LOVE GIRL MOSQUITO REPELLENT (Holyness The Tarnished)
MISUNDERSTAND
Rani uncovers her blanket, she gets out of bed. He saw the bloodstains in his bed, it made him cry even more sadly, he was already completely unholy again. His honor has been taken away.
Rani walks with shaky steps because her core area is very painful and her body is also crumpled dimly. He walked into the bathroom and turned on the tap.
Rani cries under the shower, she slumps sitting hugging herself, with her knees bent.
Rani was crying in the bathroom. He continued to rub all the red marks attached to his body roughly. He rubbed his body as if he was rubbing a stain that was hard to clean.
She was so disgusted with herself when she imagined Heru flirting with her. The more rubbed the red mark is not lost but instead widened.
Rani laments her carelessness, inviting male guests at night just the two of them inside the house. Rani is very stupid, he could eat food from Heru without any suspicion.
***
Rani curled up under the blanket, she was crying incessantly. Crying in no way alleviates the heartache in her chest. His chest still felt tight, even taking a breath felt difficult. His heart was still so sore, like a dagger, wound yet not bleeding.
"I'm so ashamed of Iqbal. What if Iqbal finds out I'm no longer a saint? Does he still want to accept this dirty me?"
"I love Iqbal very much. But my body was dirty, I was disgusted with myself, let alone Iqbal. I don't deserve Iqbal. My body is dirty, I'm dirty, I'm no longer Holy, I'm no longer worthy of Iqbal."
"What would Iqbal tell me? If he knew what Heru had done to me? He would definitely be ruined, he would definitely be disappointed. It could be that he'll also kill me and Heru"
***
Rani gets out of her room by dragging a suitcase. He saw Iqbal sleeping on the living room sofa. Rani approaches Iqbal and looks at Iqbal's face.
"I'm sorry I can't keep my chastity for you Iqbal, I love you so much." Rani muttered in her heart. Rani takes a pen and writes a letter to Iqbal and puts it on the table.
Rani kisses Iqbal's forehead then leaves by dragging the suitcase, leaving Iqbal still asleep on the sofa with a mountain of burden in his heart.
***
Rani took the online taxi she ordered. Inside the taxi the tears still continued to flow on her smooth cheeks. Sometimes Rani wiped her tears, the taxi driver occasionally saw Rani from the car glass but he hesitated to ask Rani why she was crying.
Rani wears a mask before getting off the taxi online. Rani chose a flight to Bali. Rani wants to calm down for a while on the island.
During the flight, Rani just closed her eyes but could not really fall asleep.
***
Iqbal started to squirm and opened his eyes, he let out a heavy sigh. Then sit down for a moment to clear his mind. Then he walked towards Rani's room, Iqbal was surprised when he saw Rani was no longer on his bed, Iqbal looked for Rani into the bathroom but Rani remained absent.
"RAN.....RANIS..... RANIS....RANIS....WHERE ARE YOU RAN?" Iqbal shouted while walking around looking for Rani.
"Rani answered me."
Iqbal searched every corner of the room. But all the places are empty. Iqbal was so worried, he knew Rani's situation was not okay now, for what had happened to him.
Iqbal walked towards the living room, he saw a letter on the table. Iqbal picked it up and read the letter.
"Iqbal I need refreshing, please don't look for me and don't call me first, I still want to be alone. To an unspecified time limit." The contents of Rani's letter contained 2 tears in the letter.
"Rani must still be angry with me, she must be disappointed with what I've done to her. My mistake was really fatal and hard to forgive."
"I should have been able to hold back last night and called the doctor to remove the effects of the stimulant and not even fuck Rani. Because of jealousy I got out of control. And vent my anger at him." Iqbal deeply regrets what he has done to Rani. Because what he has done must have hurt Rani so much.
***
Rani books a room at the hotel then the receptionist gives Rani the room key and room number. Rani walks to the room she ordered, escorted by the hotel maid to room number 3034.
"It." Rani gives a tip/money to the waiter who delivers it.
"Thank you Miss."Said the waiter while bowing respectfully to Rani.
"Yes are the same."
"If you need something you can contact the hotel's telephone operator."
"Good."
"then excuse me Miss."
Rani entered her room, she circulated her gaze throughout the room. Rani's room has a balcony overlooking the sea. Rani who was so tired after traveling far away, immediately laid her body on the bed.
His eyes continued to glare at the sky of the room. Tears rolled back in the corner of his eye. He was confused about what he would do next. Whether he should be honest with Iqbal about what Heru has done to him or Rani kept quiet as if nothing had ever happened to him.
Rani herself is confused as to how Iqbal would react if Iqbal knew he had been harassed by Heru. Because Rani can never guess the way Iqbal's mind is always changing, sometimes good, sometimes soft, sometimes firm, sometimes ferocious, Rani herself wondered why she could love someone like Iqbal.
"What would he do if he found out that I already had!..." Rani could not continue her words, she was too heavy to mention the word harassed let alone mention Heru's name.
After pondering, Rani walked towards the balcony, she sat on a chair hugging her knees while looking at the ocean with a blank and hollow look.
***
Soon Zain contacts Iqbal and informs him that his men have managed to track down Rani.
Zain sends a spy to watch over Rani's every activity and keep Rani at a distance.
Iqbal was a little relieved because Rani did not go too far. Iqbal tries to understand the circumstances of Rani who still wants to be alone.
***
One Week later.
One week of seclusion was not able to reduce the anxiety in Rani's heart, the pain and hardship over what he had experienced was still enveloping her, even though the day had long passed. But Rani's situation still remains the same.
Rani is eager to report Heru to the authorities but she will be very embarrassed if what she experienced is known to the public, especially until it must be highlighted by a journalist's camera.
***
Iqbal notices the photos and videos of Rani's daily activities sent by her men.
Iqbal can clearly see the sadness on Rani's face in the video. It was seen that Rani was crying a few times.
Iqbal felt more guilty for making his lover sad.
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