Loving My Own Friend

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Sandi and Widya walk hand in hand towards the class. Sometimes they laugh because of Sandi who told her the absurdity. Until they finally get into class. The two of them still threw laughter at each other. Without them noticing, the Dawn that had come first continued to stare towards the two of them.

Dawn felt a tightness in his chest, suddenly heat burst into his body. He did not like it at all, seeing Widya so familiar with Sandi. Although he knows, Sandi who first knew Widya compared to him. But still, it felt unwilling to see them so familiar.

"Woy!Bengong aja Lo why?"reprimand Naufal who had just sat on the bench next to him.

"Nothing" answered the cold Dawn, without turning her eyes away.

"Feel a refrigerator deck, urang!"Naufal bergidig was cold. Dawn just stared at him lazily.

The entrance bell of the lesson begins. The teacher has also entered the class. It seems that everyone is focused on what their teacher is explaining. Until 2 hours passed, it was time for them to fill their stomachs because it was time for a break. Sandi and Widya walked together towards the canteen. Dawn followed them from behind with Naufal.

"San, I went to the toilet. You're the first for me, ordinary kayak!"exclaim Widya who answered a nod by Sandi. He immediately ran to the toilet.

After finishing his business, Widya came out of the toilet.

"Geez!Just remember, why are you here?"widya asked, half screaming because he was surprised to see Dawn who was standing in front of the toilet wall.

"I'm waiting for you." she replied grimly.

"Ish, there's no work. Why wait for me here?"widya said as she stepped into the canteen

"Let's go to the cafeteria together" replied Fajar casually.

"Ish freak you mah!"Widya shook her head slowly.

"Wide,"

"Hm."

"Let's go home to school we go yuk!"

"Road?Not cape yet?"widya smiled faintly.

"Ish started to spain on you!"said Fajar patting Widya's shoulder gnashed.

"Yes, you're taking a motorcycle!"

"I don't have Wid's bike, heavy!"

"Well, thicken you. Haha!"they laughed at each other until they reached the cafeteria. Widya spread her gaze looking for someone. He finally found her who was sitting behind him. Widya and Fajar immediately approached her.

"Dor!!"shouted Widya patted Sandi's shoulder.

"Yee is ngagetin!Long time, to the toilet?"ask Sandi who does not mind the existence of Dawn there.

"Yes her name is also a girl. Eh this is mine huh?"point Widya at a bowl of chicken noodles.

"Well, cepet eat cold hunting later not good." said Sandi who also began to eat chicken noodles.

"Jar, you're not eating?"widya asked with her mouth full of noodles, and left a little sausage on the tip of her lips. The dawn that saw him reflexively instantly cleared it using his thumb.

"You can't eat, don't talk, you'll sprain!"said Fajar while cleaning the dirt that stuck on the tip of Widya's lips. Widya was silent looking at Fajar in shock.

"Ekhem!it's clean time, don't need to be held continuously." said Sandi ketus.

"Thank you Jar!"widya said clumsy. Dawn just smiled and looked at Sandi sharply.

They ate their food and went back to class together. Until the time to go home has come. As per Fajar's request, Widya also returned today with Dawn back. However, this time Fajar invited Widya to a place she used to visit first before returning home.

"What a great Jar!"widya exclaimed as he arrived at a place surrounding him surrounded by mountains. They are now on a small hill.

"You're mists?"answered a nod by Widya who was still staring at the scenery around with a sparkling gaze.

"Thank God that you are smiling, I am also smiling." said Fajar smiling.

"I love coming here from a small age. In the past, I was just like my parents like to vacation here, because there's a fishing place down there."It was clearly dawn without looking at Widya.

"Oh pantesans. Then why did you bring me here?"still staring at the dawn.

"Yes, I want to."Dawn is staring at Widya.

"Heum.."Widya turned her eyes around.

"Guid."

"Hm."

"Do you like Sandi?"ask the Dawn suddenly. Now he looks straight ahead.

"Huh?How are you doing that?"ask Widya in shock.

"Well, I want to take a mastiin before I'm honest with you."

"Honestly?What the hell Jar, I don't understand."Widya was even more astonished by the words of Dawn.

"Honestly I've been Wid a long time, like you. Precisely from the beginning we are both 1st class." Revealed Fajar in the end.

The deg!

"You mean?"Widya was further shocked by Fajar's statement.

"Yes, I love you Wid. But, I know in your heart there's someone else, right?"Dawn deepened to look at Widya, with a very sincere smile.

"I'm not asking you to be my girlfriend, or asking you to return my feelings. I just want to be honest with you. Let this heart be relieved, do not feel tight anymore. Yes even though it will be tight if you see the same him."he said chuckling lowered his head.

Widya had no idea what to say. Widya was still shocked and confused, suddenly Fajr expressed his feelings like that.

In the evening, according to an invitation from Mother Novie the family of Resni's mother came to visit Widya's house for dinner. Previously, Mother Novie looked so busy with kitchen affairs. Although there is a Bibik who has taken care of everything, still Mother participated in preparing everything.

"Widya baby, are you ready?"ask Mommy to go into Widya's room.

"Udah Mommy, it's just eating malem why so much noise Bun?"widya asked in surprise, because he had to look super neat.

"It's okay, dear dong, rarely we ngundang kayak gini neighbors. Because you know for yourself, our other neighbors are busy, just this time Mother dapet neighbors who are both in the house like Mother." explained Mother energetically.

"Yes, Mother." replied Widya not spirit.

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"Eh, I think they came. Let's go down!"invite Mother while holding Widya's hand. They soon meet Resni's mother's family.

"Assalamu'alaikum!"said Ms. Resni as the door opened.

"Wa'alaikumussalam!Hi, jeng!"said Mother while interlocking cipika cipiki ala buibu. "Come come on please come in!"Mother also shifted her position, opening the access road for Ms. Resni and family to enter.

For a moment Widya's chocolate netra and Deni's black netra collided. They stared at each other until Widya finally chose to take her eyes off. Widya felt awkward and a little uncomfortable, because Deni just kept looking at her. However, Widya tried not to return her gaze.

Until the dinner is over. Widya immediately went into the room, after Resni's mother's family came home. It felt like he was very tired, after the incident last afternoon with Dawn made him really uninspired. Not dislikes, only there is an unpleasant feeling when knowing the feelings of Dawn.

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A week after that incident, Widya and Fajar no longer go home together. It was not Widya who stayed away, but it was Dawn who kept her distance. Not giving up on his feelings, just wanting to make his heart calm and cool again. There is no longer a sense of belonging, there is only a feeling of love even in silence.