Loving you One

22. Lukaku

Kiuw returned Tama's kiss violently, to channel the pain she felt. Their kiss ended when they both had no oxygen supply anymore.

"Still the same," whispered Tama and pulverized Kiuw's lips again. Now Kiuw replied with a sense of longing.

"I miss you" whispered Tama on the sidelines of their kiss. Tama diverts her kiss kiwus neck. It feels that Kiuw is no longer able to stand up again, his legs have felt like jelly.

"Tama we shouldn't be like this," said Kiuw slowly when their kiss ended and tried to release Tama's hand on her waist.

"Why not?"

"We're not together anymore. Over time everything may have changed," Kiuw continued to try to escape from Tama.

"Is that your heart that speaks? I don't feel like everything's changed, it's still the same. Still Qy, got me and I don't feel the change," Tama still with the stance.

"That's just your judgment," Kiuw is still trying to break away from Tama's decapitation. "I'm not the Qy you know and I don't want to open my old one anymore either. So, now take your hands off my body and if we meet again let's not know each other. Off!" Kiuw jerked Tama's hand from her waist.

Tama who was not ready with the words of Kiuw, had to let go of his hand.

"Qy, I'm not going to let go," when Kiuw turned his back. "How many years have I fought to get everything, after I got it and also met you here. It was impossible for me to let you go again," Tama took a deep breath.

"Qy, I admit I was wrong. I don't know how much wrong I've done to you. Perhaps, just saying sorry won't change everything. Change the pain you have been in for a long time. Starting from me leaving you who accused you of cheating, leaving you and accepting the matchmaking made by my mother. To cherish your love many times and to abuse the trust between us. I'm back by forgetting your memories and our love struggles. But you still care about me, love me, and try to get me to remember our memories again."

"I betrayed everything you gave me. I was wrong, I was wrong. I beg of you to give me one last chance," Tama immediately prostrated at Kiuw's feet. Kiuw who saw Tama like that, immediately told Tama to stand back up.

"Don't be like that, Tama," when Tama's back on her feet.

"I have to how else. You don't want to forgive me" Tama replied softly.

"But, it's not like that either," Kiuw could no longer look at Tama's face. Tama is crying too.

"Where should I be? I've waited a long time like this. Meeting you looking back at me. Although, I no longer deserve to be in front of you. I've been preparing for the feeling I've been seeing you for a long time."

"Yes."

"okay! Be kind. If you don't want me anymore. Now sorry you've had enough. I. I'll try to erase all. Although, for me it is impossible. You are happy without me. You can go I won't hold you."

Kiuw immediately turned his body and left Tama. Tama who saw the fact that, Kiuw prefers to leave rather than return to him can only cry for everything.

Tama came out of her penthouse to get some fresh air. Wishing to remove the burden of thoughts and feelings so tight felt. Not knowing the direction, finally his feet brought Tama to the entertainment place where he was staying.

Tama had already sat down in front of the batender table and ordered a drink there. One sip was a relief, two sips felt loose, and three sips felt free.

"It's a great relief," thought Tama and smiled wryly with a statement.

Now there were no more, how many sips of alcohol Tama drank. Tama is free, without the burden of thought. Tama is completely free.

*****

It was already midnight Kiuw also could not close his eyes. The incident that afternoon really touched his heart. Pain felt, old wounds opened again, but seeing Tama like that, Kiuw so not feeling well.

"Where else do I have to be? I can't forget everything. It hurts me a lot" Kiuw continued to fight with his heart and mind.

One side Kiwuw was not able to get sick again and one side turned out to meet Tama, still making his heart beat erratically. Kiuw, now can not deny that he still keeps the taste.

Kiuw, get out of his bed and get out of the room towards the kitchen. Kiuw is currently making milk, because he thinks that if he drinks milk, he can sleep. After drinking the milk, Kiuw returned to his room and tried to go back to sleep.

It was an hour after drinking milk, it turned out that Kiuw had not been able to close his eyes.

"Huf, akubgarus how else. I kept thinking of him," Kiwus lamented inwardly.

"Your name, why should you come. I want to try the word move on, even if it's hard. I have to get through everything. The spirit! But wait, I think there's something I'm missing. He said he was back to betraying. What possible? Is it possible that he's caught everything? Oh, that's impossible! Then my name came. Wait, is it possible? Aaagh!"

*****

"I'm picking you up

But I came back without you

I'll leave our memories here

And it won't come back

-Tama