubbed Aretha's back slowly.

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"That's great, yeah" Bella commented about the lake in front of her at this time.

"Azka the nemuin. Thanks Bel, thanks for coming. You may be busy"

Bella smiled at Aretha's words "I'm not busy with Tha, I was going to take Sisil and Jovan. But I think you need some space, so I'm not going to take them and come alone"

Although Bella is a person who likes to gossip and is very up to date about the rumors that are warm. But as a friend, he kept every secret from his friends. He is also the one who will not force others to tell stories, if that person does not want to tell stories. Anyway, he's a really reliable friend. Very rare and even rare friends.

"You don't want that? The reason why I felt tired and the reason I cried earlier?" Ask Aretha.

There was a sound of Bella's breath, before she finally said "actually I've guessed the reason why you feel tired and cry like that" he said.

"Because what?" Aretha asked as she stared straight at the lake.

"Azka and your family, right?" The answer is a little doubtful.

"Do you know who Bel is?"

For a moment, Aretha was silent as she stared at the reflection of the moon on the lake. Quite surprised by Bella's explanation just now. With his trademark smile, he looked at his best friend was clingy "is that close you are the same Azka?" Ask teasingly.

Bella smiled awkwardly at the question from her best friend that "not Tha, only limited to people who are in love and people who refuse. I told you the same time, right? If I'm gonna help Azka make it better with you, and she'll kill me no matter what I want"

Aretha nodded her head in agreement.

"At that time,, I did ask for a walk with him, but I also had other requests. That she should be honest with me about your relationship as well as her what it really is. Because,,, to be called friends, your relationship is too far apart. And he said that you have a brother-sister relationship with blood, because Azka is free to hold your hand or hug you" said Bella explained at length.

"Is that all you know about Bel?" Aretha asked and Bella nodded her head.

"My relationship with Azka has been established since we were children. When I was devastated by my parents' divorce, when I got violence from my stepmother. When my father and stepmother and brother Rama decided to go simultaneously. At that time, I really hit Bel. Living alone in a house that has so many wounds, I tried several times to end my own life. Back then, if Azka hadn't been by my side and hadn't failed my suicide attempt, I might have been gone by now"

The explanation that Aretha had just uttered, certainly made Bella surprised. It turned out that behind his beautiful smile, behind his loud laughter, stored bitter memories that were so heartbreaking. With a definite movement, Bella grabbed Aretha's body to get into her arms. Although Bella realized that her embrace was not able to make Aretha forget all the bitter memories. Although Bella is aware that what has happened will not be changed. However, Bella only wants Aretha to know if she will always be there beside Aretha, as a friend she will always be a support system for Aretha. Whenever Aretha needed, Bella would always be there and help her.

"Sometimes I like to think that if Azka hadn't helped me then, I might have been gone by now. Perhaps, the expressions of apology made by my biological parents, my father and brother Rama, I will never hear. I'm tired of Bel, I don't know what else to do, I want to forgive them and open up again like before, but it's hard Bel. It's hard to accept the fact that the father I've always considered my own father isn't my real father"

Bella was silent for a long time, not knowing what kind of support to calm her best friend. "It's okay Tha, it's okay. You can cry as much. Tha, don't lie to yourself. You can be selfish and think of yourself. If you feel happy thinking of Bani's father as your real father, then do it Tha. I beg Tha, I beg you to survive, yah tha? You have to live anyway" Bella said as she rubbed Aretha's back vibrating violently.

In fact, the house that Aretha dreamed of for a long time is, the house in which there is a mother, father and brother Rama. Unfortunately, this time the house will never be reunited. One by one they had their own home. Only Aretha was left behind in her old home, dreaming her home would return in color.

Aretha's memory was left behind in her childhood, the memory in which so many beautiful memories were stored. Until the universe pulls him to realize that, the good memories are not his. He has to get back in his position, the position he should be in. However, if returning to his position made him lose his life and identity, should he occupy a position that took his own life?

Like rain falling on the earth, the girl had no preparation whatsoever to be in her current state. Her dream was so simple, living happily with her complete family. However, his dream was too expensive to come true. Because of the happiness of the mother, and her father is not on the completeness of the family. They, having their own happiness, have no brother Rama nor Aretha in them.