Love in the Covenant

Fear of losing

"Why did you let Mr. Hisam go home by himself anyway say...???Amanda was so sorry for the cold attitude of Binar to her idol.

"I even saw such deep disappointment and sadness in his eyes, As you drove him away from here...!!!

"Nobody kicked him out, say"

"Yes the same, because you told him to let him go, when he honestly confessed his feelings to you, and you even acted like this...???Sorry Amanda,

"Why do I feel that his confession is too late for me, why not when I still contain his flesh and blood, let me feel my confidence in conceiving his future baby,it was as if right now he was just pitying me..."

"Perhaps because all this time, his camera was less sensitive say...???after all you said during your pregnancy she was so considerate of you, Even obey all your requests, I think from there you can judge how exactly she feels to you...???

"I'm sure he did it all because he was concerned with his baby-to-be"Well, Binar was so sure,

"Why can you have such thoughts anyway??I myself strongly believe and am very sure if at this time Mr. Hisam really has the same feeling you, maybe you yourself are too late to realize it,"Amanda continued to try to convince him.

"The light just took a long breath, though,

"Partially how could he not have the same feeling as you while you were alone...???Amanda paused her words for a moment, she was a bit hesitant to say it,

"I'm sorry, I don't mean to add to your grief but I just don't think, how can you say Mr. Hisam doesn't like you while you can get pregnant???the question is so slow, though,

"All I know is that, people would only do that on the basis of liking, and Mr. Hisam is a different man, he would not have done that without the basis of love, he said,he's an honorable man, I'm not a man who just obeys the napsu he doang, if he's a man like that, a woman-to-be he can sleep in one night, but this is not, if he's a man like that,he just touched you" Amanda said.

"Heh, don't you know I how it happened...???

"I'm ashamed to remember that incident again"

"What do you mean say, I'm so confused...???

"Lelahan Binar told her from the beginning, although there was doubt in her heart to tell it, but it felt like there was nothing else she had to hide from her friend.

"So how could you possibly draw such a conclusion say...???Because in reality he did it because he was forced, I begged, I wanted him so badly, he only pitied me at that moment, and I never thought I would, if our actions at that time were to bear fruit, he said,maybe that's why God took it from me so quickly, because his presence we never predicted may never even be expected" said Binar while shedding tears,Why every time she remembers her child she feels so sad and cries so easily.

"I'm sorry, because my question made you sad and cry again, I'm sorry...!!!Amanda hugged him with a guilty feeling.

Binar was unable to speak anymore, she again dissolved into her feelings and sobbed bitterly.

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"Hisam sat there pensively as he continued to observe his father-in-law's house through the glass of his car, That's why he was so heavy leaving the house, whereas that day he was very full of skejul there was even an important meeting with some of his clients,Why did it all not matter anymore to him now, he did not calm down to leave Binar at that time, even though Binar had indirectly asked him to leave,

"Mas Hisam should go home, I need time to think, now my mind is erratic, I want to own mas and maybe for some time to come, I beg you Hisam not to see me,"His request was pleading, though,

And why his wife's words really make him upset, sad, disappointed all mixed into one.

"It turns out this is what it feels like to fall back in love, because my love for her makes me so happy but also so sad like this,but I always remember the first time we did it at the hotel, making everything feel perfect and being a happy moment when we both reached *******,I should have realized by then that I was starting to love her" Hisam's murmur grew increasingly frustrated.

"A knock on the windshield of his car, jolted him from his daydream.

"Eh..mom.....!!!

"Mommy just got home...???tanyanya while getting out of her car wanted to greet her in-laws.

"Sorry son, if mother had surprised you earlier, then the mother called from earlier but not in the gubris" said Bu Retno smilingly looking at the behavior of her daughter-in-law.

"Oh, I'm sorry...!!!Hisam didn't listen,"His answer.

"It's okay, son, why did you go and leave your wife, son...???Want to go back now...???Why even bengong in the car, my mother is afraid that later you will not notice gas gas and even crash"She said Bu Retno was a little anxious.

"Hisam did not answer immediately, he was confused what to answer to his mother-in-law at that time, when only last night he promised to look after and protect his wife and would not leave her.

"But......"

"What's up, son...???Any important business...???

"If there is indeed your work that is very important, go home son...!!! Mother will take care of your wife, some mothers have planned to close the mother's boutique for a few days so that they can have a lot of time to accompany your wife through this difficult time" said Bu Retno.

"She threw me out, Mom, and said she didn't want me to meet until such an indeterminable time" Hisam said with a serious but bitter look in his eyes when he told Ms. Retno.

"What....???

Ms Retno was so shocked to hear her daughter-in-law's words at the time, she felt sad but as a mother she could understand how her daughter was now, her daughter was being shaken and deeply hurt by the loss of her child,but as in-laws she had to encourage her daughter-in-law back then, looking at her for a while then looking at her daughter-in-law closely.

"Go home son, entrust your wife to mother, let her recover her energy and mind first, I'm sure everything will improve again Son...!!!said Ms. Retno tried to convince him.

"But Mom, I can't bear to leave him in such a state, Hish is afraid of anything happening to him again, Hisham quite lost our Son ma'am, I'm afraid if I have to lose him too Ma'am "Hisam said honestly with teary eyes.

"Bu Retno couldn't help but hear her daughter-in-law's words back then, she could only shed tears.

"Trust me son, your wife will be fine and God willing will always be in her protection,Are you not sure about all the bodiguard-bodiguard that you have spread from last night even in all places to protect the safety of Binar and also mother...???

"Hisam shook his head, though,

"When it happened, I didn't trust anyone anymore to keep her safe Ma'am, Hisham just wanted to protect her, make her calm and not cry anymore," Hisam was saddened to think about it all.

"Mother Understand Son, But for the sake of mentally healing your current wife, you must give in and obey her will, You can monitor her up close, you can monitor her,It could be through your mom or the spy you paid to always watch her"

"Hisam seemed to think for a while, but finally nodded while wiping the tears that came back out of his eye fertilizers, Men are destined to be strong and not crybaby but not why,The eyes of a man who was so sincere in love with his wife, that Retno could see through the eyes of his daughter-in-law.

"Well Mom, I will follow Binar Bu's request, Hisam leave him...???If there's anything, mom can tell me right away..???

Retno nodded, believing her daughter-in-law could do anything to protect her, including installing cctv in every corner of their home,Ms Retno even caught some of those who were working, when she was awake and praying last night.

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