Love Without Conditions

Chapter 105

Next day

Ian, who was getting ready to go home, was suddenly startled by the ringing of his cell phone he had placed on his desk. He glanced at the screen of his phone and found Rio's name there. Without a second thought, Ian immediately picked up the phone call from Rio.

"Hmmm..." Sapa Ian as usual.

"When the hell is the fox so hello dear?". There was Rio's voice that was upset by Ian's habit on this one.

Ian chuckles amusedly.

"What's the nelfon gw?"

"Just to say, I've landed safely at LAX". Rio.

*LAX is one of the most crowded airports in Los Angeles.

"Good.."

"Is that all right?". Rio asked from across the phone.

"Then I have to say what dong... It's good you're safe to get there, Yo". Ian said as he glanced at his watch.

"Well on again, the phone? I have to meet people. It's late, Yo". Ian's dream again.

"Who did you meet?" Ask Rio.

"Ilham.. I'm sure he'll meet at the cafe near the office".

Silent. Rio answered nothing. I heard only the breath of the man. Ian was silent. He was waiting for a response from Rio.

"Yes already. Be careful, yeah.." Rio finally made a sound.

Ian then reflexes nodded even though he realized it would not be able to be seen by Rio. Shortly thereafter, the phone connection ended. Ian immediately got up from his seat and circulated his gaze to the work to ensure that nothing was left behind.

Ian decided to leave his car in the office basement and he would walk to the cafe which is only 2 buildings away. Ian stared at the sky which was emitting a beautiful reddish tinge. Time has indeed shown almost 17:30 which is the time for the sun to immerse itself.

After arriving at the cafe, Ian chose to sit at the table in the corner. The location of the table allows the lack of attention of people who will go towards it.

10 Minutes later, Ilham arrived at the cafe. The man immediately approached Ian. Ian raised his head and was stunned to see the man who was still her husband.

His appearance is still neat. No mustache or beard was allowed to grow on the face..But Ian found that the man's body was thinner than the last time he saw it.

Inspiration immediately sat opposite Ian. The man's eyes did not look at Ian very deeply.

"You seem happy living apart from me..." Saying Inspiration still while staring at Ian.

Ian simply commented a faint smile on his lips.

"I'm sorry..." Ilham.

Ian stared back at the bead of the eye of Inspiration.

"Sorry for what?". Ask Ian.

"For everyone, I'm sorry to disappoint you. I'm sorry. ever since you and the kids left the house, I've felt lonely. From that moment on I realized that you guys were very valuable to me. I'm the stupid one... Sorry.." Inspiration stared at Ian intensely.

Ian took his breath. He really needs to relax himself so that he can think clearly and use logic.

Ilham shook his head slowly. "Nothing. You have no lack for me. You really gave your life for me".

"Why should you treat me like the wind? I have to wonder with myself. What is less than me? What should I improve in serving you even if you treat me as you wish".

Inspiration rubbed his face rough. "That's because I'm insecure. I am frustrated because I cannot be happy with you. I see you crying almost every day and it makes my heart ache".

"I'm crying because of you! Because of your reckless behavior with me. Your attitude is always changing. Sometimes you are rude and do not hesitate to throw various painful words embedded in my heart, you yell at me for various trivial things and even you always bring up about Rio if we are noisier. But other times you can be nice to me. I've lived in such a situation for 10 years. I wish you could be better but the fact is you're hurting me even more". Said Ian took out all his uneg-uneg.

Inspiration grabbed Ian's hand and grasped it tightly. "I'm sorry.. I promise I'll fix everything. We start all over again.. Remember there's Varo and Kai between us".

Ian pulled his hand from the grasp of Inspiration. "If you really think about children, why are you comfortable cheating 2 years behind me? Why are you treating their mother so casually?".

Ilham. The man's bead eyes really exuded a frustrated look of eyes.

"Can we start over? I promise I will fix everything well. I'm sorry for all my mistakes with you all this time..."

"I don't want to lose you..." Ilham.

Ian took a breath. His back is leaning backwards. He looked at Inspiration without saying anything. Just staring at the man who for 10 years braided the household nymph with her.

"I'm sorry you.. But I can't go back with you". Ian finally said. His eyes did not look at Ilham.

The man's face was of course shocked to hear the words that had just been thrown from Ian's mouth.

"You're just apologizing because you're afraid of losing me. You don't apologize to me for the pain that you've carved into my heart for so many years. You can't dive into what I feel as broken as what. You're just apologizing because you don't want to lose me, you don't want to live alone".

Inspiration shook his head. "No... It's not like that. I'm really sorry for all the things I've done to you. I'm begging.. Give me a chance to repair our relationship".

Ian leaned his body towards Ilham. The fingers are linked to each other.

"Without you asking, I always give you a chance. But you always ignore. Sorry, my decision is unanimous". Ian stood up and hurried to leave.

Inspiration held onto Ian's arm. The man looked up at Ian.

"Did you marry me, have you ever felt happiness? Have you ever loved me a little?".

ian lowered his head looking towards Ilham.

"There's no way I'd have survived all these years if I'd never felt happiness with you. All this time I was hoping that one day you would change back to treating me well. I lived and survived with hope that turned out to be unreal".

"Have you ever loved me?". Tanya Ilham repeated her question that Ian did not answer.

Ian reviewed a faint smile. "You are the father of my two children. Does that explain anything to you?".

Inspiration stunned to hear Ian's words. His gaze felt hollow and slowly he released his grip that held Ian's hand from earlier. Ian just walked away from Inspiration.

All the way back on foot to the office building to take his car. Ian looked at the dark sky. His heart felt light but empty. The noise of heavy traffic filled his sense of hearing but he was not disturbed. He continued to walk on the sidewalk while occasionally staring at the dim sky.

Lo great Ian... You do not cry even if your heart feels sore...

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Good nights!😘