Love And Tears

I'm Losing

Adam really did not know how to respond with the words that Amira had just said, if asked if he was hurt it is certain if asked if he was disappointed it certainly exists but not addressed to Amira but to himself.

It is natural that a woman will never be willing to forgive the mistakes of her own partner if the partner is too much and also In incising the Wound, the pain may one day disappear and the wound will one day be healed but Believe me the scar will never be lost even though it has been tried in various ways for the extreme and ordinary also that requires such a large expenditure.

Amira knows that second-chance language is always bound to be in a relationship, but what if that language doesn't apply to you who've really been hurt.

Lying to say that being okay is very unlikely, because when you recall mistakes that have occurred, the atmosphere will never be okay and the discussion always inevitably leads in such a direction.

"Is this your decision and will never change again, Could it be that we have to get here alone there is no new sheet that we both have to write to fix everything? "asked Adam even though the possibility was never again in their relationship.

Amira laughed cynically because she thought the response given by Adam was too much, even arguably like someone who begged for something but never flashback his mistakes in the past, if everyone is like this then it is certain that many relationships will be broken and many women's hearts will be completely broken and shapeless and many households will be forced to stand without The strong foundation is loyalty and honesty and the abundance of affection from the partner himself.

"What language do you think I should speak, you have to use Wonderland so you understand that I don't want to and there's no intention of coming back? Being someone is not too selfish and wants to be followed all his will even though it does not make sense though, because living in this world is only once and people do not want in his life that is only one time it must be disappointed constantly and also every day there is no such thing as the pleasure there is only suffering and also the burden of the mind is very very very torturous soul and also the mind! "said Amira and this time made Adam no longer know what to do Because it was Free he pleaded and also memelas so very because it seems like no one will follow whatever he wants and they feel very far away.

"Can we just cancel the divorce suit and it doesn't matter that we live away the important thing is still tied up in marriage, so that the day after tomorrow when we step still remember that we still have the status of a family and so the mistakes like I did yesterday will never be repeated? "adam's blinking bid made Amira frown at being confused by what the man was saying as if something was so absurd.

"do you realize what was said? You think there's a fool to play with like you said, moreover, this marriage is not something to be played with and also not something that can make you not have to think about this and that? I've been trying to patiently talk to you, but how do you seem to not understand at all what I want and also what I say? "ask Amira who is no longer out of thought with the direction of Adam's thinking that is very unreasonable and also impressed Yes like a person who no longer understands what the rules of marriage are.

"with us moving away and also living as strangers Like not knowing each other before it was already a sin loh in a marriage, Moreover, we consciously want to toy with marriage that just want to keep a Toxic relationship like this lasting and also survive even though there is no such thing as inner living and so there is no such thing as attention and responsibility or whatever! "Amira felt like an impromptu preacher who said something hoping that the interlocutor understood yes Although impressed it seemed impossible at all because Adam felt it was just reversing his request in one point is to stay in his marriage with Amira even though Amira is hurt and realized by the man.

"i know what the basics of marriage are because before marriage we must have received advice and also words that can make us understand about marriage from people who are experts, he said, it's just that I don't want my son to be born with our divorced status I want him to be born our status is still intact as a married couple Then after that it's up to you to say no problem. "tell Adam.

amira was eager to laugh at what Adam was saying as if something she thought was very unreasonable and also over-examined, the man should have before doing everything was aware of what the consequences would be if he committed a sin that is not heeded by religion.

"Now I want to ask you about when you had an affair with Franda, there was never me in your mind or never did you imagine How would I feel if you found out? "amira asked with her face reddened and her teary eyes a Middle man held back his tears because Adam did not understand what he wanted and also did not understand his mood.

Adam rubbed his face rough because it was from the beginning when he cheated there was no name Amira in his life at that time, because at that time he felt that Amira was a woman who made his life restrained and not free at all, therefore he strongly rejected the arranged marriage made by his parents.

But the feeling of Loss began to be present when Amira had left her and when she was alone in the house they were both there where different feelings suddenly raged, and he finally realized that actually the presence of Amira had changed everything in his life only that he regretted because it was too late to realize the feeling.

"I actually have no face to answer the question from you earlier because that is the fact that when I commit sin there is never any intention to remember you for a second, but believe me now that I'm so sorry for what I've done and promise never to repeat that again is important the point Please give me a chance once again! "it was Adam's clear that maybe Amira could understand.

"Yes that's how people sometimes have made mistakes then regret from behind when in fact it is very late and also no use at all, that's why I'll talk from the beginning if you like this are just a waste of energy and thoughts because I'll never forgive you! therefore it is better not to waste energy then do not spend your living costs with something that is not important, you better just go back to your parents' house to improve your attitude from now on try not to repeat the same mistake so that everyone believes that you have the intention to change! "ink Amira again hope this time there is no longer a bargain from Adam because he was also tired of talking from earlier but no one was pestering at all.

"if for example I stay here until you give birth it doesn't seem like a problem, so that we can complement each other and also I can help every deficiency that you face That way I feel that my life is really useful for my own family. "persuading Adam again made Amira want to throw the man's head with the sandal of the house he was wearing because from that it seemed not to understand what he wanted.

"I have said that it is better for you to return to the homeland to take care of our divorce so that the problem between you and me will also be resolved at that time, it is not even like the current hobby is just bargaining as if I am an item that you can play to and fro at will. "omel Amira is upset.

"I did all this because I wanted to be responsible with you two, so please appreciate what I want and also I ask for because anyway as a man I must not be selfish and also be a useless man for his own family. "obviously Adam hoped that Amir would understand his purpose in doing all this but Believe Amira who has been veiled by hatred whatever done by Adam will never be appreciated at all because he thinks it is only wasting energy and also making his mind slightly damaged.

"it seems that your mind is indeed more problematic because I want to explain at length it seems that you do not understand at all, because the proof you from earlier said it only leads to that Though I reply about our divorce which will be registered by both your parents together with mother and we only accept the net only don't you? "asked Amira emotions made Adam speechless no longer know how to behave and his mind seemed to be no longer usable so that his body immediately collapsed back then not because it was acting but because of the surprise and also something that he had never been before.

"God why did he faint again? come on you who sit there Bengong immediately take care of your master this bring back into my room, Then after that stay standing next to him because I don't think he's sick but shocked by what I said and also what he heard!" amira's order was upset making Rangga could only be speechless and not dare to refute the woman's words because it seemed so sensitive today.

"Master if you really haven't been able to meet the Madam, it's better not to push yourself like this, there is a will really provoke his emotions Even though you yourself know that the emotions of pregnant women are sometimes unstable!" asked Rangga slowly who sounded like a person who was whispering because it was impossible also because what he said was intentional so that Amira also listened because it would automatically be discovered if actually Adam wanted to they want to change and improve their relationship.

Amira bought to go fetch some water and drink it to refresh her mind from earlier it was very tangled, because the problem with Adam is not there because of the end even the existing ones even increase in number and make him confused must solve it in a way moreover.

"She Why do I have to come back here Why not go back to the homeland where her mother and father were there too, the period of pain continues from yesterday to today Even though he knows that I also have to work and cannot 100% take care of his existence here which only makes others feel troubled."omel Amira slowly makes Surti who is also heading to the kitchen can only rub the shoulder of his master was slowly because it looks too kesapean with all the problems that come in a row and not to mention the way out which has not been obtained at all due to the condition experienced by Amira who he is sure that surely the woman will never stop to think about everything.

"That problem sometimes comes at the wrong time but mostly just to test our patience it gets to where and about to complain or not, therefore it is better Mbaknya Patience and later say again if indeed Mr. Adamnya already aware and maybe by talking slowly he will understand what is meant!"persuaded Surti to hope that Amira understood what he said and so it is possible that Amira's mind will be calmer.

Amira no longer knew what to say to Surti just now because he thought Everyone would have the same thought but they were never in his position, want to be heard only but no intention to listen to others make everyone who is near the man would be tired also someday if told to be patient at all times and choose just to give up.

"i don't seem to have any intention of talking about him Bi because it must just make you tired because the person will never understand what we are saying, Just leave it like this because I stayed in the initial position of wanting us to divorce even though he wanted to force me in any way to persuade me anyway because I would never be influenced to return to a difficult life and also a life full of lies with men who seem forced to like me. "obviously Amira chose to go make sure Adam's condition if there was a change then he would tell them to come out because he wanted to rest at this time as well.

"How is he, if there has been a change Yes have gone home so maybe he can be more comfortable and also spacious stay at home? cause I don't dare to keep him here anyway. Because later he will be afraid of misunderstanding and thinking that is not, but you know for yourself I want my life to be calmer there is no interference at all. Especially with my past people who I want to forget and seem unable to do so, if your master were to remain in this place and still feel the truest self and want me to forgive him! "obviously Amira.