Life is a Fight

The Heart Wound Is Back

Azan at dawn sounded vague, Umi and her three children had been awake since 10 minutes earlier because of the sound of an alarm from Abizar's phone. They immediately prayed together.

"Mbak Fira spent this cooking with Adik ya, the school is off," said Umi shortly after finishing the prayer.

"Where are you going?" ask Syakilla.

"Not anywhere dear, let the girls Umi is on a cooking pinter when married later," said Umi while rubbing her daughter's head.

"Mi, Izar sleeps again, yes, wake up at 7" he asked his son.

"Lo emang Mas Izar work? It's a school holiday" Fira protested.

"At Fira's holiday, at school there's a registration activity." Izar replied while dropping his body near Umi.

"Oh yes deng," Fira answered with a smile.

"Swipe here Mas, Umi incandescent," said Umi asking Izar closer.

"Mi's back, really big pegel." replied Izar as he held her back.

Umi immediately massaged the back of her beloved son. Only in that way Umi can ease the heavy burden of her son.

"Let's cook immediately, later Mas Izar can not bring stock if bad luck."

"Ready Umiku," Fira replied as she walked closer to the cooking place.

Fira and Killa were busy processing the ingredients, occasionally they joked with laughter while Umi continued to massage her son even though he had fallen asleep.

"Honey don't be hard, Mas Izar will wake up," Umi reminded.

Fira and Killa said, they stopped their laughter.

After breakfast was ready, Umi immediately woke Abizar up for breakfast then he immediately took a shower and prepared to leave for work.

The first day in the reception of new learners, makes Izar more busy with his work than ordinary days.

Hundreds of applicants and their attendants filled the school hall.

Only one that Izar imagined while wiping the window glass in front of the main door of the school, after the registration closed later, dzuhur, must be the hall becomes dirtier than usual to see many small children and then tares bring various kinds of food and drinks into the hall to accompany new prospective students.

"Not yet to start work already pegel-pegel first taste," chirped one of his coworkers saw ice cream that fell on the floor and then stepped on by a person who passed by.

"That's how we keep getting Mas's money" he replied with a soft laugh.

Izar returned with his job while his partner cleaned up the ice cream spill on the front floor of the hall.

A moment passed, Abizar was surprised by someone's voice.

"Excuse me, just ask," said the woman behind Izar.

Instantly he turned his head, how surprised Izar was to see who greeted him.

"B ... Mother ... " said Izar.

He who was in front of him was Bu Halimah, one of his favorite lecturers on campus.

"Lo Abizar right? You work here?" ask her with a look of wonder.

"Yes Ma'am,"

"Pantesan never went to college Mom," he replied by staring at the student.

"What's up, son? Why did Abizar quit college? Wasn't .... " Mrs Halimah hung her words but she seemed to know the direction of the beautiful lecturer's conversation.

"It's a long story, Mom. Oh, yes, what did you want to ask?" tanya Izar switched the conversation.

"Where would I ask for a medical check-up?"

"Mother is straight, until the end of this road will turn left, the health test is in room 9 but before taking the queue first in the hall," replied Izar directing his lecturer who was seen holding his son.

"Thank you, oh yes I wait for Mas Izar on campus for clarity of his lecture for how," he said firmly.

Without a definite answer, Izar just smiled. Deep down he still wanted to continue his education but it seemed he had to bury his hopes for the survival of the three women he loved so much at home.

Time passed, Izar's turmoil became more and more after his meeting with one of the lecturers on his campus. Especially today Izar deliberately avoids some students he knows are dropping off relatives to enroll in the school where Izar works.

"How lucky are you who can still feel the pleasure of education," inner Izar stared at some young man wearing an alma mater of a University who was joking with laughter at the caffe near the highway as he walked home from work this afternoon.

Towards the night Izar lay down his body near Syafira and Syakilla who were reading the Qur'an after the Isha prayer. His shadow panted far about the longing with the world of education. I don't know what made him want to be a student again.

"Mas," call Umi slowly.

"Yes Mi," he answered looking into Uminya's shady eyes.

"Why?" tanya Umi whispered in her son's ear because Syafira and Syakilla were teaching.

Izar just shook his head while holding his hand Uminya occasionally he kissed the hand of his beloved woman.

Just now the two beautiful girls finished reading the qur'an heard a person knocking on the door of his house.

Syafira immediately stood up because Abizar was leaning spoiled on his lap.

He was surprised to see who came to his house tonight.

"What's wrong?" syafira said ketus on the doorstep.

"May ... Honey, who's coming, son? Tell her to come in" said Umi, seeing her daughter greeting at the door.

"No need Mi," he answered ketus make Umi curious.

Umi immediately moved closer to his daughter and he was no less surprised by a person who met at his home.

"Abizar is?" he asked Umi and Syafira.

"There, please come in," Umi said as she turned her eyes.

"Don't, on the porch, the room will be cramped later sultry," replied Syafira still ketus.

"Son,"

"No papa, just call Abizar."

"Mas Izar here son," call Umi slowly.

Izar stood towards the door along with Syakilla out of curiosity as to who had come.

"Abi .." said Izar and Killa together.

"Let's talk, son," said Umi looking at her son.

"Please enter Bi,"

"Don't" stop Fira again.

"Fira! It can't be so, it's not polite" Izar said, unintentionally yelling at his sister.

Fira was silent, the clear grains in her eyes were flowing without being prevented anymore. All this time the girl was never once snapped by Abizar.

Fira immediately hugged Umi with an unstoppable sobbing sound. Umi welcomes her daughter's embrace and brings her in with Syakilla while Izar talks to Abi on the porch of the house.

"Fira Darling, I'm sorry Izar ya son. Mas unintentionally snapped at Syafira," Umi said as she pressed her lips against Syafira's cheek wet with tears.

Fira did not answer he remained with his stuffing. Umi hugged the beautiful girl again. Her heart was pounding, what the boy and ex-husband were talking about.

"Dek Killa out Honey, accompany Mas Izar yes," pinta Umi.

"Syakilla Darling .. beautiful Umi," pinta Umi begs.

Kila approached Abizar.

Abi was talking to Izar.

"Honey," said Izar welcoming his youngest sister.

Unasked, he kissed Abinya's hand even though in his true heart he did not want to do then he sat beside Abizar.

Abi continued his conversation.

"So Abi met Lecturer Izar at the bank of Abi's workplace, in front of friends Abi Lecturer asked why Izar never entered college? Don't embarrass Abi, especially now that she works at Fira's school, what does that mean?" abinya said firmly.

Izar took a deep breath, Syakilla almost replied but was restrained by the older brother.

"Sorry Bi, if Izar embarrasses Abi. Deep down, Izar wants to continue his education but for Izar, Umi and Izar's younger siblings are more important than just Izar's education."

"What do you mean?" abi said changed expression.

"If Izar stays in college, Izar can't keep working, what about Umi and the younger siblings can eat and stay in school?" Izar politely denied.

"Is the money Abi sent not enough? Don't embarrass you" he said loudly to get Umi and Fira out of the room.

"Where to send money? Umi, Fira and Killa can eat together school until now because of the hard work of Mas Izar, has nothing to do with Abi's money," replied Fira now no longer crying.

"Every month Abi sends money to Abizar's account and enough to make school fees for the three of you," he said still maintaining his belief.

Gently Umi replied,

"Try Mas ask his wife, all our ATMs we already live in Mas' house when we leave the house. Mas's wife asked that," she replied gently while hugging Syafira.

Abi was silent, he never knew about it.

"It's Bi, let us be happy in our own way. Abi's presence will only reopen the scar in our hearts. Killa is already familiar with this destiny," said Killa surprised Umi.

"Izar enjoyed this activity Bi, if indeed Abi's wife did not like Abi to support us is no papa, inshaallah Izar is still healthy and strong working for Umi and sisters," the word Izar again surprised Uminya.

Indeed, Umi's heart trembled at the answers of her sons and daughters. Tears almost dripped but Umi was able to hold in front of her ex-husband.

After talking, Abi left his children's rented house. Again he left a scar on the hearts of his three children.

The night is getting late, Umi and her three children are still awake. They were silent with their own thoughts.

"Honey, sorry Mas Izar yes was accidentally snapped Fira," he said while hugging his sister from behind.

Fira was silent even though she let her brother hold her.

"Dec," call Izar now kiss Fira's hair.

Fira did not answer, but her tears came back. Umi hugged Syakilla.

"Fira Darling, don't cry anymore son," said Umi wiping her daughter's tears.

Izar immediately woke up, he felt guilty for yelling at the beautiful girl.

"Mas Izar apologizes Dek," he said again still stroking Syafira's head.

"Fira was not angry with Mas Izar" he said after waking up and sitting next to his older brother.

"Fira why are you crying, honey?" ask again.

"Fira didn't think about why Abi didn't feel at all guilty like that" he said, playing his brother's hand.

"It's over, Ma'am, don't talk about it anymore, darling," pinta Umi gently.

"As Mas Izar said, I will work for you. Even without Abi, Mas will make Umi and you both happy," Izar said looking into Syafira's eyes.

Fira was touched by his heart, although honestly he had been angry at the brother who accidentally snapped at him but Izar's words a moment ago really melted his anger.

"Name ...."

"What's so pretty?" umi answered while approaching her daughter.

"Why Umi can be so good with Abi, even though Abi has hurt Umi's heart" asked Fira.

Killa was also curious about her brother's question, he who almost fell asleep again sat listening to his answer.

"Then Umi should how Nak? If Umi retaliates Abi's bad attitude means what's the difference between Umi and Abi?" answer gently.

"Umiku ..." said Killa immediately hugged Uminya.

The atmosphere was back in silence, Umi was able to juggle the sadness in the hearts of her sons and daughters into a smile even though undeniably only a fake smile they showed.

"The strong, son, be patient and clear with this destiny of God, may there be happiness after this,"

"Amin," answered his three sons compactly.

"You guys aren't sleepy? It's tonight," Umi said.

"Not yet Mi" replied Syafira.

"Mas Izar must be tired all day of work, here Mas Umi incandescentin," he said asking the son to approach.

Izar immediately approached and spread his body in front of Umi. As usual, the soft hand of his beloved woman became his sleep conductor. The touch on his body really felt good.

"Mas, the hygienist is now the system of contracts yes," asked Fira as the sister was enjoying her Uminya massage.

"Yes Dek" he answered, not looking.

"How many months?" he asked again, there was a sense of worry in his heart.

"6 months Honey,"

For a moment Fira was silent, she counted her brother's work.

"That means that in October, Mas will finish working at Fira school, how will Mas continue?"

"Well, that's not how. If it is extended, thank goodness if you do not look for a new job," he replied casually as if there was no burden when in fact since now he had thought about it.

"Find your hard work Mas," Killa commented while massaging her brother's hand.

"There must be sustenance for HIS servants who really try to love, yes Mi," Izar calmed the worries of his sisters.

"God willing, Mas,"

"Are Killa just changing schools Mas, Killa's school is notoriously expensive," replied Killa began to negotiate.

"His quality is not in doubt, either" Izar replied with a smile.

"But Killa is not like before, no papa kok Mas if Killa moved school."

"God willing, there will be sustenance for people who demand knowledge, said lecturer Mas Izar first, the tuition fee has been paid off all right Dek for now?" ask Izar.

"Udah, but Mas yesterday to work in two places. It means that the new school year can be handled first," Killa still maintains his desire.

Umi did not comment, it was true what Killa said. It is indeed a school in a private school that is notoriously expensive in its area. The quality is much better but given the economy now, the school is not the right choice.

"Yes, dear Killa ... I thought about everything. Your task is only to learn and pray Mas Izar to be given health so that the work is smooth. God willing, there is a way" he replied, calming the three women who surrounded him.

Killa smiled in front of Uminya while Fira immediately kissed her brother's forehead.