Life Diary "CACA"

episode 3

february 14th, Today marks the 3rd anniversary of Caca's relationship with Yudha. He who once disappeared unwarranted went without saying goodbye.

"Hahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... " Caca was exhausting his irregular breathing.

The pain when remembered.

Having not been to the store for a few days, Caca was afraid that later he would have to meet someone there, a figure that had haunted his mind. Caca was afraid he could not control himself, when Caca held a cell phone in his hand and looked for Nadin's name contact to call.

Tut Tut Tut

A dial tone that means connected.

"The Assalamualaikum Din."

"Wa'alaikum hail mbak Caca."

"Din mbak tipped the store first yes for a while now, mbak can not go there for a few days."

"Mbak don't worry Nadin will take care of the store, mbak just rest well. If there's anything important you can't call Nadin."

"Laki yesterday, did he still come to the store? " ask Caca a little curious.

"The man was no longer seen. What's wrong, mbak?"

"Good, then Din."

"Oohh" he answered briefly.

"Oh yes Din how the shop is doing these few days" he asked Nadin again.

"The shop is crowded every day just like there is a Caca" replied Nadin.

"Alhamdulillah then mbak very happy to hear it, you have started to be good at managing Din store" he told Nadin.

"That's all thanks to Caca, everything about Caca who taught Nadin, thanks mbak" Nadin replied in a voice so soft.

"Bak closes first Din... Assalamualaikum" Caca hung up.

"Yes mbak Nadin is also busy mbak wa'alaikum salam" ended the call.

(Nadin is very quick to learn, hopefully he will be successful)

Caca could forget everything but not with the man, his name was always ringing in Caca's ear even his face was always reflected in the deep eye that he loved Yudha. It was always that man he thought of.

🎶🎶

I've done everything for you.

I sacrificed everything for you to make you happy.

I've given you whatever you want.

But what I give you is never priceless in your eyes.

When I fought you chose to give up.

When I survive you leave me.

When I get hurt you laugh happily.

You didn't give birth to my heart.

(my song lyrics struggle you to leave behind)

Caca listened to music on his phone in tears.

Cring.. Cring.. Cring..

Incoming call on the phone screen.

"NO NAME" immediately Caca swiped the phone screen to answer.

It turns out that it was Yudha.

"Ca, actually you want to apologize to me. Brother always ignored Caca's struggle, Brother has left Caca without explanation, Brother really feels guilty Ca! Please forgive brother, Brother is indeed a stupid man, please give Brother another chance? " pinta Yudha with a weld.

Tut's.. Tut's.. Tut's..

Caca broke off a short conversation with him. The phone was deactivated so he could not call Caca back.

He grabbed a little diary book in his drawer.

" 📗🖋She is the figure of someone I missed a few months ago.

He is someone I loved a few months ago.

He is someone I admired a few months ago.

The hope of the do'a-do'a request that I make is just to be able to meet him

But as the time went by without him made all the longing, love and admiration for him now fade and instantly turn into HATE. But now he comes back begging and pleading with me.

Cring.. Cring.. Cring..

The same call ringtone and the same phone number are listed on the Caca phone screen

"Sorry Bang, Caca can talk! What was? Caca think everything is very clear Bang" perfect answer said calmly.

"Sorry Brother, Ca! Please love brother opportunity once again, brother promise will make you happy. Brother will be the cause of your happiness, once again forgive brother. Brother please, do you have to kneel before you to get your forgiveness "request Yudha.

"Heemm what other scratches will you carve in the life of Caca? caca better sense you are looking for a female figure who can be more patient about the busy brother, Bang! Please don't disturb Caca's life anymore Bang, it's enough pain that you gave Caca, it's still etched clearly in Caca's memory. Never promise if you're not good at keeping. Never come if you just want to give a wound. If you can't make me happy at least you don't get hurt? " he tried to hold back the tears at that time but what was the power. She's just an ordinary woman who doesn't have the ability to stem tears, seconds when the tears that began to flow she also decided to call him.

Tut's.. Tut's.. Tut's..

Kriiiiiii...

1 Message on the phone screen.

It opened quickly.

"Ca, you wait in the park next to your shop tomorrow finished ba'da dzuhur 🙏🙏 please come, at least meet Brother just once, Brother please be with you. Maybe the pain you feel is still felt at this time but believe that you will remove all the pain. That is a promise to you!! " a short message Yudha sent to Caca.

Caca felt a quarrel with his heart back then, his heart was eager to meet the man while his logic covered all that desire, he said, for some reason after he read a short message from Yudha his heart was a little calm and it felt like he was very eager to meet Yudha again.

Oh heart please help me! I don't want to give him another chance. Hearts do not doubt me.

The night was getting late but the anxiety of his heart was felt and unstoppable. The shadow of his face made Caca's eyes not even feel drowsy at that time, his mind was controlled by the message from Yudha, in the end Caca also relented to follow his heart.

Isn't giving him time to explain it's not so bad, is it?? Alright... I'll meet him tomorrow. Bismillah may I be strong, ahhhh what joke is this? Like superhuman, STRONG.

Hihihi

But still he felt hesitant to give consideration between leaving or returning. If Caca goes he must forget her for good and forget all the memories and pain she once gave him and if she returns he must repeatedly forgive her and take her back with various considerations.

Logic sometimes does not go along with the heart, but at that time Caca chose his heart. The pain of being defeated by such a great love, was beyond belief.

Love can melt a rock so hard.

I can't believe he has to forgive her again. But what's wrong with forgiving is not it sinful if you don't forgive someone only that's stored in Caca's mind at that time, he was just trying to find peace that night.

Anything he'll tell Caca later.

And whatever Caca would ask him, all of it flogging in the woman's mind, his love of Yudha pepper made Caca a weak woman, with which he could easily forgive Yudha.

I'll see him tomorrow**.

Caca's eyes began to fall asleep...

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