
Finally, today my engagement was held at a luxury hotel in my city.
All taken care of by my papa, I don't care about the engagement done with a forced heart.
Firda looks beautiful in a long red dress, I wear a black suit and wear a red tie to look matching with the color of Firda's dress.
Firda's face looks bright, while I let alone to smile.
From earlier I just kept quiet and just did the commands from the host.
My engagement ceremony was made luxurious by papa, the invitees were from among the conglomerates and businessmen acquaintances papa and Om Dicky.
At the ring exchange event, not one bit I can smile.
At the photo session, the photographer always asked me to smile but I didn't care, I just kept quiet and just posed.
I hope this engagement is over quickly, because I'm so sick of it.
Papa I see so happy, and always laughs while chatting with the invited guests.
As for my mother, my mother was quieter.
Firda always wanted to hold my hand, but often I patted it gently.
This engagement felt like torture to me, I briefly looked at my watch.
I want this show to be over soon...
"Darling..why do you look agitated? you're not happy today?" Firda asked with sparkling eyes.
He looks so happy, but not with me.
I didn't answer Firda's question, I just shrugged my shoulders.
" Why don't you want to talk to me?" urge Firda who sees me just shut up.
" Another thrush," I answered briefly.
"Seriously?" ask Firda again.
I was annoyed at him, why he asked so much.
I just shut up.
" Later to take vitamin C aja dear, let the cankerawan quickly disappear," he smiled.
"If I can disappear, I will disappear in front of everyone" I murmured inwardly.
After the night, the engagement was finally over...
The invited guests went home one by one.
The two families are still gathering for a photo session together.
After the photo show was over, we finally went home.
Arriving at home I want to go in my room immediately.
" Hendra wait a minute," call my papa.
" What's the matter, pa?" manya lazy.
" After this, immediately prepare your wedding. How about next month?" ask papa.
" It's up to papa, after all, Hendra papa's life is set," I replied a little sniffy.
"Why do you look unhappy?" papa asked with a little annoyance.
"Just ask yourself," I answered and passed from there.
Mama I heard a long sigh, mama must have felt my frustration.
" The boy is getting more and more disrespectful," I still had time to hear you talking to my mom.
" Papa thought what was the cause," replied mama coldly.
"Mom and son make no difference" Papa's nag I heard when I closed my door.
I went into the bathroom, I threw myself in cold water.
I deliberately linger for a long time to cool my head.
I hope that after being exposed to cold water, my body and mind can become fresher.
At my engagement I deliberately did not invite my employees, including Luciana.
I don't want to share my sorrow with them, for me my engagement is my beginning to live the hell of the world.
Let me live what Papa wants.
Let your father decide when my wedding day and Firda will take place.
I no longer have the energy to fight papa.
Because I know that if I fight, then Lusian will suffer.
Let me sacrifice my happiness, if you don't "touch" Luciana.
I don't want the girl's safety to be jeopardized by her stubborn father.
"Lusiana.may you live happily," I cried out to pray for him.
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A month later, I was really here.
Sitting at the wedding with someone I don't want to marry, Firda.
This time I invited my employees, including Luciana.
Luciana came along with Dirga, her brother's friend.
Susiana looks beautiful and graceful with a maron-red knee-length dress.
I was stunned to see it.
"Congratulations mas for the wedding.hopefully happy," he said sincerely.
"Thank you Lus," I stared fixedly at her pretty face, after this I could not afford to just look at her again.
My heart is so sore, it hurts.by holding the turmoil in my heart.
My tears feel like they're coming down, but I'm trying to hold on.
I'm a man, who can cry especially at my wedding.
Dirga also greeted me and congratulated me.
Hopefully Susiana is a match with him, I can see his maturity and I can see that Dirga is a good man.
Luciana and Dirga mas took turns to greet Firda whose face looked very happy.
"Am I the only one who's unhappy when I'm a bride?" I lament in my heart.
Mama I see for a minute glancing at me, maybe mama's worried about me.
Only my mother knew I was so unhappy.
While papa, om Dicky and Aunt Sumi who from now on I call papa and mama also look so happy with this marriage.
Don't they know, I really don't want this wedding.
The news-seeking reporters I saw also covered my wedding.
I don't know who invited them, maybe my papa or my father-in-law.
They also had time to interview me during a break in between events, but I only answered just that.
The more Firda answers their questions, I prefer to silence more.
Why give false happiness.
I am Firda's husband on paper, in my heart I consider him my wife.
After the wedding was over, Firda and I stayed at the hotel where we had the reception.
I immediately cleaned my body in the bathroom, it was so hot that I was sitting in a full AC.
After I finished the bath, Firda took a shower.
I sat on the hotel bed with a fixation, I was not ready to do my duty with a heart that rejected Firda.
Firda came out of the bathroom wearing bright red lingerie.
Even if I wasn't interested in seeing it, Firda approached me and started teasing me.
I pulled out his hand that was stroking my hand.
"Darling..kamu why the hell? I am now your wife," Firda would like to v**me.
I put my face away, I don't know why I feel disgusted.
"You thirsty?" tanyanya.
I breathed a sigh of relief, I didn't want to do it to Firda because I didn't love her.
Firda got me a drink.
" Drink baby, then go to bed soon" she smiled.
I'm a little relieved, Firda didn't sue me. I gulped down the drinking water he poured on me.
I chugged it until the toilet was not there.
Firda smiled obliquely, her smile looking a little strange.
I felt like my body was getting hotter, I unbuttoned my pajamas.
For some reason, something felt strange in my body.
I feel so hot and I can't stand it anymore, my head feels a little dizzy.
I undressed my pajamas, Firda approached me then for some reason in my eyes Firda turned into Lusiana.
I was like a person who lost my mind, I myself did not understand what was going on with me.
I can't refuse Firda anymore, she looks so seductive.
"Lusiana..," I said in my heart.
Then what I did not expect before....
After everything was done, little by little my consciousness returned.
Firda fell asleep beside me.
I digested what just happened between me and Firda.
"What have I done?" I'm messing up my hair.
"Based by the snake.he must have put something in my drink," I got up from the bed and put on my messy pajamas on the edge of the bed.
I got up to the minibar in my hotel room.
I saw beside the glass where I was drinking there was a bag of paper that had been squeezed.
Unmistakably, my guess at what Firda has done to me is completely correct, he has already included the drug pe******g in my drink.
"Basar cheap woman.do not know shame.turns out she is also no longer holy, I don't know who has taken her chastity," I upset.
It turns out that Firda is a cunning woman, I hate her even more.
"This is the woman with the seed, the bebet, the weight that papa is proud of," I snide in my heart.
"I won't forgive what Firda has done," I clenched my hands furiously.
"Look at Firda.you will cry with what you have dared to do" I said in my heart.