Love Comes Because of the Unaccustomed

Arvin's Worries

Three more months according to the agreement that has been agreed by both parties I will marry him. It was this inner struggle that made it so difficult for me to close my eyes. My heart was so in denial of his presence that it was so fast. I'm not sure if I can be happy with her or if I can make her happy while the seeds of love for her are not there at all.

I could not resist the screams of my heart, nor did I cry. The night wind of the moon and stars bears witness to the turmoil of my heart. These tears flowed so hard and I couldn't stand it anymore. With tears I tried to regain my consciousness. I try to accept the reality. Maybe this is what God has written for me. Perhaps he is the soul mate God has ordained for me. My sinlessness will make me suffer.

After a little quiet I told my diary book I crossed the name Hafidz from my diary.A name that sticks so tightly in my heart and became the decorator of my diary, in the hope of having his name crossed in my diary,his name is also in my heart.Although it is not that easy. Now I have to accept the reality because the best I think is not necessarily the best according to God.

My hands were so agile to dance, to scratch the ink of the heart onto a piece of paper hoping that after that there would be no more beginning and turmoil, hoping that this unreality would turn into pleasure.

Diaries...

Right now, only sincerity is able to make me escape from the heartbreak

Maybe I don't love him right now

Because in my heart it is not his name that is enthroned

But the name of someone I love even though I know he's nobody

Diaries..

All this time, he always dreamed that he would come to propose to me

But reality says something else.

It was just an unknown man who came to ask me..

Wanting the heart to scream

Want to be in a fight

But for what??

What just to follow my great ego

Diaries..

There is no reason for me to refuse this match

He's a good guy who comes into my criteria

Perhaps it is he whom God has chosen for me

Who will be my halal lover.

Diaries..

I will fill my heart with his name

Even though my heart still refuses

But as time goes on this heart will accept its presence

Diaries..

Now I have made the decision

And the choice I made

I will always try to be at peace with the situation

The choices God has made will never disappoint..

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"But you may not like something, when it is good for you, and you may like something, when it is not good for you, God knows you do not know." (QS al - Baqaroh :216)

The sun shines so beautifully, its warmth is able to repel the remaining drowsiness, the dew in the leaves looks beautiful like a shining pearl. A week has passed from that event , this heart has been a little sincere to accept the reality. In this one week I thought about every event that happened in my life. There is no coincidence that everyone must have arranged. And nothing will be in vain in its arrangement.

The long school holidays have also aged. Today was the first day I started teaching again.

Sharing knowledge for the nation's children with the hope that one day the children of the nation are born into intelligent children not only in their world affairs but also affairs

his end.

The distance between home and where I teach is not so far away, so I prefer to walk, in addition to being able to nourish the body I can also breathe fresh morning air longer. And every swinging footstep I use to recite to Him in the hope that every step I swing becomes a reward.

"Assalamu'alaikum Nisa's mother,". The sound of people greeting me, a familiar voice in my ear. The voice of someone I've longed for, I'm certainly not wrong with that is indeed the voice of Hafiz but where maybe he is here isn't he still in Malaysia finish his S2.

I turned my face back to make sure who said hello to me I had not been able to return his greetings, I saw his smile. A smile that melts my heart, which makes my heart beat faster and as if my blood flow stops flowing. A moment I never expected before would meet him at this school. It was impossible if he was in this place. In addition to him, the son of the principal, he used to be one of the teachers at this school. But his presence at this moment I did not expect at all. And why he had to come again, when I started to forget him. As I began to be able to scrape his name, he appeared again before me. His arrival will definitely make it harder for me to forget.

"Nisa why bengong is like seeing shethan aja, "the reprimand once saw me bengong without expression and without reply greetings.

I blushed in embarrassment, I didn't know what to say to her. I was like a living statue in front of him. I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do, I was afraid that later I would mispronounce because too many unanswered questions were playing in my brain.Seeing that I was silent without a word Hafiz was trying to melt the situation.

"Nisa, congratulations. I heard from my father, Nisa is already engaged, it turns out I came late, hopefully Nisa will be happy with Nisa's life companion. "he said that immediately made Nisa feel slapped so hard, so she felt,the pain is so deep.