Love Coiled Stains

A heavy decision

Arga is still busy looking for Sandra's whereabouts. Since that incident, he never saw himself in the house of his father and mother again.

Rina and Rudi were sitting on the sofa in the living room of her house. Today it has been two weeks Arga did not enter his office and during that time also Rudi was the one who stopped all Arga's work. Although the middle-aged man had already handed over his entire company to Arga, but still he often came to the office to monitor the state of the company he had built with great difficulty.

So, to stop all Arga's work he did not find it difficult because he always knew about the state of his office.

Today is Sunday, Rudi and Rina are sitting relaxing on the sofa that is at her guest table. They both enjoyed the weekend to talk.

With heavy steps, I stepped closer to my two in-laws.

Rudi and Rina looked at me with friendly smiles. They seemed happy to see me out of my room today. Usually I just spend my time in the room and wait for Arga's arrival to explain everything. This time, however, I decided to make my own decision.

"Re... " Sapa Rina smiled kindly.

"Ma, pa, there's something I want to talk to you about" I said cautiously.

Rina and Rudi looked at each other. They looked astonished because only this time did I behave like this.

"What do you want to talk about? Come sit down" said Rudi softly.

I sat in front of my two in-laws.

"What do you want to say, son?" Ask Rina.

I'm still quiet. My lips still feel heavy to say what I meant to see them this morning. I continued to play my fingers to relieve the anxiety in my heart. My heart and feelings are not in line. Where this heart still expects Arga to come see me explains all of it. However, my feelings are tired with all his behavior that always gives me hope. Getting me hurt again.

"What do you want to say, son?" Ask Rudi again.

I took a deep breath and exhaled strongly to calm the uneasiness in my heart and to vent to say what I meant this morning.

"Ma, pa earlier I want to apologize to you if my decision makes you disappointed" said the end of his courage.

Rudi and Rina looked at each other. They were still astonished by my unclear words.

"Ma, pa, I've been thinking about this matter well and I've decided that I want to leave this house" I said again.

Rina and Rudi looked shocked at my sudden decision.

"Ma, I'm really sorry if this decision disappointed you. But I can't survive here anymore ma, pa. So I begged my mom and dad to give me permission to leave this house" I said, pleading with my parents-in-law.

"Mama and papa please let me go yes" I said softly.

"What are you talking about, Rea, where are you going? Your house is here" said Rudi.

"Ma, I can't stand all this anymore. I've run out of patience. Arga never thought about my feelings at all. She'd rather be with Sandra and not care about me. My feelings are very broken" said I shed tears.

"It's been almost a year since I've been running all this with patience. I was patient with Arga's cold attitude towards me. However, this time I can not survive anymore ma, pa" added me again.

"Rea, can you leave mom in this house? Arga left this house. And now, you want to go too? Mama there are no more friends in this house, son" Rina was also saddened by my decision.

"Ma, I'm sorry. Please mom understand my situation. I can no longer afford ma. I want to get out of here, calm down and forget all this sadness" I said tightly grasping my mother-in-law's hand to reassure her.

"But I promise you, I'll keep contacting you. I won't forget my mom and dad" I said again.

"Son, Mama is sorry for Arga's attitude towards you. Mama can't if you leave this house for good" said Rina.

"Or don't you just go to calm down with a vacation of a few weeks to think about this all ripe ya. After that you return to this house" added again.

"Yes son, if you go on vacation, papa and mama will permit you" added Rudi.

"Ma, pa I want to get away from here. I want to forget all this sadness" I said again.

"Rea, whatever it is, you have to wait for Arga to come back here first and you try to talk this out with him. Maybe he didn't mean to talk like that. Maybe there was an explanation for himself. So you have to wait for him first son" said Rudi.

"Pa, it's been two weeks since I've been waiting for an explanation from Arga. But he never came to see me to explain all this" I said again with a pain in my heart.

"Maybe Arga's right this is an error" added me again.

"Patience first Rea don't you make rash decisions. Wait for Arga to come home first" said Rudi.

I could only silently think about all the words of my husband.

"Let Arga persuade Sandra. Maybe this is the best. Arga loves Sandra. If I were still here, it would make their household a problem. I feel so wrong about Sandra. And I don't want Sandra and Arga to feel so wrong about me either" I said.

"Mama, papa, if this is a mistake, why should this error continue? I asked my mom and dad to understand how I felt. I can't keep living here. This will all make me feel hurt" I begged my two in-laws.

"Rea, you can't go without permission from Arga" Rudi said.

"Pa, all this time Arga never thought of me as his wife pa. Maybe he wanted me to go, just that he didn't know what to do" I said.

"Or not, you try Arga's phone and talk about this" suggested Rudi again.

"Pa, the phone from papa and Mama Arga didn't pick her up. What else from me pa"

"Patience first Rea, try to talk about this well with Arga"

"Pa, there's nothing to talk about anymore. If Arga really needed to talk and explain everything to me, he would have come here from yesterday. But until now, Arga did not appear. Right now I just need some alone time. Please ma, please let me go" Please ask me again.

"Pa, ma please let me go. The longer I stay in this house, the more crazy I get. I just want to get away from Arga's life, I want to find tranquility" added me again.

"I want to start my new life"

"How do you and Arga relate?" Ask Rudi.

"All decisions are in Arga's hands. Whatever the decision will be, I will accept" added me again.

Right now it is only Rudi who speaks a lot. While Rina just kept quiet in sadness to see me who was going to leave the house.

"Pa, what else am I in this house for? This feeling gets hurt even more if I'm still here. Please understand" My request is full of hope.

"I want to leave all this behind, for my future. The future of Arga. For Arga and Sandra's wedding. They deserve to be happy for me"

"Surely papa did not permit you to leave this house. But papa also does not want to see you constantly like this. Papa apologizes for what happened to you Papa also apologizes on behalf of Arga for making you like this. Papa feels guilty about all this"

"Father" I said at the feet of my in-laws.

"Papa don't talk like that. What happened to me and Arga was already the destiny of that power. I never blamed anyone for any of this" I kissed the back of my father-in-law's hand.

This heart really feels bad if my father-in-law blames himself like this.

"Papa know you're suffering, son. Now, papa's handing her all to your decision. You've suffered too long, son. So papa will accept all the decisions from you son" said my father-in-law again.

"Papa does not want you to survive and continue to suffer like this" he added.

I looked at my mother-in-law who had just fallen silent and let out her tears.

"Mama, you're not mad at me, are you?" Ask me carefully.

"Mama's never mad at you, son. You should know, mama loves you very much" said Rina in tears.

"Ma...." I said back at my in-laws' feet.

"I love my mom and dad too. Mom and Dad treated me like my own son. Thank you for all the kindness of mom and dad" I said again kissing the back of my two-in-law's hands.

"Rea" said Rina raising my face. Looked at my eyes deeply.

"You have to promise me Mama. You will be back in this house. You just go for a minute, son" said Rina softly. His tone was full of hope.

"I promise you, I'll always call you. I won't forget my mom and dad" I said with confidence.

My mother-in-law hugged me tightly. The hug didn't seem to let me out of the house.

***

Arga looked dreamy her gaze blankly forward.

"You why Ga?" Tanya Putra reprimanded Arga who indeed they had promised to meet at a cafe.

Arga just kept silent did not answer.

"Ga, you're back to what you used to be. I just saw you smiling to yourself, now daydreaming again" said the Son.

Arga took a deep breath and in a strong exhalation.

"At this moment my mind is twisted" Arga said.

"Eggly? Kelut why?" Ask Son.

"I'm in love with Rea now. My heart really loves him"

"Good dong. Isn't that good news anyway Why are you daydreaming like this? Like a lot of thoughts" said the Son again.

"What makes me think this is Sandra's problem. I don't know where he is now. It's been two weeks I've been looking for her but I haven't seen her" Arga said again.

"What's really going on?" Ask Arga.

"I can't lie about my feelings for Rea right now. But I knew Sandra wouldn't accept any of this" Arga said.

"Don't Sandra accept that you and Rea are husband and wife. So he can't ban your feelings for Rea"

"Before I married Sandra I promised her that Rea and I would have no feelings and nothing would happen between us" Arga said.

"The only problem right now is that I'm in love with Rea. That's the problem now" added Arga.

"So that's the problem Sandra already knew?"

"Sandra saw me hugging Rea. That's what made her angry and disappear like this"

"And now, I don't know where he is right now. And what are doing right now. Is he good, or isn't there. I'm confused to find her where else" added Arga.

"Hm... It is also difficult for your problems" said the Son thought.

***

Before I left the house, I had made two letters to Arga and Sandra. This time my resolve was to leave all this sadness so that I could start a new life for my future.

It was heavy to leave that house. Where my two parents love me so much. Treat me full of warmth worthy of his own son.

Although there are bitter memories in the house with Arga, there are also beautiful memories that make me smile at myself if I remember the event.

I'm standing in the courtyard of Arga's house. I looked at the beautiful house before I left.

All those sweet memories play in my memory. Where when Arga gave me bread for breakfast and the bread was still half I kept in my room. Although the bread was moldy, but still when I saw the bread my heart was happy. And there are still many sweet memories that continue to spin in my memory at that time.

After being satisfied to look at the house as an expression of goodbye, I went riding my motorcycle.

I don't know where to go, which is clear I want to leave Arga. And I don't want to go home to my parents in the village either. I'm not ready to be attacked question after question later by my parents.

Right now, I just want to be alone first to calm my heart. If I'm ready later, then I'll go home to my parents in the village.