Loving Adopted Sister

17. tired

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Zicko POV

I knew that my decision not to tell Zizi from the start was wrong, I should have been honest and told Ziziku everything.

Maybe nothing like this would happen, something that shouldn't happen, I'm so sure that Zizi would never know about the truth. But now look now, this is the thing I chose, why I was not honest about my problem with Zizi.

But at that moment I was too afraid to say it, I was afraid that Zizi would get mad at me and leave me. Indeed I was too cowardly as a man, I was afraid that Zizi would choose to give up and ask to separate from me.

I can't afford to lose Zizi, I don't want to hurt her, no, I can't. I'll definitely get sicker when Zizi gets hurt. It is I here who should be blamed. I knew I was a coward, feeling that everything would be fine.

"Aaaggrrrkk!!"

"Zizy!! Don't leave!! I'm wrong, I'm a coward, Zizi I'm really sorry!!

I screamed for Zizi's name so many times, surely everyone thought I was crazy. I don't care about everyone who sees me weird.

It feels like this heart has been broken to the brink, but I'm sure that Zizi is the sickest and most broken here.

Oh God! I think my head wants to break! My heart is tight, like on a big rock, it hurts so much! I can barely breathe, no! No way! I still can't believe that Zizi found me holding a baby, and from the look on her pretty face, Zizi already knew everything about the problem I was facing.

I'm sure Zizi also felt pain that was many times the pain I felt.

I wanted to scream with all my might to put a load on my head, but I guess everything would have gone to waste.

"Zicki! Son, patience!" My mother touched my shoulder while crying. The clear liquid flowed in the corner of his eye. I really can't bear to see Mama's situation like this I honestly feel sorry for my parents. Of course they never wanted something like this to happen to his son, had tarnished the family's good name for impregnating people's children and now the problem is that Zizi already knows everything.

Surely Mama also felt very guilty to Zizi, Mama also hid all these problems from Zizi because I asked.

"Mama is sure there will definitely be a way for this matter," I just nodded and resignedly.

"What about Zizi? Doesn't he want to hear your explanation, son?"

I shook my head weakly, Mama tried to help me to stand up, although it still felt heavy I still tried to lift my body because Mama would definitely not be strong to support her.

I feel like I can barely breathe, I have to lose Zizi again, she will definitely be very angry with me.

"Ma," I called out to Mama who had wiped her tears. "Yes, son!"

"Zizi, zizi .. she's gone again Ma." I think I want to spill my tears right now.

"Relax baby, Mama is sure that Zizi will definitely come back, I will have people track her down and also find out about Sonia!"

I looked at Mama who said that.

"Did Mama also feel suspicious about that woman?" Mama nodded.

"Mama was suspicious when she saw her already huge pregnancy, Mama will ask the doctor first, now let's go inside and say goodbye to Sonia," I stopped immediately when Mama said Sonia's name.

"But, Ma..!"

"Son, we have to learn to be an artist now, you know what you mean, right?"

"Fuckily, all this time you've always ignored him and never wanted to know who he is and the ins and outs, you only believe in DNA tests that come out with 99% results% stating you are the baby's biological Papa, but after Mama sees the baby was born healthy and as if he is not a premature baby Mama becomes increasingly suspicious!"

Yes, it is true what Mama said, for almost six months I did not pay attention to Sonia at all, even though we lived in the same apartment but I rarely went home, even if I go home, we both never say hello, actually I'm the only one who ignores because he still often greeted me.

It turned out that Mama had been paying little attention to the woman, even though I had never thought about it at all.

"Well Ma, I'll take it, which is for sure I just want to meet Zizi and explain everything."

"Yes Zicko, Mama knows, but we have to finish this first, between you and Sonia."

I can't think clearly now, my mind is only on Zizi.

Finally Mama took me back in and saw Sonia and her son, somehow I couldn't think that it was my son, our faces didn't look like him, although he was a boy but the baby was more similar to Sonia.

And from that day on I had to make peace and pretend to be nice to Sonia. For Zizi and my parents.

Mama says that Zizi left the house. I went home and wanted to meet Zizi, but she didn't want to get out of the room until the whole day.

I chose to give up and leave, not wanting Zizi to be sick for not eating at all while I was at Papa's house.

I have to be patient, at least Zizi is fine at home.

Right now I'm going to go to the office and walk out of the room. I don't know what I look like, which must be maybe chaotic because of the burden of the mind. Some days I gradually approached Sonia on the grounds of Keanu, not because of a melt, but I wanted to know what was the real motive behind the woman's attitude.

As I descended the stairs, I saw Sonia nursing her baby on the living room sofa, I turned my face away when I saw Sonia's clothes all open, revealing part of her chest.

'Even if you were naked in front of me, I would never be interested!'

It seemed like he was intentionally doing that to attract my attention, but I had absolutely no interest in seeing it. Almost every day Sonia is always dressed openly but I think it makes me very uncomfortable.

"You're leaving, Zicko?" Sonia greeted as usual while showing off her teeth.

"Hem!"

"Aren't you saying goodbye to Keanu?"

The woman stood up and walked towards me with her chest hanging like that. I'm really lazy but I have to pretend that Sonia doesn't suspect anything.

Finally I had to turn around and look at the innocent little baby.

"Look at our son, he smiles at you!"

Cih, our son! I'd love to deny it but I have to hold back.

"Well, see you, Keanu, don't be naughty!"

It looks like the baby is laughing happily, now he is almost a month old, seeing the smile of baby Keanu, it feels a little annoyed at this heart. Yes, according to this holy baby it could make me last a little while longer, because I will definitely divorce Sonia, soon!

Seriate.