Love in the Covenant

I love you

Binar is still very emotional, he looks depressed and irritable, Hisam trying to be patient in dealing with it, he said,

"You can't keep getting carried away by the lingering sadness, and please stop blaming yourself like this??"

"Losing something we love in this world, may be the form of God to teach our true meaning, Speak Hisam while trying to strengthen it in the form of an embrace but Binar again brushed it off.

"Mas Hisam could never understand what it was like to lose, it really broke me,

"At first it was present and made me very happy, I could feel its presence alive and growing in my stomach, but now it was as if burying all my dreams and hopes, and losing it completely decided the happiness in me, she said,instant but able to make me almost die, my heart, my body felt empty and empty suddenly lost its contents, it felt too short he was here, When I wanted to see him grow, heard his cry, even cradled and hugged him,"Said Binar feeling very sad and devastated, he said,

"Who says I'm not sad and feel lost, I also feel the way you feel right now, even if I could change my life,then I will be willing to exchange it as long as he can live and stay with you at this time, I'm sorry I should be able to prevent this from happening" Hisam said with teary eyes,

Binar was silent to hear it, her husband's words meant nothing to her, even now her gaze was empty again looking out the window, Her breathing was so heavy,

"Mas Hisam should go home now...???

He said suddenly,

"I'll go home if you want to come home with me" he said.

""For what else am I going back there mas, there is nothing left for me to defend, something that strengthens our bond is no longer there now, and I'm sure slowly the bond will loosen and loose by itself, so the mas Hisam no longer need to pretend well with me," Binar said in a disappointed tone.

"What do you mean...???why are you talking like that...???Hisam asked questions.

"Because I know mas Hisam only cares about the child I bear, not me...???But I'm so grateful to always give my best to make me happy, thank you for the loving days when she was still here mas,"Reflex Dinar groped her stomach.

"He was my source of strength to keep going, but now he's gone so it feels like my legs are no longer strong to determine where my next direction and purpose in life will be,

"But Mas Hisam must continue to live" he said softly,

"How could you possibly have such thoughts??how can I continue my life without you...???Hisam looked at him so deeply,

"God...."Binar smiled cynically hearing that,

"Over the past year, we have been living, but we have never been...!!!

"I know, since the breakup your life was dimmer no spirit of life, then go back to Anin so that your heart is back to light, I know it's hard for you to forget it in your mind,let alone erase his name in your heart,

"Why are you suddenly discussing something that has nothing to do,"Sela Hisam was so shocked to hear.

"Because now there is no longer a barrier not to return to him who you love mas, the child that binds us is no longer there, especially now you already know everything is not it???Anin's mom never betrayed you, but she's just in the trap, and all this time you know she's been trying to explain everything to get sorry from you, and I know she still loves you very much, and I know she still loves you very much,vice versa with mas Hisam, so return to him mas, forgive all forms of his guilt" said Binar so adamant, not the slightest he turned his head or glanced at the expression of his husband's face at that time, Barat said,That handsome face suddenly turned grim, though,

"While you have been separated for a long time, but there will always be memories of a beautiful story, Hisam would be a hypocrite if he did not admit that Anin was still in your heart,"

"Stop...!!!

"Stop....!!!

"Can we not talk about him anymore..???

"Why should anyone else be our talk??Even if you don't give me a choice, I'll still choose you, I just want us to start our relationship with a new, better page, because everyone deserves a second chance in this world,and that's basically what I'm asking you to fix our relationship all along"Hisam's love was so sincere as he gently clasped his hand.

"I know we both might be able to continue our relationship, and we both might be okay, but I've seen what Anin's struggle to get sorry and love you back is like,so please come back to him, forgive him...!!!"He said with sad eyes.

"Heh....???

"Don't confuse me like this" Hisam said in a disappointed tone.

"I want to dourly forgive Anin and return to her..!!!Say it without a stale base,

"What...???

"That's impossible...!!!

"Why can't it be mas...???

"Because I love you...!!!

"Huh......!!!

"Binar laughed cynically at the words of her husband just now,

"I know Hisam is just pitying me, right...???

"No need to pity me like this mas, I know Hisam will never be able to love me..."His words were saddened by feeling pitiful, Sighing heavily.

"What do you want my evidence for...???

"I didn't love you before, but I don't know when this feeling started to grow and bloom in my heart..???

"Hinar my wife, thou art my present and all my tomorrows, believe me I love you as sincerely"Whispered Hisam in his ear as he hugged her from behind.

"Binar's tears fell on her cheeks, her husband's words were very sincere, but why not make her heart touched or then believe, maybe because her heart was still covered in so deep sorrow, so it could not melt his mood at that moment.

"I need time to believe it mas"he said coldly.

"I will not force you to believe, maybe I am late to honestly admit my feelings all this time or the time may not be right,but I just want you to know what my true feelings for you are...???How do you feel about yourself to me??even though you might hate me, but I don't care about that, I just want you to know that I don't want to lose you" Hisam said, further tightening his embrace,although this time Binar did not brush her off but she did not return her husband's embrace, she just fell silent.

"Between she should cry or be happy to hear it all, she said,

"I can't afford to hate you, because honestly this affection is more than anything,

"Why didn't you say this before, when our son was still there, so he could feel happy to hear his father was loving his mother...."His mind while shedding tears for the umpteenth time.

Meanwhile, Amanda who had heard their conversation only shed tears, did not dare to disturb the two, she had just arrived in Jogja that morning, her plan was to make a surprise for her best friend,in order to make up for his guilt yesterday that let him go home alone to Jogja,His intention was to surprise his best friend by sneaking inside and coincidentally the door of the house that was not in the key was very supportive of his plan at that time,but unlucky for him just a few steps he walked he even caught the idol was hugging his wife lovingly, suddenly made him take a few steps back and choose to hide behind the wall, he said,he did not intend to eavesdrop but the soul of the struggling coco forced him to stand in a corner, and in the end he got dissolved in sadness and cried, too,crying because touched and baper hear the words of the Idol, not because he was jealous...???Error the word jealousy...!!!But he was happy because the love of Binar did not clap one hand.

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Hi, my dear all, sorry to update again,🙏🙏🙏🙏, some days I took the revision first a few chapters at the beginning, the situation just realized a lot of mistakes in writing, punctuation, capital letters, etc,etc, so it can be reread while waiting for the ending😁times there is still something to be fixed,yuuukkk kasi input or criticism of the same Author well, let can continue to learn.🙏🙏🙏🙏

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