Love Coiled Stains

Civet cat

Arga and Sandra's wedding day has arrived. I saw Arga and Sandra together with a sad look.

Couldn't watch the painful scene any longer, I'd rather get out of the hotel room used for their wedding reception.

Seeing that, Rina followed me.

I wept. This heart is wounded. And now Arga doused it with salt water.

The more painful, the more this heartache.

"Oh my God, was my decision wrong? Am I willing to face the two of them who are always romantic in front of me? When coupled like this has made this heart hurt. What else, what else?" My words cannot continue my words. I covered my wet face with tears.

"Rea, why here" said Rina.

"Ma" I hugged my mother-in-law Rina.

"Are you sad to see Arga and Sandra? If this is making you sick, why are you letting this happen?"

"Ma, what can I do? I can't possibly stand in the way of Arga's happiness with Sandra. I was the third person to separate them. Especially now that Sandra has decided and she has sacrificed to embrace our common faith. So there's no way that I don't approve of their relationship if it's going to make Arga happy, God willing I'll be sincere" I said even with a heavy heart..

No woman in this world would be willing to be combined. Even though the woman does not love her husband, she will not want to be combined. Sharing love with husband with other women.

"Yes Rea, if you can't see Arga and Sandra together like this, you better go home. Than your heart the more pain mending you at home rest. During this time also been working hard to prepare for the wedding of Sandra and Arga" Saran Rina.

"Yes ma, I'll just go home. Please tell papa I go home first" I said.

***

"Rea" Tegur Arga came into my room. Well, tonight was her first night with Sandra. So I decided to move rooms. The room is opposite her room Arga on the top floor.

"Hmm" I replied, turning my back to Arga. Well I don't want Arga to see me on this sadness sheet. I don't want Arga to know that I have love and affection for him.

Arga sat down beside me to see my face.

However, I changed my position to keep my back to Arga.

"Why?" Ask me.

"Thank you" he said.

"For what?"

"Because you've allowed me to marry Sandra"

I'm nodding.

"When you asked permission to go out to meet Sandra, what were you talking about? And how can you convince Sandra that she's getting sure to marry me. Though all this time he always fixed his stance to his belief and also he was too busy to work so as not to think about getting married. But you've made him change his mind. Once again thank you for bringing me together with Sandra. And you have also made papa and mama sure to approve our relationship" said Arga.

I smiled blandly at Arga's words just now.

"Sama-sama" I said.

"Emang, what did you say to Sandra?"

"Just talk normally. Don't talk about it anymore. Better, you go back to your room. Poor Sandra's waiting for you. It's night after night I want to sleep" I said.

"Yes, I went to the room first. Have a good rest" he said softly to me.

Back the bland smile engraved on my lips.

I didn't feel some clear water running down my cheek. Arga's words just back hurt me. Maybe you think I'm the hypocrite in the world.

I admit that I am a hypocrite. In front of Arga, I let Arga go with Sandra..But honestly this heart can't accept all of it.

But what should I do? I can't possibly force Arga to love me whereas I know her heart and feelings belong only to Sandra.

***

"O Allah, if Arga is indeed in destiny to be a match with me, and if my soul mate with Arga is still long, then be this patience, strengthen this heart. But if not, I beg you, sincerely this heart to forget. Strain this heart that has feelings of love and affection for him. Aamin" My prayers are in the third night.

***

"Arga, where's Rea, why doesn't he come eat with us?" Ask Rudi while they are having dinner together.

"Don't know in the room maybe" he said.

"Why don't you take her out to eat together?" Ask Rina.

Arga shrugged both of his shoulders.

"Sandra, still haven't come home?" Ask Rudi again.

Arga shook his head.

"There's work to be done tonight" Arga said.

Rudi breathed his heavy breath.

"If Sandra cannot accompany you to eat, ask Rea to accompany you" suggested Rudi.

"If Rea did know her duty as a wife, she would have come down and accompanied me to a meal. Not even staying in the room" said Arga seemed annoyed because his papa was always talking about me.

"I'm full ma, pa, I went into the room first huh" he said again.

***

Our views met, when I was about to get out of the room and Arga went into his room. Quickly I turned my gaze in the other direction so that Arga could not read the contents of my heart that was rumbling when he looked at her.

I immediately passed in front of him and went down the stairs and said a word to him.

"Non Rea" asked Bik Ina.

"Eh, bik"

"Non-female?" Ask bik Ina.

"You make a tea hanget only bik" I said.

"Non's eating?"

I'm shaking.

"Non wants to eat? I was eating it right now"

"Oh, don't thank me I'm not hungry. Later if I'm hungry, let me heat up the food" I replied.

"Big"

"Yes Non"

"Sandra's home?"

"Not yet non, Mr. Arga had dinner only with his mother and father" replied bik Ina.

I nodded in understanding.

***

"Sitting outside? Want a sambet?" Tegur Arga as I sat on the chair that was on the second floor balcony.

"Ga, what's the matter?" I asked back.

"Take a question back" he said.

I smiled wryly.

"What about sitting here at night?"

"Just get some fresh air" I said.

"Finding the wind later tonight. kesambet" he said.

I looked in annoyance at Arga.

"Nights like this are not talking" My mind feels creepy.

"Why look at me like that? You must be scared, right?"

I'm clucking.

"Don't say anything that's not right" I said.

"Why not eat together?" Ask Arga.

"I'm not hungry" I replied.

"Aren't you hungry, or afraid of feeling hurt when I'm with Sandra?" His words are true there is.

"No, just not hungry" I lied.

"When I got married to Sandra, you were rarely seen in this house. Aren't you bored in the room?" Ask Arga.

I shake my head.

"You are like a ferret" he said.

"Easels?" Ask me.

"Yes weasel. Tuh look. When it's been a night like this, people are all asleep, you just came out of the room looking for food. Like him I should call you a ferret" said Arga again.

"Yes, you chameleon" I said, not to lose.

"What's? What do you call me?"

"Bunglon" I said.

"The chameleon anyway"

"Yes, you are a chameleon. A moment good, a moment mieselin. Change" I said.

Now it's Arga's turn to cluck.

"Why did you come here? Sleep there. Poor wife is waiting for you in the room" I said.

Arga breathed his heavy breath.

"Sandra hasn't come home yet. There is still work to be done tonight" replied Arga looking disappointed.

I nodded in understanding.

***

"Pa, ma, tomorrow Sandra and I will go on a honeymoon to Bali" Arga said as they ate breakfast.

"Have you been gone?" Ask Rina.

"About a week" answered Arga.

"Oh, yes, please" replied Rudi.

***

"Arga, can I say something?" Ask me as Arga sits in the back of the yard.

"What?"

"I want permission to work" I replied.

"Working?"

"Yes, I'm looking for a job back. I want to find my own life. I also have my own needs. So I need a job to make money" I said.

"You don't have to work. You're in the house! I can still finance your needs. Every month I will give you a check so you can buy your needs" said Arga is still busy with his cellphone.

"But I want to make my own money. I don't want to depend on you and your family. So my permission is to work" I said again.

"No need, you're at home. I don't allow you to work" Arga said passing from before me.

"Basic chameleon. Act as they please. Why keep me locked up" I said.

"What?" Ask Arga to hear what I just said.

I just kept my head down and couldn't answer with my face still bent.

"Eh, I didn't lock you up huh. You can still roam as freely as you can in this house" he said in self-defense.

"But still.... "

"Already" Cut it.

"Once I say I can't stay. The point of not wearing a comma" he said again left me in frustration.

Back I'm pissed.

"Nyebelin that's really Arga. Most like to act as he pleases" My inner self.

***

"Bik" I said.

"Yes non"

"So Sandra's already gone to work?" Ask me.

"Lo non, do not know yes, this morning non Sandra same Mr. Arga went to Bali for his honeymoon" replied bik Ina.

"To Bali?"

"Yes non. Don't know, huh? Mr Arga didn't tell non Rea?" Ask bik Ina.

I shake my head.

"So meaningless am I in your life Ga? Until you leave you won't tell me" My inner self.

"Non, why daydream?"

"So, my bik. Where's mommy?"

"Mama there goes arisan with her friends. If you go to sports his word" said bik Ina.

Again, I just nodded my head.

***

"Assalamualaikum buk" I said when I contacted my mother who was in the village..

"Waalaikumsalam son" answered my mother.

"Why buk?"

"Just finished cooking son"

"How are you?" Ask my mother.

"Alhamdulillah healthy buk. Mom and dad, how are you?" I'm back to asking.

"Thank God be good too son"

"Where's buk's dad?"

"There's in the garden next to his house. Want to talk to dad?"

"Eh, don't open it. Dad's busy too. I don't want to disturb him. Greetings to Dad, buk. Tell me I miss you both" I said with tears streaming down my cheeks. I miss both my parents in the village.

I want to feel like I'm coming home to them. Tell me everything that happened in my life with them.

But I canceled my intention because I didn't want my parents to worry about me being here.

"Son, how did Arga treat you now has he started to open his heart and can accept you?" Ask my mother carefully.

I was shocked to hear my mother's words. I was confused as to what to answer.. Do I have to tell you that I'm being mixed right now. Or I could just harbor all these feelings and sadness of my own.

"Rea, why are you quiet?" Are you not happy? Is Arga still unable to accept you?" Mom asked me carefully.

"No, ma'am, thank God Arga is now starting to open up to me slowly he can accept me" I replied lying.

"That's exactly what, son? Thank God I am happy to hear it" said my mother.

"Every finished prayer mother always pray that you there are always protected by Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala and Arga can also soften his heart to accept you as his wife" he added.

"Aamiinu. Thanks to buk. Mother's prayer is very I need right here. don't stop doain me yes ma'am because the mother's prayer will be quickly worshiped with God" said I again.

"Yes son, I will always pray for you. Whatever is best for you and your father will also surely wish you and Arga the best"

I smiled happily at the words from my mother that could always make my heart feel calm.

"Mom, I miss my mom and dad so much that I want to go back to the village. I miss Mom's cooking, I miss Mom's hugs, I miss talking to Mom" I said.

"If so you come home here we gather together again yes for a few days" Pinta my mother.

"Honestly, I miss you too. And I'm also sure your father must be very upset with you"

"Can't be ma'am, I can't go home alone without Arga's permission. Arga is busy with her work at the office. There's still a lot of work to be done in the office. And I couldn't possibly go home alone. She definitely won't let me go home alone to the village" I obviously lied.

"I'm sorry mom, I lied to you. There's no way I'm telling you that Arga is on his honeymoon with his second wife. I'm sure Mom and Dad will be worried about me here. Alngkah I better hide all this so that mom and dad do not think about my situation here. And I wouldn't be able to go back there alone without Arga. Because I'm sure mom and dad will think me and Arga are still the same way they used to be" My inner self feels guilty for lying to the person who's been pregnant and raising me all along.

"Later if Arga has time, he and I will definitely go back to the village. I will definitely bring Arga to our village so that he knows our village is so beautiful" I said giving reasons that I thought could make my mother feel calm.

"Yes son, I pray that Arga's work will be finished well, son. And may you be happy all the time. Aamiin" My mother's prayer.

"Aamiin" I answered with tears.

"Yes, I closed the phone first. I'm going to the kitchen to help me cook" I said, giving an excuse.

"Yes boy. Assalamualaikum"

"Waalaikumsalam" I closed my phone and cried in my silence. I don't want you to know that I'm crying. I couldn't hold back the tears on my cheeks. So I decided to hang up from my mom.