
I fell silent after hearing Uncle's story, my hands clenched, I was angry at the situation that was happening, how could the person I had considered as my father's successor be the one who caused him to die.
"I'm sorry Ri, even though we can't be together but I will always keep your memories in my heart..Forever, today I take back the half-heartedness I once left you, I go home baby, take care of yourself." I said in my heart as a sign of farewell to Riri.
I went to see Mom who looked still in shock inside the house.
"Mom, I'm going home first with Uncle and Auntie, tonight Adit's coming home alone on the bus." I said.
My mother just nodded while crying.
"Uncle, Auntie, I'll leave Mom as long as I'm not there yet." I said again.
"Yes Dit, trust Mom and Rai with us, we must take good care of him." Answer Uncle and Aunt.
During the day they first went back to Bandung, while I used the bus because I had to go to some places first to pay.
"Mbok Yem, Adit Pamit yes, thank you for taking care of me all this time." I said.
"Be careful on the road, my son, be hearty and smile always." Said the Mbok who then hugged me as a sign of farewell.
I was getting ready to go home, I only brought my clothes and guitar, while my phone was left to Mbok to be returned to Riri, because it was the cellphone first given.
I stepped towards the fence and came to a standstill when Pay called out to me.
"Adit, wait!!!" Word Pay.
"Why Pay?"
"We're coming along."
"Don't Pay, here you are guaranteed because there is a job for the cost of Tiwi medicine, if you join me you will lose that job." My answer.
"Lu my best friend Dit, you're my savior, if it wasn't for you maybe today I'd still be a thief, maybe I was in prison and separated from Tiwi without knowing his fate without me."
"But Pay."
"Udah...The wind is a terrible God." Pay smiled at me.
"All right, come on then." Finally starting today Pay and Tiwi officially come with me to Bandung.
After exiting the gate, Bams stood there crying.
"Boss!!!" He said with tears in his eyes.
"Bams don't cry, one day we'll meet again."
"Boss can I come with you."
"Don't Bams, stay here, you have to take care of your Mother and Sisters, after all you now have Reni, I leave Riri to you guys huh, make sure she gets someone nice." I said with a smile.
Bams was downcast, his cries getting broken until I finally gave him a farewell hug.
"Basic klimis cangerous." Word Pay.
Bams did not reply to Pay's words but he hugged his friend and his Rival.
"Don't miss the same thing." Said Pay again.
"No, not." Sahut Bams
"Take care of yourself, someday I'll come there." Shouted Bams.
"We wait for Bams, my greetings to Mother Panti and the children." I said.
The next place we went to say goodbye was the residence of Bi Eha and Pak Iwan.
"Bi, we're saying yes."
"Yes son, Auntie understands your feelings, be careful on the road huh." Said Auntie who wasn't trying to prevent me from coming home because Auntie must have understood the pain I was feeling.
"Sir Iwan where is Bi?"
"Father was at Nak Hospital, after your departure Mr. Suryo fell and was unconscious."
Whether I have to be concerned or even have to be happy to hear the bad guy was unconscious, at this time I was like losing my identity, I still love Riri very much, but what if it turns out that the Parents of the Woman you love are your own father's killers.
We continue our steps to the final destination, yes this is the final destination of all humans, we arrive at the burial area, where my best friend rests for good.
"Bor, I say yes, sorry if later I will rarely come here, today I go back to Bandung, whether to come back again or not, even though later we will still pray for you..Drill, gw kangen." I said in front of my best friend's belly button.
That afternoon we returned to Bandung by bus, all the way I was silent, set my eyes out the window glass, sometimes I took a deep breath, this heart still hurts, I still feel, right now my love is gone, a love I have always cared for and fought for with all my heart.
Maybe we are not a match, but believe me, this love I will keep forever in my heart, with anyone I will end my love story Riri will remain in my memories.
For those of you who always teach me the meaning of true love, I say thank you very much, you are first love even though it is not my last love, take care of yourself, may you be happy even though you are not with me.
At last that night we arrived home, the atmosphere of the house this time was very unpleasant, there was no laughter and happy sound on my return this time, everyone was silent, everyone was silent, there was only silence there that occasionally heard the sound of night insects from outside the house.
"Dn't." Said Pay coming to me on the porch.
"Yes Pay, why?" My answer.
"Gw know this is hard for you, I also know it must be very painful, but you have to be strong yes." Word Pay.
"Yes Pay thanks."
we fell silent again after that brief chat, the morning before everyone woke up I was planning to head somewhere, where my memories were with him in this City.
Yes, that morning I went to the Top of the Stars, where Riri and I once begged the shooting stars so that we could be together forever.
I looked at the atmosphere of Bandung this morning from the top of the hill, I breathed in the fresh morning air, hoping to get a little relieve tightness in the chest. Until finally I remembered the words of Sinta first, which taught me to shout from a high place so that my heart could calm down.
"Rirrrrriiiiiiiiii." I said with all my might.
After a long time there I continued my journey, a journey that was not necessarily a direction, this time I just followed the footsteps that led me where he took me until the night I returned home.
"Woy Dit, where are you? We all got you." Pay Say.
I did not answer his question and passed to enter my room. The next morning after opening my eyes, I saw Pay standing in front of me holding a guitar.
"Yuk ngamen." Bring along.
"Tumben lu ngajak ngamen." My answer.
"How about starting today we both ngamen as a livelihood, all to forget your problems Dit, would you?" Pay Say.
I finally decided from today I would start busking to earn an income, but this time I'm not alone, because there's Pay with me.