Marrying a Real Shadow
20. Love Me Once
Love me just once....
I'm not asking for more. Just once. Let me feel what it's like to be loved and to share my feelings. Though insincere, then you can go at will, leaving me to wake me up as sick as it feels to love.
Anna held her blanket tightly. The room was already empty just as the emptiness that had just gaped up gave a huge space deep in his heart. Pungung and the figure of Meihan as if still standing there looked at him in disgust as well as pity on him.
"At least give me an answer from the curvature of your lips. I don't understand the meaning of that look. Can I misrepresent it? I hope you approve and don't refuse." He slammed his feet kicking around the thick blanket which made him slightly overheated.
Rafah is now in carrying Anna's favorite brown bag.
"It's enough lying here," he explained without even a single glance towards Anna.
"You must be angry with me" said Anna.
Rafah was silent, he walked over and sat facing the window. Outside it is dark only flickering lights give the impression, the city night is full of sparkling lights, wasteful electricity, pollution begins to attack where we breathe comfortably.
"This seems to be what it feels like, it's very empty here, although it's a bit of a relief. It takes courage to reveal it. What we hope for is not explained. My heart was like whining and also scolded me because the feeling I took away from here was not reciprocated even thrown away like nothing," explained Anna while holding her chest that felt empty and injured.
Rafah turned towards him "He was here?" tanyanya.
Anna nodded still holding her chest.
"No need to hope anymore. Our lives are like this, weird, empty, and boring."
Anna was just a mangut-mangut, now she was a little downcast like they repeated Meihan's rejection incident earlier. Although not a rejection but Meihan's reaction made him give up.
"I promise Anna, I will help you get out of here, happy without burden nor need to worry about the responsibility that is given to you" said Rafah.
"I'm yours?" Anna hummed blankly and threw away her bitter smile "Or whoever she is will be mine, I don't care anymore."
***
The weather is a little wet and cold. The roar of the wind charged forth mercilessly. Anna fixed her wind-torn hair irresponsibly. It might rain soon. He leisurely walked into the grounds of the magnificent mansion with the characteristic winged statue that let out tears from his eyes.
"You still crying?" ask him inwardly while staring at the statue. Anna used to always ask why the sculptor made a channel so that water always flowed from her eye patch. It was as if making the statue continue to cry throughout the season was never stopping. That's the reason Anna calls the statue, the statue cries. The weeping statue that first welcomed her came to the house, as if it had signaled her and signaled there was no happiness there.
Once again the wind came rushing at him, resuscitating him to the daydream that had stopped him to stare at the iconic white statue that adorned his home. He turned around and stepped slowly on the path not too far from the door.
The house always has many visitors. Three days from now, the wedding will be held. So many people, his house is like a night market that coincides with Sunday night.
The alternating wedding properties come littering the vast courtyards of their homes. Anna kept walking while tidying her hair. He himself, walking while carrying his beloved brown bag. Rafah didn't drive him. She chose to treat her heartache in her secret apartment. He was now alone walking in the crowd of partners who used to sneer at him.
The first sight she saw was Kenda in a sweet blue dress, Kenda looked different today, beauty and confidence radiated from her smile. He held a glass of wine in his hand, almost making Anna forget that the girl used to be so seedy in a maid uniform. Not a place to treat the liver. Meihan stood gallantly beside Kenda with a different aura. Not far from there Meihan's father, stepmother, and Meihan's mother talked ria as if they did not see Meihan hugging another girl when her marriage was about to take place.
"I've only missed three days, but the change is this big. It is very different from what happened yesterday. Maybe if Mom hadn't given birth to me everything would have gone well, as everyone expected" Anna said with a resigned smile.
Be strong a little more....
"Just need a little more, I won't lose. These legs must be firm." Anna slammed her foot on the ground. He must survive on his own so as not to be addicted to others.
"Mother!" she screamed as she ran and hugged her stepmother.
"Why did you just come alone? Where's Rafah?" her question was then complete with a wise Mother's shady gaze.
"She had a sudden affair and just drove me to the front" Anna said in a voice that was deliberately cute.
He hugged his stepmother. Hope the woman's real attitude can be provoked. However, the woman acted otherwise.
"You're all right? If there's a problem you just tell me the same mother." Now the gaze of a loving Mother radiated from her face.
Anna shook her head softly as she pouted her mouth like a spoiled child.
"Is anyone bothering you?" asked Anna's stepmother when she saw her daughter's reaction.
Anna nodded and pointed at Meihan and Kenda. "Who's the girl? Why is he so friendly next to my future husband? Mom said she chose the best man for me. Why is he acting like that? Laughing in front of his future wife" said Anna. He deliberately raised his voice slightly to be heard by Meihan and Kenda.
Sure enough Anna's voice that sounded like a shout made Meihan and Kenda turn towards her.
Anna's stepmother smiled "Owh, she's just an old friend of Meihan's. Anna doesn't have to worry. He's nobody."
"Does Mom justify their treatment? I even saw the woman teasing Meihan, my future husband." Anna accidentally pressed the word, 'my husband' for Kenda to fire a beard.
Hearing that, Meihan suddenly walked up to them, leaving Kenda with a crimson face.
Plaque!
Anna directly slapped Meihan when she was already standing a little close to him. It was time to let go of the nagging vexation on his chest.
"Do you know what those people are doing?" tanyanya while pointing at the officer who is building the throne for their wedding later. "We will sit there together as husband and wife. It's not too late to cancel the wedding...."
Meihan just silently pegged before finally stroking the girl's head. Don't do that, Anna's heart of compassion will melt with just that meaningless elucidation.
"You jealous?" meihan asked half laughing.
Anna looked at him intensely. In her little heart she hoped that the smile was truly sincere for her not just a mere lie to deceive everyone there. He briefly turned towards Kenda who was looking at him round with eye seeds almost out. All this is just a war of hearts and feelings. Anna without hesitation hugged Meihan. The man's warm taste and scent made him a little calm.
"I just need to be strong a little more...." Anna purposely closed her eyes in Meihan's arms.
"You have to take care of yourself especially your health, soon Anna will be the young mistress of my family" Meihan whispered.
"Why are you doing this senatural thing? Is there no sense of that beautiful phrase?" anna's mind was screaming.
After being content to take shelter in the arms of Meihan Anna slowly pushed Meihan's body. Now their eyes are clashing.
"Of course, I have to take care of my health when everyone doesn't care, when everyone wants me to stay alive for their benefit, and when everyone prays for my death to be hastened," satirize Anna smoothly.
Meihan replied to the expression fixed with a smile that exuded sincerity without the slightest gap. He rubbed Anna's head.
"Just calm down, I'll be someone for you to rely on. Don't be afraid and anxious anymore" said the sweet Meihan who made Anna almost faint to hear him. His heart pretended to be embarrassed until an unusually sounding beat roared.
Anna could barely breathe at once blinked. Did that masculine-scented man approve of her request?
