Me And My Dark Time

14.Fariz's Regret

Fariz took Meidinah to their cafe. Because in addition to a good place the food in the cafe is also delicious.

They sat at a table close to a glass wall facing directly into the garden, which was the cafe's favorite seat.

Food and drinks were served on the table, but Fariz had ordered them first.

"How do you know my favorite drink?" ask Meidinah.

Fariz smiled, I even know all the things you like and dislike, Fariz murmured in his heart. "You forgot we used to hang out together, and you always ordered strawberry smoothies" Fariz replied.

Meidinah nodded and smiled.

Such a beautiful smile in Fariz's eyes.

Oh my God, I could faintly see that smile, Inner Fariz.

"Let's eat in May, mada di sawin mulu" said Fariz. Replied with a nod by Meidinah.

"Emm, Mei, I want to say something to you" Fariz said hesitantly.

"Yaudah said Riz, do not hesitate, we are friends" replied Meidinah.

Fariz's heart felt slashed as soon as he heard the word friend. His face displayed a disappointed expression, but he tried to cover it up.

"May, it's actually me." said Fariz doubtfully, he wasn't sure if he would tell Meidinah or not.

"I what is Riz ?" meidindah asked, actually Meidinah knew what Fariz would say, she would definitely reveal her heart, but Meidinah still acted as if she did not know.

"I've loved you for a long time" Fariz said quickly. Instantly the atmosphere was silent.

Though Meidinah already knew about Fariz's feelings but heard his confession directly, it turned out to be much stranger.

"Emm, you don't have to answer me now" Fariz said.

"Since when?, since when did you save the flavor to me ?" ask Meidinah.

"Since we first met May" Fariz replied.

"Time OSEK dong ?" ask Meidinah.

"Yes, more precisely the OSEK slesai" Fariz replied.

Meidinah took a long breath.

"Honestly I am not at all surprised by the expression of your feelings to me Riz, instead I was disappointed." said Meidinah.

Fariz was confused, why should Meidinah be disappointed, "why are you disappointed Mei?, is it because I like my best friend's lover ?" ask Fariz.

"No, I don't mind your liking Riz, because we can't control our heart over who we're going to fall in love with, it's God who fosters joy in the heart of every human Riz, Meidinah took a deep breath, "I'm disappointed with your attitude" Meidinah continued.

"Why with my attitude Mei ?" ask Fariz wonder.

"Try asking yourself who Rasya is!" meidinah.

Fariz was surprised to hear how Meidinah knew about Rasya.

"You must be wondering where I know about Rasya, I saw it for myself Riz, and I also know it was you who broke my relationship with Rian, I'm really disappointed in you Riz" said Meidinah Lirih.

Fariz was speechless, he was unable to say what else.

"I assume you're Riz's friend, but I don't think that you can do this much with me, especially with Rian, he's your friend Riz, why are you doing all this ?"say Meidinah with great emphasis in every word.

"I did it because...." Fariz had not had time to finish his words, Meidinah immediately refuted it," because of love?, yes?, you know Riz even for whatever reason you did it was still wrong, you not only hurt Rian, you not only hurt Rian, but also me" Meidinah's tears could not be dammed.

Fariz was really guilty of seeing the woman he loved crying, he was sorry, why he didn't think so far, that not only was Rian hurt but Meidinah too, she said, he cursed himself in his heart.

"Do you know Riz, how ruined I was after Rian sentusin me?, do you know how I tried to stay strong in front of people ?, do you know what kind of day I went through to get to today ?" meidinah's tears increasingly flooded her eyes and divided her cheeks, her chest really tight when considering challenging it again.

Fariz was silent, he was really sorry to make Meidinah this way, even to say sorry he could not, his throat was dry to see Meidinah like this, his heart also hurt.

"Maaaaf Mei, I'm really sorry, I'm stupid not to think about your feelings, I'm sorry Mei, I'm also sick to see you like this" Fariz said softly and regretfully.

"There is nothing to forgive Riz, all the will of God, everything that happens with the permission of God, I accept all this with the air of Riz, Riz, since I know there must be some hikamh behind all these events, surely God has prepared something beautiful after this, so there is nothing wrong and there is no need to blame in this, if anything goes wrong, it's definitely myself Riz, because I give others the opportunity to disappoint me" Meidinah explained, smiling.

Fariz felt claustrophobic looking at that smile, a smile filled with wounds. Fariz was swept away in his own mind hearing Meidinah's words, what kind of woman you are Meidinah, so big your heart accepted all this, what your heart is made of Meidinah, Meidinah, what you are, you are able to cover up all the turbulent flavors in your heart. Fariz really felt guilty, he was sorry, he did not expect that Meidinah who had looked good all along, it turned out that her heart was very fragile, but she was able to cover everything with her smile.

"May, I'm really sorry, I'm sorry Mei, I don't think so far, I just obey my ego, without thinking about your feelings in the slightest, sorry Mei, sorry" that was all Fariz could say, how else, he who had broken Meidinah's heart, he deeply regretted his actions.

Meidinah smiled sweetly, "there is nothing to forgive, because there will definitely be something beautiful after this" Meidinah said.

Fariz heart felt slashed to see Meidinah's smile, she felt tightness in her chest, without feeling any water escaped from her eyes, Fariz immediately wiped it, she was down, she was down, she was down, he couldn't even see Meidinah's face.

Meidinah was silent, she smiled so remembering the words said Sayyidina Ali.Kata words that became her encouragement when she was really at the lowest position in her heart.

" Be assured, there is something waiting for you after much patience (which you live), which will leave you stunned until you forget how painful the pain is."

– Ali bin Abi Thalib

 

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