MAYBE IT WAS DESTINY

IT DESERVES ME

Tok.dok..

son, are you still inside ?call mom

my head was a little dizzy making me feel heavy waking up my body

son, open the door you still haven't woken up huh ??call mom again

I forced my body to stand up limping, and I opened the door to my room

kreel ..!

you don't papa want your face a little pale ? ask mom worried

don't know ma'am, my head feels dizzy !

mom held me up and laid my body down

he touched my forehead

" it's so hot, you seem to have a fever !

mom left my room in just a few minutes and came back with a bowl of warm water and a small towel, mom wiped my forehead and my forehead

ma'am" did Arfan leave for school ?

just left, what's up ?

ah , no ma'am just want to titip pesenan mas rendy!

you here, sick like this still think about the work "don't think about it, mending now you rest , then mom make porridge ! said mother while covering the blanket on my body

I don't think I'm sick because I'm tired but because I cried all night long hemm was so much, right ..? all night I thought of the words of the mother who asked me to release the fadil, I digested in every mother's words "well of any shape there is no privilege in me this " it occurred to me to let go of it because my confidence was instantly lost when I looked at my face that was clearly displayed in the mirror

I looked at the figure in the mirror to conclude a question in my heart"does this person and face deserve to be loved by a perfect man like you fadil???

tok.cook ..tok..

assalamualaikum ?? call someone from outside

hearing a knock on the door and a call, Lia's mother immediately walked out and opened the door

wa'alaikummsalam, uh nak fadil ! greet her mother Lia smiling kindly as if nothing happened

Is there a mom ? I was just being targeted but it looks like Lia's not selling ma'am, 'em ,

can't sell 'em, he's sick "

Lia's in the room, isn't she,, ? ask fadil nyelonong to go inside without being invited in

walah, young people today ! said Lia's mother shakes her head

vrnth ..!

my bedroom door is open. .

"so fast mom made her porridge ! I said as I turned my face towards the door

I was surprised when I saw the figure of this handsome man who was familiar standing in front of my bedroom door

"you ! I said pushing my eyes

"why is your HP not active ? make me anxious, asked fadil while approaching sitting on my bed

I was confused to answer whether I should be honest or otherwise, my HP color was deliberately turned off so that he could not contact me

I thought if my HP turned off he would get angry and not want to see me because he could not contact but he seems a persistent

"hey , are you silent ? think about what again ?reproves

"emh, think of you again, I said

"your eyes are puffy again, like weeping ,,! he said he looked at me

"ah this yesterday when shower put soap in, so very sad about it I cried hhhe ! say I lied

basic, very careless, calisku inii "he said pinching the two cheeks

suddenly mom came in with a bowl of porridge

"eat first, son, take the medicine ! pinta mom while sitting down meant to feed me

emh, here ma'am let me just ! pinta fadil pulls the bowl of porridge that you are holding

I understand that mom gave it to me

"alright, that's how you stay first, said the mother back out

as much as mother, Fadil immediately feed a spoonful of porridge into my mouth" aaaam ..!!

I looked at the face of my beloved this gentle loving figure was the most beautiful gift of my life, I could not even imagine that she would be owned by another woman

but after I thought and considered last night it felt like I wanted to end this inappropriate relationship

" are you not afraid of being late , is it a little afternoon ?? say

"no, is there still an hour left ? saith

" there's something I want to say, though,

"oh yeah, by the way "

"what a relationship we can aa... ! I hesitated to continue

"what can it be ?

"emh... can we just end it ?

"what, you ngaco ah, I think you should quickly take medicine , ! say fadil while taking the medicine that you have prepared

"no, I'm serious about fadil ! I said I didn't want to call him my man

"no, I don't accept, for whatever reason, you agree with our relationship

"since when have you had such ridiculous thoughts,, ?whether you deserve it or not you are not you who judge but I am, I have the right to judge it and for me" you are not only worthy but very worthy to be my companion forever until death do us part..!? fadil's words instantly filled me with excitement I felt flattered

but I stick to my decision

"no mas, I'm afraid to be a burden in your life, before too far, mending we end now ! I stood up and turned away trying to hold back the tears that were about to fall

"even if you're a parasitic creature that always bothers me, and even if you're a street-shelter I don't care, you'll never be a burden on the contrary without you "my life is burdened ", burdened by a lost love ! said fadil implied sincerity from his words

but mas , try to think "your future is very bright you will become a doctor later , moreover your family people are , rich and respected while I ??? I'm just a piece of dirty dust stuck to your body that will disappear if you clean up "my mouth starts sobbing

just a stupid woman, narrow-minded like you "says fadil rather high

fadil approached me and asked a question again

" now answer me honestly, do you still love me or not ?? if you still love me hug me, but otherwise if you don't want and love me anymore then give me a hard slap in my face then I'll be ready to leave you this very second " he said it surprised my heart

that statement made me fall silent, these thin lips as if tightly closed as if frozen

"i love you, love you forever, but love alone is not enough all need the sacrifice of "my word is ingrained

"answer me Lia !

he said he shook my shoulder

but I remained silent

give me the answer ! he said again it sounded like desperation

cause there's no answer from me

he turned his body towards the door as it disappeared from my sight

slowly these warm tears fell down my cheeks

"could I just let go of her after the million good memories she gave me ?

fadpole ..

fadyl..

I shouted while running after him with regret

fadil, wait !! I said I prevented him from getting into the car

I hugged her body tightly she returned my embrace

"i know, you still love me ! whispered

"yes, even I'm afraid of losing you ! I said full haru

now promise me, whatever the problem whatever the obstacle, or whatever it is promise me to always love me without ever wavering ! he said ter

I promise ! my words nodded

"you know, I can't afford to lose me, but pretentious' sok an want to break up with me ! he said that made me blush

trings.tring.

Fadil's HP reads someone contacted him

" hello, hello,

"woy, where's ! someone shouted from behind his phone

"relax jo do not have to shout all, ?gue no budek ?

lo buruan to campus, lecturers have been waiting for ,

busyet bye,,,gue forgot jo, here I otw ,

fadil turned off the call

what's up ?much

I forgot that at 9 o'clock I had to gather on campus, 'sorry, my lady I went first ,!fadil rushed into the car