Love And Ambition (Spasibo Iyubimyy)

Disconnecting

*Flashback College Time

"Vi, do you love me?" Ask Lian that afternoon. I looked at him and smiled. "You still doubt me?" Lian bowed. He approached me who was sitting on a chair in the dorm room and hugged me tightly. I started to feel strange about her behavior. His embrace was tight and his breathing sounded heavy. "An, you got a problem?" I asked full of search. I took off his embrace and looked into his eyes deeply. He also looked at me with a glare. "What's wrong? You're the 2 freaks gini?" I tried softly again. He put his hand around my waist. "Ga what's up2, baby." He smiles. But that smile seemed forced. My gut says something's wrong. "An, comeon. Tell me. The thesis? The family? or me? or the other one? Come onl. I'm your boyfriend. I'm not someone else. We promise to always share our grief. Yeah, right?" Ask me bertubi2 want to know. He still smiled fakely. "Ga is apa2, baby. Deg. honey? why did he call me darling? This is the first time. I'm really happy, but how does it feel like something's weird?! "Darling?" I still look at him in wonder. "Hmm..Why can't I call you baby?" She started stroking my hair 2 gently, kissing my forehead then my lips. Being treated like that, I felt something was wrong. "An, you're weird to know, tonight. Are you sick?" investigate, while breaking out of his arms and then walking to bed. He sat in the chair I was in. He's bowed. " An, say! What the hell's going on? You don't shut up. I don't like you this way, you're scaring me." My voice started to rise. He approached me again and held my hands and stroked my hair again. "Vi, I love you." Only that word came out of his mouth and then his lips came back to my lips. I pushed her body, until her kiss came off. "You think I can enjoy this kiss? Do you think I am calm right now? You're weird, your actions are weird today. What's up?" My eyes are starting to look 2. "You sick? Seriously ill? Lian!! tell me, what's going on. Please!!!" My tears are unbearable. Lian's hand held onto my cheek and wiped away the tears that had fallen on her. I brushed. "Lian, speak up. or." said 2 I stopped and looked at him sharply. "Do you want to leave me? Aren't you?!" I put my face closer to his face still looking at him deeply. He again2 kissed me. This time the kiss was a bit wild.he pressed my head and stuck out his tongue my mouth, I spontaneously opened my mouth and replied to the stick. Long time we made out. His hands started reaching out to my sensitive 2 part2 and then putting his hands into my shirt, I gasped in shock and pushed his body strong. Kisses slipped. He looked at me for a moment and then fell down. I'm getting less calm. I don't know why I want to cry so much. His attitude is breaking my heart. I know something's wrong with him. "Vi, I love you." Again2 sacred kata2 it. My heart no longer thumped2 when I heard it, but my heart ached. Kata2 was implying a farewell message to me. "I know that, An. I love you. You know, right? So what's the problem?" I said later. "I love you. But I can't be with you, now". Deg. My heart stopped hearing it. My tongue was falling for a moment. "What do you mean?!!" The words spontaneously came out of my mouth. "Vi, I'm sorry. I. I. I. We have to separate. This relationship, our relationship can't be continued." Said heavy. It felt like there was lightning striking me at that moment, my tears were pouring out, my chest was tight. I'm limp. "Why? Am I wrong? Is our relationship wrong?" I asked as hard as I could. Lian stood up from her seat, then said the heart-piercing word2, "I was in an accident." I immediately understood her point. "Who?" the question was answered without me noticing. "Mala." Deg. A familiar name in my ear. Popular student at the Faculty of Engineering. Beautiful is sure. Body as a model. In addition, his family background is not playing. I'm not a what2 compared to him. My heart is like a slit. Removed my defenses. My tears are pouring. I want to scream so2nya. "Go from before me!!" Hardikku. I don't want to hear it anymore. My heart hurts like a razor. Bemoan. My brain is spinning, my head is heavy. Still had my eyes see the shadow of Lian disappear from behind the door, at that moment I was unconscious.