Love Without Conditions

Chapter 93

Throughout the journey Ian just kept quiet not much to say. Rio is too. The two of them were silent as if they were busy with their own thoughts.

During their one-hour journey, Ian could finally guess where Rio was going. Ian looked right left scanning around.

"We're going to the beach, right?". Ian asked turned to Rio who was driving.

Rio smiled thinly and nodded his head. "Lo likes the beach..."

"But not the Jakarta beach either.."

"Next time yes I definitely ajakin lo outside Jakarta. Closest from here Anyer Beach, Pelabuhan Ratu. Where else is it?". Rio asked Ian.

Ian put his shoulder around not answering. He held his chin with his hands while looking to the left of the window looking around.

Not long after that Rio parked his car near the dining area. Ian moved his gaze outwards.

"Yo, you got sunglasses, right?". Ask Ian. "I'm not really in front of you anymore.. You even bring me to the public area like this. already the most real in the house only".

Rio leaned his body towards Ian and opened the dashboard drawer and took out one small black box. He opened it and saw a black eyeglass that Ian was looking for.

"Nih wear..". Said Rio while giving a black eyeglass to Ian.

"Lo remains beautiful even after crying..." Rio again.

Ian flicked his lips in disbelief at Rio's words. Before long both of them immediately went down and down the area where the meal.

"You want to eat first?". Ask Rio.

Ian stared at a fast food restaurant not far from where he was. His index finger was pointed towards the restaurant. "Eat there yuk". Rio quickly followed where Ian was pointing.

Both walked to the restaurant. Ian lowered his head not wanting to be seen by others. Her hair she stalls forward covering both sides of her face. I don't know why he feels insecure about himself.

"Yin... You're wearing a mask and glasses at the moment. How can others see your face? Raise your head!". Said Rio who was aware of Ian's behavior.

Ian raised his face and looked at Rio from behind the black glasses he was wearing. Rio then clasped Ian's hand and pulled Ian to walk by his side.

"Eat a lot.." Said Rio as the two of them were eating a meal.

"Badan lo's so skinny.. Usually women who have been pregnant and gave birth must have their bodies so contained or at least changed. But you're getting thinner.." Continue again.

"Inner pressure is how it is". Ian laughed with a bland laugh.

Rio was looking at Ian closely. The man's eyes were very fixed on observing the woman before him. You won't be able to give anything more today from me, Ian. Rio muttered in heart.

After eating, the two took a walk on the beach side. The beach breeze that made Ian's hair feel sticky made him have to tie his long hair. Rio observed Ian's every move.

"We'll sit there yuk!". Ian said pointing to the shady area under some coconut trees with a view that immediately spread wide to the beach area.

Ian ran over and Rio followed. Both of them sat down and for a while just silently stared at the beach. The breeze hit them did not stop.

"Lo's right.. I really need a view like this..." Ian broke the silence between them as he looked around.

"If you've been giving me my car since Kai was born, but I've never been anywhere..."

Rio just silently silently listened to Ian's words. The man intentionally said nothing. He wanted Ian to spill all his grievances.

"Gw feels like a different person in 9 years..." Ian Said. "Lo don't feel it?". Ian looked at Rio.

Yep.. It has become more closed... Inner Rio.

"Gw feels worthless, feels unworthy of genuine affection, I don't feel beautiful and attractive anymore".

Lo remains precious Ian.. Lo deserves as much love and affection, Lo remains beautiful and even the motherly aura you have makes you many times more beautiful..

Rio still spoke in his heart. He let Ian spill all his grievances. He doesn't want to interrupt anything.

"Lo know, Yo? I really have a lot of new experiences during these 9 years. I learned to take care of the household. I take care of the kids. I have never known the name of confusion there is no money. Even I also never fuss when again cooking suddenly gas runs out. Draining water when it rains because the house is flooded almost every day and I do it alone. All the experiences I had when I moved into my husband's house". Ian laughed blandly.

"But everything I do there seems invisible to my husband... He knows.. You know what I went through.. But he's acting indifferent.. Sometimes I just need a backrest.. I need a friend to talk to.. But he never existed... Lo's right, Yo... I had a lifeless marriage". Ian continued while wiping tears on his cheeks.

Ian sobbed bitterly. He was crying so much. His hands were clenched so tightly that his fingernails pierced sharply into his palms. Rio quickly grasped Ian's hand and pulled him closer.

"Gw sometimes thinks you really love your husband..." Said Rio gazing towards the beach that was spread wide in front of them.

"But I know my thoughts are ridiculous hehehee.. You can't have Varo and Kai if you don't love each other.." Rio continued while turning to look at Ian.

Ian smiled blandly and shook his head. "What happens is not what you imagine, Yo.."

Rio frowned his frown looking at Ian. He doesn't understand at all. Ian looked to be breathing.

"Gw and Inspiration do not build a relationship full of warmth like husband and wife. I just feel like thinking all this time he's just 'wearing' me when he wants even though lucky it's very rare to do.."

"Gw feels she thinks I'm just a woman she can wear and after that I ignore.." Ian smiled faintly as he looked at Rio's bead eyes.

"Gw feels the treatment he deserves... I was no longer a holy woman after I married her.. You know best about that, right?". Ian lowered his head.

"Gw does not deserve to be treated well. Because I'm not a good woman, am I..." Ian turned his face up to look at the coconut tree. He tried to hold back the tears too hard. He got tired of crying. He was sick of crying over his fate. But what power, once he cried it was very difficult to stop.

Rio quickly hugged Ian tightly. The man speaks a thousand languages. He just wanted to take Ian away and give him a new, better life. But it's not all that easy. He knew Ian needed to deal with all the problems there are at the moment.

"Gw don't trust men anymore, Yo.. My heart hurts so much. 2 times I have sex, 2 times I also get disappointed.. What was wrong? I always keep my partner's confidence maximum, I never play crazy, but..... what do I get? Even this last one I threw away all my self-esteem and comfortable life to serve a man called husband.." Ian said as he looked in any direction.

"Past.... When we were in contact and I got mergokin lo kissing hot with Karin.. Lo seemed to enjoy what you were doing with him to make my heart hurt.. I wonder if I'm not interesting anymore? Is it worth throwing away? And now when I found out my husband was having an affair with a woman who was prettier and younger than I.. All those thoughts resurfaced and it was reassuring that I was worthless and not worthy of love..." Ian smiled faintly.

Rio looked over quickly. His face looked very surprised. "What?! Inspiration cheating?!". His hands clenched firmly.

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