Life Diary "CACA"

episode 2

At 13:15 he finished ba'da dzuhur, the male figure sitting in the corner of the shop was still visible and this time he seemed to walk his feet closer towards Caca, The man looked so charming with the dark green shirt he was wearing and the neutral-looking black pants with his shirt.

"Assalamualaikum Ca" Caca lowered his head in not wanting to see the man, his voice sounded exactly the same as Brother's. The man who a few years ago left me without a word.

"Wa'alaikum salam warahmattullah hiwabarokattu, what's wrong mas? " Caca still lowered her gaze, the curiosity and shame she felt at that moment.

"This is Brother, Ca" his voice drew closer.

Caca immediately turned his head and looked at his face with such a sharp gaze. Caca's soft voice instantly turned into a hysterical voice with such a high tone.

"Devents."

Caca couldn't hold back her tears. At that moment the tears began to break. He rushed out from the face of the man he knew so well.

I hate him god ! I hate..... Why is it that when things are going normally you bring him back into my life. What he wants for me. Why did he come here. What's with him coming and going as he pleases. What he thinks, I'm a restaurant that can come and go at any time. Is that how I was in his eyes.

His mind is mixed.

"Racca? " he shouted with a call he often spoke. Caca left the man

"Fahyu Yudha Putrawan "who is more familiarly called Yudha, he is a male figure who has spent several years with Caca. He's a STATE ABDI and for Caca he's a nice guy with a million surprises, he said, he was very handsome with polite and loving character but who could not understand why he could leave Caca without certainty at that time , he just left like he was carried by an unstoppable gust of wind.

Pain, of course very very painful felt Caca's heart at that time! she doesn't want to be hypocritical because Caca is just an ordinary human being not an angel who feels nothing, pain that can't be revealed. A thousand apologies may not be able to remove the pain. Caca could only lament the pain although many times he tried to forget it but many times he failed.

What a great thing he is that I can't forget him, what he is Caca, you have to realize you're a little meaningless to him you're just an invisible shadow to him, he will come and go whenever he wants and whenever he likes, just ignore him never give him an apology.

But again his feelings carried over when his logic fantasized, very uncompromising between the feelings and logic of Caca at that time.something side he was disappointed and on the other hand he loved the man very much

Caca pu's tears flowed by themselves, sobbing screams of crying made Nadin run up to him at that moment.

"What's wrong, sister Caca? " asked Nadin in a panicked voice.

"Allah Din.... Why Din? Why?"Caca turned to ask Nadin. "The pain that has passed now comes again Din, I'm very tired of all this!" with sobbing cries.

Nadin opened both of his hands at that moment. Caca also welcomed hands and hugged Nadin tightly he felt comfort while in Nadin's arms. The hug that Nadin gave back then helped him ease a bit of the burden of the past being recalled.

"What's wrong with Caca?" many times the same question was thrown from Nadin's mouth.

M**sobbed and continued to cry without being able to say a word.

"Mak Caca is okay, why did Caca cry. Ma'am just rest at the store house so Nadin who takes care of it, Nadin can not see the Caca like this! " Nadin looked anxious at that moment by wiping the tears that were dripping on the girl's face.

"Syukron katsiron Din, thank you for being a friend and entertainer when I was down like this ? " with a hoarse tone he spoke to Nadin while releasing his embrace and smiling. He felt that the burden he was carrying seemed to have been lighter by then after spilling tears on Nadin's shoulders.

"And you can stay home. No problem, right? " he asked Nadin.

"No problem, I'm going home!" replied Nadin.

"Oh yes, the man sitting in front of it still seems to be waiting for it, it looks like there's something he's looking for"

"Oh yes Din syukron yes, mbak pamit go home, if there is a problem you send a message to mbak huh? Assalamualaikum warahmattullah hiwabarokattu Nadin" his greeting to say goodbye to Nadin.

"Wa'alaikum salam mbak, yes mbak later Nadin will contact mbak."

It turns out he's still waiting for me!

Caca opened the door to my shop and immediately ran into the car and leaned behind the wheel for a moment.

Alhamdulillah congratulations.

He approached Caca's car at such a fast pace.

"Racca? Open Ca, someone wants you to explain to me. Please Ca open the glass of his car give you a chance, not so Ca. Let's open Brother wants to talk to you, listen to Brother first Ca don't go. Don't go Caca..Ca..Caca..,..." Yudha screamed nonstop until Caca was completely invisible in her sight.

Caca did not want to ignore it anymore, he stepped on the gas pedal of the car very fast.

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What do you want bang, at a time like this you are present again in front of me. Is not satisfied the pain that you give it until you want to go back and give the pain again.

Caca stopped his crying at that moment, after he thought long calmly.

Why cry for someone who never appreciates my tears, no tears no one sells them. So stupid you drop tears just for a guy like him. What is the use of lamenting the wounds that the man gave. There are still many things you can do, there are still many things you have to think about, not just him - the man who is on this earth.

Rise Caca.

Rise up.

That was the spirit he could shout at his heart.

The car he was driving drove so fast. He looked around him, and there was such a beautiful view. The world is so vast but Caca is only fixated on one person. Yudha is able to stop Caca's time. The wheel of his life stopped.

He looked at every bird - a bird that flew across the car visible from the windshield that made Caca's heart a little entertained.

" Caca is still many of the most beautiful things in the world, forget he opened a new sheet" his hands repeatedly hit the steering wheel he drove.

But again - again his feelings are opposite.

What if he's really sorry, but how should I listen to him. CACA what are you thinking, this one guy can change your concentration. Come Caca behave appropriately walk accordingly do not be affected by anything, do not take the wrong steps and make you sick more and can add to the deep wounds for you.

There were so many questions in his mind that were beyond his own reasoning. He did not know what was on his mind at that time, as if he were walking on an uninhabited earth.

Concentration...

Concentration...

That's how Caca calms himself.

The car he was driving kept going faster.

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