me and this feeling
PROLOGUES
I was named Mia Anggreni usually called Mia by my friends on campus, studying at the nursing campus that made my passion in the future. Initially following what my parents said, there was no coercion or threat. Precisely until this moment I began to get used to and even liked this field that was once my wish to become an architect, he said, not that I like mathematics but that's because I really like the world of drawing pictures.But only my imagination, want and not always will be achieved. I'm just an ordinary student in the sense that neither rich nor poor, neither smart nor stupid nor not beautiful nor ugly, all can still be said to be standard people. I can say I don't talk to people that I don't know how they are. Behind that, I was very chatty and jolly to my best friend not because I was a voter but the sense of comfort made me act as freely as I wanted and know them for quite a long time. It's just comfort and the length of time I've known them. A lot of laughter is always imprinted in every day, this is inseparable from the ignorance and ugliness of my friends who are not bored by them.
Friendship is very close but not good in my relationship, maybe this is called the balance of the universe. There are those who groan and will stretch. When I meet you a love grows with a drop of affection. At first everything was perfectly fine but gradually more and more temptation was lived until my love had to hum into the arms of others. The sense of dilemma increasingly haunts my feelings, I used to only know him as a family relationship. Greeting as necessary and smiling only as briefly as but, his embrace made me entangled in romance by him. Can't afford to be forgotten let alone left out of nowhere my feelings are? A love divided by two bodies and fighting for each other. A confusion caught my mind.
"forget the old man and seek him who drowns you in the sea of his love" said the devil.
"don't you have to hang with the person who has changed you up to this, don't want to be defeated by a new feeling you don't know he will want to fight for you. Not Mia!" the goddess's orders
Enough, everything is enough. I'm really fed up with this constant rush to get out of this prison world dilemma. Along with a lot of conflicts that attack me, a fight that occurs in my friendship because it is only love, no other romance because only love again and many more that I can not count how many. My mind seemed to want to explode, this heart was broken into pieces just a tightness in the chest that filled the air of my dagger. My tears are not tired of flowing happily through the indentation of my cheeks, rattled with regret why is this all happening?. If I could turn the clock around then I'd fix everything so this kind of thing doesn't happen. At that point where I was cornered. Lonely and empty yet endless. Looking at the mirror, there was a picture of me not smiling. Where was the old me? Who is the soul in my body? What is the purpose of living on this earth? Whahuh?
No more jokes from my best friend, especially as true as love in my love relationship. Everything was shattered like a broken glass that could not be as good as it was at first. Darting away from sadness, an idea came to light. The decision? that's the way out. Their love triangle will end, a belief that now believes that everything will be fine as before. Me and my best friend will improve, because they hold on to a friendship rather than the love of someone who does not know he will be able to be with you forever. Unexpectedly one of the two people, only one person came back to see me and embrace me again in a good direction despite the many mistakes I have made but, it did not confine his intention to move away and turn with the others. Instead, he docked in the pleasant dock and rebuilt the love that had been destroyed.
Because this is me and this feeling with time that continues to spin non-stop without orders or orders from anyone. Everything will happen no matter what you know let alone ask for it, suddenly come over regardless of who and where.
