Me And My Dark Time

17. Restarting Back ?

The next day at the Meidinah campus accidentally cross paths with Rian.

Suddenly Rian withdraws Meidinah's hand, Meidinah suddenly threw Rian's hand.

Rian was surprised to see Meidinah's reaction, then he remembered Meidinah's attitude on graduation day that refused to shake hands with her.

"Meidinah" call Rian.

Meidinah tried to ignore him and chose to leave Rian.

"Meidinah wait, I want to talk May, please listen to me" said Rian.

Meidinah stopped her steps.

"What do you say ?" ask Meidinah.

"Let's go to our cafe"

"Can't it be here ?"ask Meidinah flatly.

"No May, I want to explain everything to you, so we go to the cafe" Rian asked.

Meidinah sighed, she nodded, and followed Rian.

"Retail my car" asked Rian.

"No, we ride each other's cars" Meidinah replied.

Rian nodded, and he understood the reason.

At the cafe, they ordered drinks. They sat in Meidinah's favorite spot, near a glass wall overlooking the garden at the cafe.

Meidinah was silent for a moment, her memories recalling all her memories with Rian, it made her chest feel tight.

"May, I want to explain everything to you" said Rian, because there was no response from Meidinah Rian continued his speech.

"May, I'm really sorry for what I did to you, I'm sorry Mei, I don't know if it turns out I was framed all this time May" Rian said softly. Meidinah was silent. "I want us to repeat again from the beginning of May, we start again our relationship from the beginning, I want us to be like the old me again" Rian sighed.

"Did you say?, we start again from the beginning ?" Meidinah looks like a smile, "you think my heart is SPBU, starting from zero?, you think my heart is a playground that you can come and go as you please?, you think ?, you think I'm your toy, which if you're bored you throw it away, then when you've been bosen the same new toy, you play again, that's it ?" meidinah replied firmly, she tried to hold back her tears from falling.

Rian was silent, the words Meidinah spoke felt like a pain in the iris of his heart.

"May, I really do not intend to leave you alone and hurt Mei, I also do not know why it could be this way" said Rian guiltily.

Meidinah took a breath she tried to hold back her tears.

"You never think, how heavy the day I live, when you leave me so, without explanation, without me knowing where my fault lies, without you asking me, without you asking me, you go like that, as if I never existed in your life" Meidinah's tears can hardly be contained anymore.

Rian who saw Meidinah's glassy eyes, the more guilt and regret, he was really sorry, he was really sorry, why could he die a woman like Meidinah just for the sake of a woman that even Meidinah could not compare to.

"May, sorry, sorry to disappoint you, but I really have no intention of Mei" Rian said.

"It's too late Yan, you should have thought about the consequences before you brought him into our relationship" her tears escaped. His chest felt tight when he remembered all that, let alone considering who the woman was, it felt like someone stabbed his heart mercilessly.

Rian's tears just fell down, he was really filled with regret.

"May., don't be like this, sorry, I'm really sorry Mei, I promise I won't repeat it again, I promise Mei"

"You do not want, how many times have you promised not to repeat it again?, but in fact what Yan, you continue to repeat it, and this time really can not be tolerated Yan".

"Let me have one more chance May, I promise I'll fix it all".

Meidinah smiled, "you forgot yesterday was your last chance?, YOU FORGOT ?" ask Meidinah with great emphasis.

Rian took a deep breath.

Yesterday was his last chance, and he had wasted it. He cursed himself in his heart.

Meidinah immediately left the cafe. Rian remained silent and continued to stare at Meidinah's departure.

Meidinah cried broke upon arrival in the car, she really felt crowded when she remembered all that Rian had done to her. Especially considering all the things they had done together, it felt like his chest was about to explode, his heart ached. Meidinah's cry grew, her tears did not stop dripping, considering how she struggled to get through it all. Especially considering his crying father.

The Flashback

Wijaya was really worried about his daughter's condition.

Tok tok tok tok

Wijaya knocked on the door of his daughter's room, there was no answer. Wijaya sighed, she decided to open the door of her daughter's room with a spare key, because her daughter had been locked in the room for a week, eating also not least to campus.

Ceklek, the sound of the door opening, Meidinah did not hear it, because she kept daydreaming staring out the window.

Wijaya was very sad to see her daughter like that. Moreover, seeing his daughter's condition was really sad, his room was also filled with an aura of sadness.

"Honey, why don't you eat, you shouldn't be like this, son" said Wijaya.

Meidinah did not respond in the slightest. "do you know dear, a father's happiness is to see his daughter happy, and vice versa, which father's heart does not hurt to see his daughter like this" unknowingly, Wijaya's tears ran down.

Meidinah broke tears seeing her papa cry, she immediately hugged her papa and cried as if so in her papa's arms.

"You know son, a father says is his daughter's first love, do you know son?, papa's heart hurts so much to know there's another man his daughter loves, papa's heart does not accept that a child who grows up lovingly and affectionately, falling in love with another man, it's all enough to make papa's heart not accept". Wijaya took a deep breath," especially now dear, no father can see his daughter destroyed by a man. What right does he have over your daughter, why does she have this kind of heart to you, who is he who can break your heart like this. You love papa don't you want?, stop crying over her baby, papa is very sick to see you cry over a man like this, papa who raised and took care of you son, papa, papa made you like a king's daughter, taking care of you to be this beautiful woman, not to be hurt". Wijaya stopped her speech, because her chest felt very tight. Her heart was broken seeing her daughter lose her direction like this.

Meidinah thought about her papa words, papa's right, I shouldn't be like this, I can't make papa sad, I can't keep going like this, who I have to cry like this, he murmured in the heart.

"I'm sorry Meidinah pa, I shouldn't cry for her, I'm sorry that Meidinah has hurt my father, Mei promises it won't be like this anymore" Meidinah said in between tears.

"Please promise me that love will never cry for another man except your father and husband"

"Yes pa Meidinah promise"

Wijaya smiled, she kissed her daughter's forehead, "eat baby, don't torture yourself like this, you have to show her and the world that you're okay without her"

Meidinah nodded. Wijaya also invited his daughter to eat.

From then on Meidinah promised herself that she would never cry for another man, except for her father and husband.

Flashback Off

Meidinah was still crying in her car, until a parking attendant approached her, she immediately stopped her crying.

Tok tok tok tok

The sound of Meidinah's car glass is being shoved

Meidinah immediately lowered her car glass.

"Neng what's up, right ?" ask the parking attendant.

"No sir, I'm not doing anything" Meidinah replied.

The carpenter just looked at Meidinah in disbelief.

"Eneng mah geulis kok cerik, kanke lost geulisna" said the parking attendant.

Meidinah also laughed at the words said by the parakeet.

Meidinah also gave a hundred thousand money to the parking lot.

"Gede very this money neng, no change this mah"

"Jaudah for the change" Meidinah smiled and drove off in her car.

The carpenter still could not believe the money he was holding.

"Eleh eleh si eneng, engges geulis pisan, well" said the parking attendant, when Meidinah had left the cafe.

 

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